Sourcing a Vasana with Awareness ~ Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia



Sourcing a Vasana with Awareness

Posted by Steve Beckow on June 25, 2014 /

I’m feeling driven, lashed by a vasana. And it may be the biggest vasana I’ve come upon yet.

There’s social value in sourcing it publicly. And so I’d like to do that, if you’ll permit me. The exploration is worth it and it’s OK to discuss matters like this!

I’m feeling driven to be at work. And while I don’t dispute the usefulness of that, the fact that I’m “driven” is vexing me. And causing extra work for those around me. I’m creating friction by showing frustration.

And so I ponder what I just said as the first step toward sourcing the vasana. I listen to myself, make an object of awareness of myself.

And I see that my desire to be at work is indeed driven by a vasana I’d call “total frustration.” I feel totally frustrated. I feel thwarted intention, failed expectation, undelivered communications everywhere, in the very large, external world. Not on a personal basis. It isn’t associated with any individual person. If it were, it’d be easier to handle. No, it’s the entire scene.

Nowhere do I see unmistakeable proof that anything of totally-major significance has happened. Not enough credible evidence exists that I would close the book on any major issue or event. Everything still seems open to me. Maybe I’m missing something.

The frustration I feel at the lack of closure in the scene we all watch is affecting every area of my life. I can’t ignore it. And others can’t ignore it … or ignore me. (Nor should they need to.)

It has command value over me. I’m completely captured by this vasana. Of course it doesn’t. But this is the emotional truth for me.

It must have some deeply-buried significance.

As the second step in sourcing the vasana, I ask my mind to throw up to my awareness any earlier, similar incidents associated with frustration.

Well, I come up against a wall of them. I’m completely overwhelmed by the merest contact with the wall of emotion that arises.

I seem to have felt frustrated in one area of my life after another so often that I may as well have a Ph.D. in the area.

Family that squabbled endlessly. People around me who squabbled endlessly. I squabbled endlessly.

No Ph.D., no satisfaction with any job, never completely satisfied, incomplete, frustrated. You don’t want to hear the story. Gawd, I became a twisted mister over frustration.

I know only too well that resolution of the vasana cannot rest with circumstances outside of me. They have to rest with circumstances inside of me. A vasana is personal. You don’t pass it on in your genes. I created the vasana. And only I can undo it, complete it, or source it, depending on what it requires.

So I look at the degree and amount of frustration in my life and I see it as a constant theme. Always frustrated, always frustrated. And so I ask myself: what is it that I seek?

And what I seek is resolution. Completion. Case closure. I want to be done with unresolved issues, circular arguments, and any other breach of the peace, basically. And I’m the worst offender. Judge Dredd in the area.

I have now gone round the loop once. Told the complete story. I now take a second and deeper cut at it.

And I see again, but at a deeper, more experienced level, that resolution was so lacking in my family of origin that I’m certifiably crazy in the area. It isn’t like a behaviour pattern. It’s like a full-scale tidal wave. I go crazy with too much irresolution. I can’t stand squabbling. I go nuts with things that are incomplete. This is my Achilles heel. So I now get the matter deeper.

And, hitting that level of understanding, a tremendous wall of feeling now erupts. I take time to experience it. Full surrender.

After experiencing as much of it as I could, I use degree of release to measure my progress. If I’ve stumbled onto the truth, the truth will set me free. I should feel some measure of relief from all this understanding and experiencing. If I don’t, then whatever I was thinking or experiencing, my interpretation was not the truth. I need to try again.

I do feel a small measure of release from seeing this much, not enough to satisfy me. So I press on. I ask myself again: Where is there intolerable irresolution in my life?

It’s all in the global arena. I haven’t seen such stark evidence before me that I would say case closed on anything of truly-major significance: Disclosure, the Reval, Ascension, anything.

For a person with my background, staring that realization in the face is enough to drive me crazy. Based on my family history, I go crazy around irresolution faster than most people and swing further out with it. The wall of emotion that hits me when I feel frustrated sweeps me off my feet.

I hate irresolution and, in the face of it, I want closure. If the unresolution increases, I go crazy after a while. That’s my modus operandi. That’s how the twig was bent and the tree inclined. That’s the self-chosen impact of the vasana on me.

This is not the kind of vasana that hinges on a single event or a single issue. It results from the repeated experience of frustration and irresolution. I don’t handle frustration well.

The exploration so far rings true and brings about fifty percent release. So I got a good chunk of the vasana to this point.

I need to monitor myself completely, such is the power of this vasana to sweep me away.

This is it’s profile. And my understanding combined with experiencing a minute part of the wall of emotion, does cause the vasana to lift a significant amount, still more to go.

Lessons Learned

I don’t think there’s gonna be a quick resolution to many of the events facing the world. Not as quick as we’d like. That’s what my intuition tells me. These are global events. Their significance goes well past the galaxy. And much more free will than I imagined is being allowed. I must live with uncertainty and unresolution.

Considering this, I conclude that my vasana no longer serves me. It no longer works for me to be a mere effect of my frustration. It doesn’t work for those around me either.

I no longer embrace this vasana. I want my life back.

This vasana was “worked” using the intelligence of the mind. Most vasanas are sourced by experiencing the resisted feelings to completion. But mine felt too large for that.

And this is what it took to source it. There was not a straight line through it. I had to ask myself questions repeatedly to prompt the mind, or other source, to throw up the answers. And then what was seen had to be experienced, if even incompletely. Then the cycle had to be repeated and repeated until I got to the bottom of it.

And now comes the feeling of completion and a felt need to rest.



Ariah Velasquez – The Light Always Prevails – 24 June 2014

Ariah Velasquez – The Light Always Prevails – 24 June 2014

Lucas 2012 Infos

ariah_goldThose who walk for the light, in the light, need not fear…for all comes from the light even if it has morphed and changed into something else as we as humans experiment with duality.  However, when you bring the light into your consciousness and body, it will always shine on what needs to be released to be brought back into the light.  You need only to listen, look, and ask.  You have free will, and yes there is divine will too.  However, if energies are sent to manipulate out of fear, jealousy, pain, whatever the root, free will will allow you to cleanse and clear your field no matter what.

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The Tsolians on truth of your existence ~ digging into the core of it. Meline Lafont @ Awaken Spirit from Within

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The Tsolians on truth of your existence ~ digging into the core of it.

June 24, 2014

Conveyed through Méline Portia Lafont

Note from Méline: This is a message that may have to been read a few times to truly absorb this in our being. If you find it too hard to take in or understand, I advice to let it be for a while until you are ready to grasp this better on another now moment. Who are the Tsolians? see their first two messages here:

It is time that we speak and elaborate more, further and deeper on the truth of your existence. We do not speak about the human existence but of that of your Spirit, which you call Essence, Self or Higher Self. Existence is a word on its own, unique in its way and so broad in its meaning. It consists of all that IS and simultaneously it can be a unique and single word on its own.

It is from that existence that all and everything came through into boundaries, into depths, into heights and into weight. Existence has started to take on forms of consciousness, forms of separation, forms of individuals, as well as Rays, Light, Dark, vibrations and frequencies. It is that where we all are formed from and are birthed through and from. Even Love has been birthed from existence as existence is life force and, just as everything else, Love was born from the life force of existence to experience that Love and seed everything else from the vibration, known as the All That Is.

Dark matter contains in truth the creation of all, or better said that Source which allows existence to even BE. It is that existence, which we all are made from, that became all out of the nothingness which is allness at once : Omnil (All – nothingness).

So as you venture forth in the different realities and planes of existence, you receive certain degrees of individual prospects on whether creation in its form and reality is a part of your existence or that of another that forms existence along with you. Dubious issue isn’t it? It is that which we call the mystery of all, which we maintain in the Self as we are all made of this. Still it is incomprehensible at your level of being to truly evoke this.

It is through the merging again with Spirit that you are being infused with the Sacred blueprint where your Self is birthed from existence and as allowance is in its full Grace on its now momentum, we access the key of this existence step by step. Invoke this through your being and you become its consciousness back into its natural state.

It is while reaching out with the fingertips that you can now start to feel its warmth of illumination of what existence truly is. Your demands are being answered graciously through your own Self. If you would find your Self again in dark matter, where would you be and go? All, everywhere and nowhere. Is it something that would feel familiar to you right now in this instant if you would be Dark matter again? That is why we say to appreciate the time and the processes you go through, to experience existence in all its myriads forms and flavors, vibrations and frequencies, for you are existence and the force of life.

Existence on your planes and Earthly realities are now drastically shifting into other ways of experience through existence, as the old energies that have been used to form this duality existence are merging again with the Sol energies of the Cosmic Source which allows another frequency and Ray of particles to emanate through your consciousness and to even “embody” this.

It is with the force of all existence that Dark matter, the origin and source of All That Is, emanates the experiences through various life forces, through levels of consciousness and through vibrations. Therefore the life force is actually a reason to exist in the first place, which seeds the existence to BE. Life force is the first energy atomic vibration that is birthed out of the Dark matter as a breath of creation, for life force is the basis of existence as nothing can exist without it.

Dark matter is not associated with the dark aspects of creation and of life; it is called Dark matter because it holds everything together and there is no particle of light to be seen there as light too is a creation and existence that was birthed out of the source of Dark matter as a vibration and form of denser light. We call this denser light as everything that comes from the Source and has separated itself from the Source to experience and to exist as a separate consciousness from the Source is denser on its own than the original Source of it.

The atomic structures of Light are particles that are accelerating their speed of creation and life force, which makes it visible as a blueprint. Although Light is the highest frequency you can abide in at this time, you will see that there is a much higher frequency that does not contain light because its structure and blueprint are of pure life force which is a consciousness on its own and which creates all consciousness.

In fact there is no higher rate for it is the human brain constructs of seeing everything in levels and rates as in Source there is no level and all IS one and the same. It is that consciousness that some of you are already able and start to “grasp” as you embody that particle of your being, for yes you have this all within you somewhere along the line.

It is with the truest pleasure and blessings that we come forth with this sharing for you all. Until next time when we will speak of the Rays of consciousness.

The Tsolians

Méline Lafont 2012 – 2014, permission is given to share freely in its entirety and unaltered Website Méline : and blog Méline:

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Understanding the Merkabah and Inter-Dimensional Travel

Understanding the Merkabah and Inter-Dimensional Travel

Openhearted Rebellion

MerkabahWritten by Free Spirit, Guest for Waking Times, June 24, 2014 –

The Merkabah Vehicle is the means for travelling to higher dimensional planes and for ascending the physical body out of the 3rd dimension. Our Merkabah Vehicle is in essence our own inter-dimensional star-craft – similar to the structure in the Contact movie, albeit far more complex. The degree to which we have assembled our Merkabah Vehicle, will determine how far we can progress through the Astral Planes and whether we are able to use the interstellar and intergalactic wormholes.

As we awaken to our higher dimensional selves and engage in conscious astral travel, we begin to ‘build’ our Merkabah. This process is also greatly assisted by vibratory cleansing, emotional healing, karmic transmutation and the detoxification of harmful substances from our bodies. This then activates dormant DNA strands within our Being and our Light Body is…

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The Importance of Auric Maintenance & Requiste Energetic ‘Psychic Defense’ @ Earth-Keeper


James Tyberonn @ Earth-Keeper Videos

Mechanics & Requisite Maintenance of the Human Aura


Brilliant presentation live at the Edgar Cayce A.R.E. on the mechanics & essential importance of the human aura. Includes detailed information on the purpose of the Human Crystalline Electromagnetic Field, the Mer-Ka-Na Lite Body, with information on how to maintain an optimal functioning Auric Field, with inclusions of what causes can create Auric Ruptures (Auric Fissuring & Auric Energy Bleeding) and methods of Auric repair and Auric fortification. The presentation covers the topic of ‘Psychic Self Defense, deflecting negative attachments and thought forms and the increasing importance of understanding the full workings of Auric mechanics in the increasing energy of the New Earth. This is a must see presentation.