ART : Giotto di Bondone
(…) And weeks later – I emerge . Not triumphant – but alive – and that in itself is the gift.
I’ve been ‘resting’ if you will. For days and days – I have been merely existing , it seems – with no insight worth sharing – seemingly too tired to physically remember events which occurred while in Dreamland . Headaches have plagued me. Physical fatigue has taken over. Confusion has set in. And a total disconnect from the Source and its vibratory Presence has been noted. And for someone such as myself – it’s difficult – and extremely humbling. I’ve existed in 3D – after being lifted to heights that only a few have been blessed enough to experience and comprehend. And now I remember ….. I remember WHY I am here – and I understand HOW I must help …..
Things are shifting. We’re rebuilding ourselves. Our thought patterns. Our ideologies. We’re strengthening our core values – and we’re sharing them with those around us. I’m part of that process – always have been and hope to always be active. So when things ‘mysteriously’ shut down – it was difficult and painful. To feel that disconnect. To be told that for now – I needed to rest. To think. And to find myself and be grounded before I was to proceed.
It’s only two nights ago that it happened. It’s come back – and I am once again surrounded and filled with the energies of the Universe. I travelled to Council twice in two nights – and have received messages for myself – on how to better things around me – how to guide – how to help – how to help bring peaceful resolutions to local issues ( mainly in our immediate families ). Upon my return from the astral realm this morning, I was greeted by none other than Nathaniel – my beloved twin flame – whom I had not seen in quite some time. This morning – he was ever more present and visible – and I was thrilled and excited to reconnect with him. I feel complete again – ready to take on the World – and re-energized to help those around me.
The physical symptoms are still ever present. More so – it seems – as I adjust once again to the pressures of this Earth. I have a migraine headache which is omnipresent – and my ears are buzzing and swooshing. I know that this too shall pass. It always does. So perhaps I shall wait it out – take it a little easier today – on myself and on others around me. Absorbing the fact that I am so grateful to be Alive. Well. And back on the path of helping those around me.
Envelop me in your arms Nathaniel – and help this painful moment run its course so that tomorrow, I may once again be strong and ready to take on the Universe with you . But just for today – hold me. Love me. And fill me with your Love and Warmth . Dry my tears and fill my consciousness with loving energy. Help me help others ….