On Withholding and Transparency ~ Part 2/2 : Andrea Scully @ Golden Age of Gaia

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ART : ‘Shaman’ ~ Susan Seddon Boulet


On Withholding and Transparency – Part 2/2

transparency(Continued from Part One.)

Is protecting myself so important as to have a value higher than truth and transparency? I don’t think so. I think this is one of the biggest contributors of the trouble we keep on creating with these sorts of choices as individuals and as a global community.

The releasing of all the reasons not to be authentic and transparent, and the releasing of all secret-keeping was a part of the agreement I made with myself in order to recover and move out of drug addiction, misery, and victim consciousness.

If thirty years of keeping secrets and seeing first hand how this doesn’t work hadn’t taken me to the such levels of extremity, perhaps this core issue wouldn’t have popped open for me to see what was needed for me to deal with it in ways that do work.

Here’s a sample of a portion of the shift I had in reasoning during this process.

The reasoning that says one has to fortify oneself behind a wall and ‘not-me’ mask doesn’t take into consideration that from an observer’s point of view all it takes is one look at me to see where the fortification is, and then all know perfectly well where the weak spot is. Those who would wish to attack or to take advantage of this will do so, no matter what one does to avoid it. Rather than being protection, it’s actually creating a target with a big bullseye.

This faulty reasoning also doesn’t take into account that the foundation of such fortifications and protections are built on fear. Since fear is the foundation, it’s not in alignment with the Truth, which is always coming from Love.

The basis of this fear, whatever its face, is the belief that there’s something unlovable and unacceptable here, and the fortification for it, the withholding, is a neon arrow pointing right to it. For any who would wish to attack me, or to take me out of a situation, this sign reads;, here is my broken heart, here is my place out of integrity, the weak place, my death zone, place your arrow here.

What holds such core fears in place in the first place are the ways we’re failing ourselves in giving the unconditional love necessary for our foundation, and instead we’re trying to fortify the lies we hold which are based in fear.  It occurred to me, at one point, that doing this was unworthy of all my life energy, and that it was in fact undermining me and my ability to do what I came here to do.

To build this foundation of unconditional love deep inside ourselves is the work we’re called to do and no one else can give us this aspect of Divine Grace. How can they when we are so busy denying ourselves of it, and denying there is a need for it?

When one gets over the fear of coming out with whatever-it-is the fear is supposedly protecting, what ammunition is there left for anyone to use against anyone? Once the whole story is known to all, then the idea of blackmail over it is laughable. Who will you tell? I’ve already told them.

I have no secrets left, and therefore there’s no need for the fortification, or to squander my energy worrying over the discovery of my weaknesses. The good, the bad, and the ugly is out in the open for all to see and know.

From here, from this foundation of Divine Grace in the form of the unconditional love and acceptance I give to myself, and therefore, seated in truth and transparency; for the first time in my life, I have a chance to begin anew.

Whatever choices I make now are what matters. Many mistakes and mis-alignments have happened, but the magic is in the fact that in every moment there’s an opportunity for me to choose again.

I’m choosing Love.  It starts with me.  If this is courage, then it is, but I say it’s compassion and I say it’s the remedy for much of what ails us.



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On Withholding and Transparency ~ Part 1/2 : Andrea Scully @ Golden Age of Gaia

ART : ‘Sand and Sea Horses’ ~ by Sandra R Cutrer


On Withholding and Transparency – Part 1/2

fearlessly authenticA conversation I had with a colleague recently brought up some interesting insights into the subject of dealing with core issues. I’ve been asked to share some of my personal experience with this here.

A core issue has been explained as whatever it is that we’re withholding, either from others and often-times from ourselves, which ‘we’d rather die than face’. We all have something like this.

I don’t believe there’s anyone who’s exempt from this sort of deep fear-based issue. We’re so diverse that I don’t pretend to know what the answer is for everyone. I can only share what my own personal thoughts are.

It’s my view that authenticity trumps everything. What’s real and what’s true in any given moment have the power to do this.

No matter what else is said and done, until one is coming from an authentic place, a true place, particularly when going into situations that are looking for solutions to problems, there’s no place to go with it.

It robs everyone concerned of the ability to know what’s going on, and it clouds all the issues at hand, so the result ends up being that what we’re conversing and brainstorming about is about what ‘isn’t’.

The sheer amount of energy it takes to withhold what’s true and authentic is immense. It’s like an never-ending stream of anxiety over whether the secret whatever-it-is will be found out, and over the threat of the imagined consequences of what would happen if everything were known to everyone.

It’s a miracle we don’t feel even more exhausted than we do, given that this is what most of us are doing all the time. We keep the core issue pressed into the unconscious realms, as any thought that approaches this territory is bringing up a feeling like we’re going to die.

Authenticity has immeasurable power in the life of the person who dares to cast aside whatever fears are there as ‘reasons’ for there to be less than honest, truthful and transparent in relations, and it has the greatest power in the lives of those in relation to the people concerned as well. It reveals how it really is from the very heart and soul in the living moment of now.

No matter what this moment reveals, everyone concerned can now stop squandering all the energy it takes to deal with what isn’t, and can now deal with what’s actually true in that moment. All of it.

It’s been suggested that I have balls of steel. No wonder my pocket is jingling. But the truth is something quite different. The difference is in the foundation that underlies the choices I make and the value I assign to those choices.

The conversation that happened to bring out these insights was centered around me listening to a dear friend tell me the reasons that there would need to be great care given to withholding sensitive information about oneself that could possibly serve as a reason for someone to latch onto and use it against you.

It’s reasoned that this is necessary in order to protect those close to oneself as well. The thought here is that too much transparency could jeopardize one’s ability to complete the mission one came to do, that this sort of exposure is a weakening factor, and therefore opens one up to attack over whatever the judgment is about one’s character, habits, or past.

As I listened, I completely understood this line of thought. I recognized it as a portion of my own thought patterns too.

Who hasn’t been attacked? Who hasn’t had their intent questioned or their past flung in their face? There’s a part of me that wishes to protect myself and my loved ones from the possibility of attack and from any discomfort whatsoever. I get it.

Only, as I listened, I also knew that if I were to agree that this line of thought was a true and valid way to proceed in my life, then as a person who came here on a ‘mission’, as so many of us have, I’m personally finished.

I might as well pack it in and leave the planet. My personal history is such that there’s sufficient ammunition to take out dozens of people, not just little ol’ me.

Therefore, unless I wish to forget my promise and my mission here, unless I wish to go ahead and die, then the choice is clear, at least for me. And it is a choice. In my case, the fact that it’s a choice is plain, though it may not be so for others.

Perhaps there are ‘reasons’ truly out there that make it ‘reason’able to choose withholding what is authentic and true as the only viable option, and which makes this option or choice a way which has some chance of building a world that works for everyone. However, it seems to me that this isn’t so, particularly for those of us who are positioning to take more public service roles in this planetary paradigm shift.lose the mask

We are all so used to being lied to, and to what we’ve been programmed to see as the necessities of dealing with a world where withholding is what we’ve had to do to get by. Take a look at any TV soap opera for an endless supply of story-lines with these ‘reasonable’ lies and withholds built into them. I think you get my point.

But even this skill we’ve learned for withholding (with the negative drama it always creates), is not enough to keep us, as beings, from knowing on some subtle level that this withholding is happening. It translates to the feeling that this isn’t going to work, and the worse part of it is that there’s no opportunity to even know why.

This is a large part of how we’ve learned to live in a world that doesn’t work for everyone. It’s as if we’re both hostage and terrorist all rolled into one. What we withhold is hostage. It’s the truth that needs to be set free and needs to be known in order to have a proper foundation in relations and in living. It’s the only way I know of to proceed from what is Real in this moment.
Continued in Part Two.


Lion’s Gate ~ Diamond Light Grid ~ Current energies update ~ Meline Lafont @ Awaken Spirit from Within


Lion’s Gate ~ Diamond Light Grid ~ Current energies update

August 6, 2014

Hi sweet friends and family,

Just  a note and a short update on the energies that are going on in my life at this time.  As you have noticed, I have not been able to bring out as much channelings recently.  This is so because I am swamped with service work, readings, sessions, creating the channeling course, summer holidays with my kids being home and the preparation for the upcoming event with Anrita Melchizedek in Glastonbury UK on august 8 -9 and 10.  So I will be a little bit less present concerning channelings because of this all until September.  To all of you who are coming to Glastonbury to meet up: I AM looking forward to connect with you all, truly ❤

On a side note to all of you who are doing the channeling course, and all of you that wish to start the channeling course: Module 2 is available in English and in Dutch! So you find this in my webshop on my website: www.melinelafont.com

The second Module consists of and is divided in 2 parts to make it easier to absorb and to give you the time to work yourself through this. The first part will be send out already when you purchased, the second part will be send out to you at the end of august as the audio’s for part 2 are still in the make.

That being said, let’s talk about the current energies and unfoldings.  As in everyone’s personal reality things and energies are shifting into great gears!  All on its own way and everyone is dealing with their own energies and shifts on profound ways.  My journey has been full of beautiful shifts and new people coming into my life that are soul related. I have been experiencing reblendings, initiations and actualizations of Twin Flame reunion on certain levels, expansion, leveling up and merging of the higher bodies.  Beside of that, there is a lot of tiredness experienced and felt in the physical body due to all of these energetic shifts in the heart and the field of my Presence.

The elemental kingdom is making its approach clearer and stronger as they are more present in life.  This is so because our fields and energies are becoming clearer and lighter as to the vibrational resonance with their beingness and energies and that of our own. The barrier is getting lesser.

There are new connections being made, as a sort of liaison, with new beings that we were not presently aware of concerning their existence.  This is because of our expansion in the field of the heart and the emerging of our natural true Self that is One with All That Is.  New and deeper connections are made with particles of our soul essence, our soul family and even twin flame.  We are getting a more natural sense of who we are and represent in this lifetime and beyond, which is birthing the new planes of being.

Have you noticed that our short term memory is fading as well lately? Everything you read, take in or say instantly vanishes from the mind and memory, leaving you with the feeling of not knowing what you just read in the first place. This applies on situations and creations as well; something happens and it vanishes out of your memory easier and faster than you are used to.  This all is so to assist in the being and staying in the NOW as you start to BE in the Now more and more every single moment of your being.  It helps you to stay focused on being in the now and to not cling to any past energies and to tap in the Now and your Source of being at every single moment.  This is an excellent progression in its full course to only BE.

The Lion’s gate is upcoming shortly and as always this gate functions as a strong energy movement to set new seeds and to empower the Christed energies and bring these to a Solar level.  Those who have begun their initiations of light body activations will have a deeper sense of this activation in your cellular anatomy and experience deeper merging and even expansion of your own Christed Light.  Those who will begin with these initiations will start of with a marker of a deep transfiguring Divine Flame awakening in the heart field as the lion’s gate is power and empowerment.

Focus on Love, peace, expansion and the Christed energies as we anchor the Diamond light grid on Earth.  This refined Divine Light of the Diamond light grid brings in Cosmic awareness and Christed expansion to Gods consciousness.  We are in shifts that we have never ever experienced before: we are asked to honor and treasure those and to not look behind anymore but to allow.  To allow is to anchor that light into the Earthly grid through your own Goddess and God consciousness.

Be the one you have been waiting for, because you are the one you have been waiting for.  Not some magician who comes in to magically shift this Earth for you, it is you that has the responsibility of your own Magical kingdom and shift. And because you have the power and the inner wisdom to do so, it is important to allow the current energies and inner shifts to unfold and to let all the rest go and be.  This is priority now: to hold that space and honor the Grace from within.

I wish you all a most Magical and beautiful lion’s gate, I will be off to Glastonbury in a bit and will hold that space with you and for you all at the Tor and the lands of Avalon.  I will share about this all on my website as to what we have co-created as one.

With Love,

Méline Portia Lafont

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