I used to be able to separate awareness from love years ago, but nowadays, when I tune into my awareness, love arises with it.
Noticing this came about in the course of looking more deeply into my core issue of self-importance/entitlement, so as not to be swept away by the Reval.
When I went to expand my awareness, I experienced the flow of love. But I hadn’t called upon love. I’d called upon awareness.
I then realized that love and awareness travel together – provided we can vibrationally recognize and welcome them to begin with.
I’d known awareness before, but much of my learning about love has been much more recent. I hadn’t associated the two before. It just never occurred to me.
But how could awareness be everything and love be everything and awareness not be love? Everything plus everything is everything, is it not? One plus One is One.
A very simple consideration of the matter suggests that the situation couldn’t be any other way.
Perhaps two years ago, I saw that awareness was not neutral but dissolutive. All I needed to do was to rest in awareness of a vasana and its elements for it to disappear.
Now I see that awareness and love are one.
Some people say we should raise our core issues to awareness; other people say we should love them. As matters stand at the moment, with awareness and love being one, both sides are shown to be right.
Seeing this was for me the first incident of the day that was startling. The second came on the bus and was so novel to me that it surprised me.
For the first time in memory, I sat facing a man whom I smiled at without having anything going on with me or any conditioned reaction. I was completely empty – at that moment – of reactivity. I was surprised at what it felt like. I almost wanted to stand up and shout “Hooray!”
Until that time, I’d look on someone else ready to flinch or turn aside. Always defensive, always protecting myself. My wife called it my “scared-wolf look.” And that was pretty accurate.
I marveled at feeling totally in balance for the moment, absolutely neutral in response but loving in initiative. It might soon disappear and I’d be my ordinary somewhat-isolated self again, but it was eye-opening while it lasted.
Each one of these mini-breakthroughs is like a milestone on the path up the mountain, telling me we’re getting somewhere.