(Continued from Part 1, above.)
Mutual pervasiveness was how the merging felt to me. I lost the distinction between the two of us. We dissolved separation.
In Werner Erhard’s terms, I crossed the line between unconscious and conscious awareness. I was in a transformed space with another. And me and that other became One.
However this was not your normal, average other. This was my Higher Self. The impact of gazing on and merging with him was life-altering, not just in one respect but many.
In what respects? First of all, in how I feel. I feel profound confidence and certainty, invigoration and inspiration. I could have marched into the Valley of the Shadow of Death at the moment I gazed on the man in the vision. I would have followed him anywhere. (1)
Second, I now know how the story ends, how it all turns out. I know what I’m aiming for. I know what I’m serving.
Now that I know where I’m going, I can drop all my strategies, machinations, designs, workarounds, shortcuts. In a cosmic way, I can relax. I know purpose, design, and destination.
Seen from a slightly different angle, I’ve just been given a template, a blueprint, the plans for the accomplishment of my sacred purpose in life.
I simply have to hearken back to what I saw that day and get the picture, again. What a blessing that is.
Third, I feel amazingly reassured on a matter I didn’t even know existed.
A deep wound that surfaced in me was a spiritually-abandoned child. I found that I’ve been telling myself for years that I’ve been abandoned by God in this awful and cruel world, where wars happen and people kill each other. Why? Why? I asked myself.
All of that came up to be healed.
A fourth benefit of this experience was that I’d hungered to find a way to become gentler and kinder, while at the same time remaining a servant and protector. The vision showed me how the two could co-exist.
The vision I saw, which I gazed at for a few seconds, was all I needed to know. Goodbye, my heroes and heroines, with profound gratitude. Hello, my very own Self.
As I gazed on that vision, I “felt” someone say: “Is this what you’re looking for?” Oh, yes. Indeed it was. Thank you to everyone who brought it to me.
The intensity of this event will probably fade over time. Within a couple of weeks, I suspect, it’ll be a distant memory. Or with my memory, perhaps a couple of days.
The event was brought on by my invoking Archangel Michael and the Divine Mother and the Universal Laws of Change, Transmutation and Elimination. My tutor in the divine laws has been Kathleen. My eternal thanks to all who made it possible.
One cannot live through an experience like this, most of it at a realizational level, and not be profoundly affected. I don’t know where it fits into the scheme of things but it has been transformative, probably in some ways I haven’t discovered yet. So, yes, to the solar eclipse for me. Yes, to the Emerald Gateway. Yes, to the Tsunami of Love.
I need to take a few days off and just be with the experience, folks. I may need to share. I don’t know. If I don’t write these things down, they’re lost.
But the introvert side of me also needs some stillness and silence to recharge its battery as well as allow the experience my full attention.
I do hope everyone’s solar eclipse/Emerald Gateway is as rewarding as mine. Our Higher Selves are One. Why not us?
(1) Don’t follow me. Follow your Higher Self.