Default to the Red or the Gold? Steve Beckow

Sailing Home Painting – Canada – by Graham Herbert


Default to the Red or the Gold?

I’ve just invoked the Law of Sacred Purpose and my guides, Michael, and the Mother to gift me with an enormous amount of love right now as I make the transition from being in the red emotionally to being in the gold.

I’m making a shift from my default being blame, doubt, and pessimism to it being forgiveness, compassion, and gratitude. (1)

I’m getting a better understanding of Michael’s term “addiction to pain.” I’ve been addicted or habituated to habits of behavior that have only ever brought me and others pain.   That’s their output and residue.

I’m addicted to them because of my unwillingness ever to have to endure some traumatic event I endured in the past.

That creates a vasana or core issue. If I’m vigilant and proactive, I won’t ever have to endure pain myself. Others perhaps, but not me. My vasana protects me.

Here’s what happened tonight – a rainy, blustering evening outside.

I was lonely and I decided I wanted a piece of pizza. That would definitely do it for me.

And on the way I shifted my feeling from loneliness to love. I began to love myself, as Kathleen recommends.

And then I observed myself falling back into some sort of default. And I saw that my default was in the red, in the negative. I was addicted to pain.

All my fatigue derives from it, all my despair and dismay. Garbage in, garbage out. As within, so without.

The payoff is that I get to be left alone – to write.

Nice, neat little package called “life.” Life in a bottle.

It’s like a Broadway play that will run as long as there’s an audience to see it. Once the audience stops coming, the play fades away.

OK, now I know the mechanism that lies below my suffering, my addiction to pain. I default to the negative; my residuum and desired outcome is pain and misery.

Games up when I become aware of my scripts and acts. Awareness is all that’s needed to have them subside. If I’m a participant observer in my life, this is the observer part.

Unlike the positive or divine states, the negative or dissonant states cannot last. They must be recharged on every occasion or they fade from memory.

I have to act them out, shout if they require shouting, be rude if they require that. Then they go back down recharged in memory and I am “stronger.”

The divine states will go, for sure – if we turn our face from them, if we abuse them, etc.  But of their native nature, they’re eternal and therefore lasting. They need no recharging in and of themselves. We do, but they don’t.

On the one hand, our vasanas want to stay forever but subside if we simply observe them. On the other hand, the divine states will not remain if we abuse or neglect them but expand if we simply observe them.

Vasanas that come from the constructive side of life result in pleasing things coming our way; vasanas from the destructive side, unpleasant things. I can bear witness to that state of affairs. That’s what we come into life to experience and learn from, I think.

It’s a struggle to get myself to default to the positive. I have to acknowledge it. I am the last resistor. I will never forgive. I will never forget.  I will always remember injustice, unfairness.

Nothing needs doing. I’m just aware of it all as it all floods back into memory, is observed, and is released.


(1) Kathleen’s formulation.


Sailing Home Painting – Canada – by Graham Herbert

THE EMPOWERING GIFT OF FORGIVENESS – Archangel Michael Through Ronna Herman

Wings of Love Painting by Toni Carmine Salerno @ Artmajeur






Beloved masters, as the higher frequencies of Light and Creator wisdom permeate the Earth and humanity, a radical shift in consciousness is taking place.  More and more precious Souls are questioning their basic beliefs and examining their life patterns, the many structures they have built, both physical and mental, which make up their personal reality. Fear and uncertainty are rampant, and a great majority of people fear that the best times are past, and the future looks bleak and uncertain.

It is normal to resist or be uncomfortable with dramatic changes, especially when people feel they are not in charge and in control of their future. That is why it is so important to tap into the wisdom of your Higher Self, and to connect with your wonderful angelic guides and teachers.

Know that the pathway home has always been in place and your return to the higher realms of illumination is assured. However, be aware that the secret of how this is accomplished comes from within, not from your outer world.  The internal transformation process can be accomplished with ease and grace when you once again gain access to the wisdom of your Sacred Heart and Mind. We encourage you to take advantage of all the wonderful information that is coming forth from the Realms of Light via the many messengers and teachers who have dedicated their lives to bringing forth advanced universal wisdom.

Beloved ones, you are deep in the process of healing past transgressions, and releasing the painful memories of your many past lives on the earthly plane – as well as those from throughout your solar system and galaxy as well.

We have said before, you will not be punished or cast into hell. Will you please heed our words? You are not judged – you never have been judged by anyone or any Being from the unseen or higher realms – YOU ONLY JUDGE YOURSELF!

Under the Universal Laws of cause and effect, all your thoughts, intentions and deeds are stored within your auric field and your chakra system, and you radiate the vibrational patterns created thereby, which go forth from you in an infinity pattern and return to you in like frequencies and measure. In the past it often took many lifetimes to reap the rewards for positive, loving actions, or to experience the penalties for negative or hurtful actions. Therefore, most often, it was not obvious that the righteous are indeed rewarded, and the unrighteous also receive their just rewards in kind. Again, no great or small Being is doling out rewards or punishment. The Universal Laws are firmly in place, and your own Higher Self monitors your progress or lack thereof; either clearing the way ahead, and blessing you with miracles large and small − or by placing more obstacles before you in hopes you will awaken and step onto the spiral of Ascension.

Dear hearts, too many of you are carrying great burdens from the past, mistakes you have made in this lifetime, and also many from past conditioning and buried memories of painful events or actions from all your previous lifetimes. Holding onto these memories or carrying the burdens of inequity no longer serves you. It is time for you to allow us to help you heal the painful memories stored within your physical vessel and auric field, just as we are clearing the distortions of the Third-and Fourth-Dimensional collective consciousness belief patterns and bringing those dimensions back into their originally designed spectrum of duality.

As you descended into the restricted, limiting realms of consciousness, the veil of forgetfulness was placed over your memory so that, most often, you could not remember your past lives, for it would be too much of a burden to remember all your past mistakes and imperfections. It was an act of mercy, for it has proven difficult enough for you to forgive yourselves for your errors and misjudgments in this lifetime, much less all your past aberrations. These restrictive membranes of Light are slowly dissolving as you return to balance and harmony and advance on the spiral of ascension and reunification. An important fact to remember is that even though you no longer recall your past errors and the thoughts and deeds that threw you off balance, those energies are still present within your cellular structure waiting to be rectified and returned to harmony within. That is the process you are now in the midst of at this time: through your conscious awareness and by aligning your will with the Will of your Higher Self and our Mother/Father God, all that is not in harmony with the frequencies of the higher Fourth Dimension are roiling up within to be healed and returned to the harmonics of peaceful coexistence, joy and loving intention.

Imagine a great orchestra playing a symphony; however, each instrument is a little off-key. Now imagine how uncomfortable that would make you. And then, picture some of the most powerful negative vibrational patterns you have sent forth in the past − instead of beautiful, melodic frequencies which lift and inspire − it is as if you have been sending forth discordant frequencies, which clash and create chaos instead of balance and harmony.  Can you bring to mind some of the positive vibrational patterns you have radiated forth recently, which have been as powerful as your negative thought forms?

Your Soul Song has gradually lost some of its pure and harmonious frequency patterns, and therefore, both your inner and outer worlds have become off-balance and discordant. We have stressed over and over again, one of the greatest challenges, yet the most important thing to be accomplished in order to step onto the spiral of ascension, is to return to center within your Solar Power Center. This facilitates the opening of the Sacred Heart, and thereby, allows the Creator Light to flow freely to and from you. This, in turn, assists you to reclaim your uniquely beautiful and harmonious Soul signature.

We have explained how a membrane of Light was placed over the portal at the back of your Sacred Heart Center until it was time for you to begin your journey back into the higher dimensions and the realms of Light. However, you and you alone placed a membrane of protection over the front portal to your Sacred Heart Center because you have been hurt, disappointed and disillusioned so often.

Slowly but surely, through the techniques we have given you, you have dissolved those restrictive membranes so that the Love/Light can flow freely to and from you in the way it was intended.  In order to access and radiate the ever-increasing frequencies of Light, you must be able to integrate and permeate your Being with these advanced vibrational patterns. Then, you must be prepared to radiate them down into the core of the Earth, and project them out into the world at large, via your Sacred Heart Center portals – both front and back.

Envision how you looked when you first came to Earth: you were a shining crystalline Pillar of Light, filled with a full allotment of the virtues, qualities and talents of your God Ray consciousness.  Slowly as you sank into the density, you began to build a cross of matter, which became more and more unwieldy as your spectrum of Light and shadow increased. You are now in the process of loving those Fragments you have created back into balance and harmony as you seek and tap into higher and higher frequencies of Light. You are in the process of becoming a cross of Light, beloveds, as your spinal chakra system becomes ignited and you radiate Love/Light from the front and back portals of your Sacred Heart Center.

Why not move into the center of the spiral of ascending consciousness – into the eye of duality and polarity where all is calm and peaceful, and filled with pure cosmic life force substance called Adamantine Particles – waiting to be molded into your vision of the future? This very moment, as you move into your Sacred Heart Center, you can experience the profound love and compassion of our Father/Mother God and the Supreme Creator, knowing that you are a treasured son/daughter on an important mission and that nothing you can say or do can diminish that love.


Stand in front of a mirror and gaze into your own eyes or go into your Pyramid of Light and lie on the crystal table.

Say to yourself, “I forgive myself for any action, thought or deed – past, present or future – in this or any other reality, which has not been composed of the frequencies of Sacred Love. I forgive everyone with whom I have shared conflicting, discordant energies during my present or past lives – in this or any other reality – and I return to them, wrapped in a bubble of love, all negative memories, impacted energies and probable futures that we have created together. I ask the angels of forgiveness to permeate all Facets of my Being with the frequencies of Love/Light so that I may become Soul-focused and heart-centered as a Bearer of Light and a Self-master.”

Breathe deeply as you move into your Sacred Heart Center. Allow the pure Love/Light to pour down through you via your Higher Self. Feel the expansion in your heart center as this Divine Elixir of Love permeates the very depths of your Being. Sacred Love is what frees you from the shackles you have woven around yourselves, binding, restricting and entangling you in karmic interactions. When you deny this love, you are denying your heritage and your Divine birthright. Perform this exercise as often as necessary until you feel you have accepted the truth that you are worthy of forgiveness.

Forgiveness is a very personal act, and it must come from the heart. It does not matter if others forgive you or not. When you forgive from the heart, it changes the energy dynamics between you and others. As we have said before, you can only change yourself, and you must allow others to change in their own time and way. You are only responsible for your own spiritual growth. However, remember, dear hearts, your loving energy speaks for itself and it creates miracles.

Forgiveness of Self, which facilitates a forgiveness of all others, is an integral step in the process of opening the portal to your Sacred Heart Center. Your heart portal must be open in order to successfully connect with the many Facets of your Divine Self and your universal consciousness. You must make a concerted effort to return to harmony and balance within your own Being in order to be ready to connect with your Divine counterparts. Your painful, unsatisfying earthly relationships are a result of inner feelings of unworthiness, guilt, fear of failure and rejection.

The battle of the sexes is really an internal battle with Self, as you project your needs, wants and desires outward to someone else in hopes they can supply what is missing within. Your relationships will surely reflect to you the negative energies you need to overcome as well as some of the positive attributes you desire for yourself. Either can be painful or fulfilling, depending on the way you wish to apply the game of relationships. Negative frequency physical relationships are fear-based, rigid, self-absorbed and limiting. Sacred relationships are love-based and Spirit-inspired, and allow each party to integrate and express the positive attributes of their intrinsic masculine and feminine nature. They focus on wholeness and unity, and yet they are flexible and allow freedom of expression.

As you lift your consciousness and return to harmony within, you radiate forth more refined frequency patterns, and therefore, you will attract to you those who are radiating and are comfortable with the same level of the Light spectrum. The reunification process entails rejoining the multiple Facets and levels of your Soul family, which consists of your earthly Soul companions and the many Facets of your Higher-Self − your solar, galactic and Sub-Universal family.

Beloveds, won’t you begin the process of forgiveness NOW, and make a concerted effort to open the portal of your Sacred Heart Center so that these wondrous gifts can be showered down upon you?

Call on us and allow us to assist you. Remember, we are only a heartbeat and a thought away. We enfold you in the Sacred, unconditional love of our Father/Mother God. I AM Archangel Michael.

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Wings of Love Painting by Toni Carmine Salerno @ Artmajeur


Conversations with a Friend-Sue Lie & Monica

Tuesday, January 29, 2019

Conversations with a Friend–Sue Lie and Monica

Monica and Sue’s Conversation of 1-16-19


Hi Monica. What did you want to talk about today?


I think it is very interesting to always look into what we are feeling and slowly going through us, through the different phases, through seasons, months, weeks and days and through the times of the day. Just like the Earth has seasons, we also have seasons. We never stay the same. Sometimes we become more sensitive and feel more of everything around us.

So I wonder what this is like for you? What do you feel and what changes do you feel happening or coming?


What changes I feel are coming or how I am feeling right now or both?


In the now or in the very recent time.


I am going to call in the Arcturians now.

Sue/ The Arcturians:

We are the Arcturians, and what we would like to share is that Gaia is changing. Now some of Gaia’s changes are adaptations to the mass of destruction that humanity has done to Her over ages of time.

However, some of the changes that are occurring with Gaia is that SHE is raising HER vibration. Gaia, the Planet, is indeed a living being that can think and feel. Gaia doesn’t think in the same way as human thinks, just as a horse doesn’t think in the same way as a human thinks, but anyone who rides a horse knows that horses actually, think all the time.

So what we, the Arcturians, would like is for you, the humans to allow yourselves to begin to understand how is it that Gaia thinks. How does the planet think? Because if you can think like the planet, then you have aligned yourself with the One, that is the One of the planetary body and the One of all the beings that live on that planetary body.

It is not that you have to carry all that in your consciousness because the 3rd dimensional person cannot do that, but just knowing that the combined consciousness exists changes one’s outlook on life to encompass that everything is alive.

Do you wish to comment on that or add to that?


Thank you. I feel that this is very important, and I would like to share an experience I had in my spiritual awakening and evolution. It was at a time when I connected with the spirit of Lady Gaia and when I felt her Love. It was then that it became so naturally obvious that Gaia is a part of us and we are a part of her.

It was that natural connection which led me to discover that Gaia is a living Being. Not only is she a living organism, but also, she has this tremendous love for everything which lives on her body. Now, more humans have come around to acknowledge how her body has been mistreated.

Therefore, we are connected to the different aspects of Gaia, the elementals and the fact that your body is built up from all those elements that live on Gaia. So whatever you consume comes from Gaia.

This connection with Gaia, this awareness is something that greatly expands us and enriches us, because we all live on this planet. And, we cannot ignore this anymore. It is this connection that brings in a very, very deep sense of Peace and Balance.

This is the message that many sensitives, empaths, healers or anyone discovering themselves, are feeling. They are feeling the call from Gaia to reconnect with Her.

Sue/ The Arcturians:

Yes, it’s easy for people to get so caught up in their personal life, their personal needs and their personal goals that they forget that there’s a bigger picture that everything that happens to us personally is an offshoot of something that’s happening on a bigger level. You know from the weather, within the politics, within the leaders, or within the family.

Humanity has become too addicted to that concept of individuality because the only thing that is individual is that clay form that they are wearing. But you are not your clay form. That clay form is something that was created by your mother for you to enter into to have your life.

Then when that clay form no longer works, you leave that clay form and go back to wherever you wish to go back to. Then, when you go into higher levels of meditation, your consciousness expands. It is then that the lines that separate you, separate you from the table, separate you from the computer, even separate you even though they are all close to you, they are NOT you.

But right there in front of me in your computer, but actually, you’re far away in a completely different country that I have to get on a plane and fly for 8 hours for. So the internet is something showing us that time and space is really quite a bit of an illusion isn’t it?


Yes, very much so and because Gaia is the biggest organism we are in the direct physical contact with I feel she has so much to give to us and so much to offer to us and especially if we’re looking to expand our knowing and feeling of Love.

The Universe’s base exists within the frequency of Love and here we have the body of Gaia, who’s already here and she IS love, she has loved so when we connect with her and with her Love, and love for her then we are really connecting with the biggest love field we can have on Earth because we are on Earth.

When we connect with each other, we unify our intentions. Then we collectively raise these intentions and allow them and perceive them as ripples of magnified energy fields that affect our personal wellbeing. I feel if we want to truly advance our existence on Earth that these elements of our life must be very fundamental.

Sue/ The Arcturians:

Yes, and one of the things that we have been really seeing in California is how much Gaia communicates. And that interaction between people and the planet, because there have been many issues like fires and then of course after you’ve had fires, then the land isn’t strong enough so then you have some floods.

It is true that if the people are in alignment with the planet, then they know what to do and what not to do. They know what Gaia needs and what Gaia doesn’t need.


Yes, absolutely and when we reach this awareness, when we connect with this energy every day, living becomes shifted because we shift our existence so that it becomes bigger and bigger. And our purpose to help Gaia greatly expands. This perception expands into something that takes us out of the everyday drama because we understand that there is something very important and very big.

This is how we shift our awareness and our consciousness into being more loving, more caring and understanding that any emotion we have during the day, we are giving to Gaia, and at the same time, we may feel what SHE is going through. Then, if she’s troubled we can feel it just as if we were feeling a child, and we can talk to that child with love and examine what is going on.

We tell her how to ease it and to bring softness, raise joy and bring more balance. We have this power, as human beings, we have so much power to generate love, to generate balance, to generate what we seek: which is really happiness.

But if we want that happiness then we have some responsibility to make sure that the planet within us is happy too. Because if she’s not happy, then no matter what we do, how can we know happiness if her body is not happy? We are living on this planet! We ARE members of this living, planetary body. This is a very big collective responsibility.

And, of course, we have the different actions and the different layers of that aspect of how we treat the planet, but the most basic and fundamental aspect is that we have power in every moment to make Gaia feel good.

And, by doing so we make ourselves feel good. And when we make ourselves feel good, we make Gaia feel good. Then we build up and build up and build up our commitment to Gaia. Then if we exercise this “building up of Gaia” for some time, personally, in groups, in gatherings, in meditations, then it really becomes a stronger, feeling with a higher volume. Then WE have this capacity to increase this volume.

Sue/ The Arcturians:

Gaia has been saying there’s something coming up that you need to pay attention to. You, my human protectors need to pay attention to the needs of your Mother Gaia.

We need to do that in our daily life because when we go into Nature when we’re speaking with Gaia, we are in a situation where lying isn’t even a concept. Gaia does not know how to lie, animals don’t know how to lie only, humans can lie.

And so when you are with the nature, with the tree or with the dog or with the cat, or a deer comes up, OK this is the truth.

What these beings are is a truth. I remember when one time I was camping, I saw a flower circle which is very rare, it was a circle of little yellow flowers and they were in a circle.

And I thought OK I’m going to set, it was a fairy circle. So I stepped into the fairy circle, and when I stepped into the fairy circle I got this flash, this total download of this whole book which was about my life in fairy. I got so much information, things I haven’t even heard of before.

And so, as we commune with Gaia, then we ground ourselves and when we ground ourselves then we are the planet.


Yes, yes that’s indeed. I can also share that the times when I spend in nature, the extensive times in Egypt and recently in India, where this nature is so pure, so vast, that just spending time in nature is magical. What I discovered was that even just 2 or 3 days are just so, so healing, transformational and rejuvenating, and re-charging.

And then so many ideas come to write down, some feelings also especially during the full moons. I think the most, most outstanding insight is that whenever I’m in those places, and whenever I go to a new place, I’m like ‘oh my gosh, this planet is so extraordinary beautiful!’

Why isn’t everyone just doing that, looking at her and admiring her? The nature we have on planet Earth with different countries and continents is just such a beauty.


Gaia is a very diverse planet. There are very few planets that have the diversity that Gaia has. Gaia has big cities, she has huge areas where there is no one, she has tall mountains and deep waters. If you can think of it, Gaia has it. And WE, the members of humanity have been appointed to be the “Guardians for Gaia.”

When, we the Arcturians, first came to Sue, the first thing that we talked about was that humanity needed to take better care of planet Earth. And that was in the eighties, early nineteen-eighties, so that was a long time ago.

There have been times when humans did care of the planet, and then there were times when they did great damage to Gaia.

Before you took your current earth vessel, you went before your own Higher Dimensional SELF to affirm the Mission that you were ready to accept. Because the higher beings that you addressed could see beyond time, they knew what challenges dear Gaia would need to face.

Therefore, they called on fifth-dimensional beings to take a third-dimensional earth vessel, so that they could live on Gaia and assist Her with Her Planetary Ascension. However, few higher dimensional beings could imagine how difficult life on Earth could be. So when they stood before the Interdimensional Panel, they had great expectations of how they could assist Gaia.

These “recruits to Earth” planned to wonderful things, but when they got down to Earth, many of them got distracted from their mission. When they came to Earth, they got distracted by the “fear” which they did NOT experience in the fifth dimension and beyond.

Gaia is afraid right now, she’s a frighten planet. There has been a lot of negative things that have been done to Her planetary body. Therefore, what the “recruits to Gaia” soon earned was to send Unconditional Love into the pockets of fear. This gift to Gaia assists Her. Some areas of Gaia could accept the love because the humans could accept he loves.

But some areas of Gaia were so wounded that they needed to be healed before they could fully accept that Interdimensional Love. Interdimensional Love flows down from the fifth dimension and into Gaia’s fourth dimensional expression of self. It is up to the humans to assist Gaia to integrate that love into Her planetary body. But it is only when humans love their Planet that they can share that love with Gaia.


So, it really depends on the time and where we are. When we speak, for example, about the inner situation in Egypt, where I spent several months in recent years, I found that the situation there has been much better than the media portrayed.

Therefore I have found lots of love on the land of Egypt, as well as from lots of the people of Egypt. The Egyptian society in general, from all people, children, adults, youth, is a very high level of integrity because it’s a very religious country where the practice of the prayer is cultivated.

So as I attended some of the prayers during the time of Ramadan there, which was a very deep touching experience. The energies created during the Ramadan fasting for the holy month was extraordinary. It was like a blanket of very, very special energies were created.

You really feel it there because people really switch off from life at least to a big degree. Although life goes on in many areas, as usual, people really treat that time as a process to go inside and to pray. And prayer is something very natural to those in any religion and even without religion. It is our natural ability to enter into a state of communion with our soul, the forces of the Universe and higher powers which some see as God.

Many choose that life as a path. Therefore, I’ve found lots of love, lots of love coming to Gaia, through this love I remember my very, very first experience in Egypt. It was just after Ramadan in July, when Cairo which is usually a very vast place, sometimes a chaotic city, was like a capital of Peace.

The Peace in the air and on Earth was like a temple, it was absolutely incredible that this big city was turning into a big blanket of Love, Peace deep, deep Peace. And I have found the same with the numerous prayers in the mosque’s, especially in Alexandria.

It’s that really whenever people give up their daily activities, schedules and just gather together in the communion to commune with God, with the force of the Universe and at the same time Earth, then really beautiful things happen within themselves. And that was a very special and beautiful experience.

I felt that was a big, big gift for Gaia.

Posted by Suzanne Lie at 11:34 AM