Personality & Behavior – Steve Beckow

Romance Echo Painting by Dorina Costras @ Artmajeur


Personality and Behavior

Everything about me that could be called a “personality” or a “character” I create. And I have to create it again and again, daily, hourly, because if I don’t create it, to all effects, it isn’t there.

There are things that I was emphasizing yesterday which I’m not emphasizing today.

This is a good time to mention: My articles are not all in chronological order. Sometimes red-hot news interrupts the publishing schedule. That can throw off the ability to schedule.

So please don’t approach my articles as if they are an unfolding narrative in tight chronological sequence. That’s the case about 70% of the time; in 30%, I’ve had to juggle.

Thank you. I feel lighter having communicated that.

If I don’t emphasize those things today, it’s as if they cease to exist until I re-create them again in some way and connection.

I think we think that “personality” and “character” are continuous. I don’t think they are. Creatures of habit that we are, we buy, just as if we were at a department store, certain lines of behavior. Ironically, those, I think, prove to be more enduring than our “personality,” which changes from day to day.

Lines of behavior persist but the reasons for resorting to them vary.  It’s as if we search around for any convincing reason – a value, a principle, a trauma – to justify the behavioral response we decided on long ago. We just keep reacting and reacting and reacting in the same habitual way – and justifying it.

That is a vasana, for sure; a core issue, a deeper motivation.

We think of our “personality” as a repository of traits and values. I think that’s what it should be.  I’d like to see it become our spiritual resume – like our aura is – again.

Our 3D thinking pays no attention to the personality and it gets what it wants by relying on lines of behavior, approaches, strategies.

It has the moves. It knows what to say. It knows how to close the deal.

The values of the personality are bent, after the fact, to the service of habitual behavior patterns.

Our 3D thinking is almost-exclusively concerned with its own survival and the survival of everything with which it identities.

Its 3D view is that life is a struggle for survival in which only the fittest survive.  Historians and Sociologists call this view  Social Darwinism.

On the one hand, the lines of behavior, strategies, and approaches, insofar as they are bent in the service of manipulation of others and gratification of the self, need to be let go of. We need to just stop. There’s no need to put anything in their place.  Just don’t keep doing them.

On the other hand, acting according to divine traits invites enlightenment.  And divine values won’t lead us astray. So I have no objection to “personality.” I do have on objection to behaving as if life is a struggle for survival.

I’ve spent time on higher dimensions. (1) Never have I encountered such an idea as Social Darwinism. I think they’d be mildly amused if I asked. Only love, bliss, and peace are being shared in those environs. No hatred or even mild displeasure.

When you float on your back in a pool, all your attention goes to seeing that water doesn’t go down your mouth and nose, right? When you’re immersed in an ocean of love, all trace of care and concern disappears from you. Everything dissolves in love – worry, hope, and fear; vasanas and ego.

AND that kind of love satisfies every need and want.  There’s no downside to it and no end to the upside.

When you exist in an ocean of love in which no thought of harm could possibly arise, you become very much aware that you co-created this environment.

And so have – and are – numberless others, co-creating this very 5D atmosphere in which all want and need disappear.

Being permanently immersed in this higher-dimensional ocean of love is total release. (2)  It is mukti, moksha, and Ascension.


(1) In the spiritual experiences I call the Silver Bullet, 7th-Dimensional experience of doing without doing at Vipassana meditation retreat, the 1987 vision, 2015 4th-chakra heart opening, 2018 sight of the Self at Xenia, etc., all temporary  glimpses only.  In the Silver Bullet, a moment of love collided with a realization about the nature of light. The crossroads of light and love. I ended up knowing without the shadow of a doubt that I was God but could not remember the name of the body.  The experience faded within an hour.

(2) I just spent some time in it and then lost te connection, which is normal before Sahaja Samadhi.


Romance Echo Painting by Dorina Costras @ Artmajeur

Gratitude & Appreciation to all artists & photographers ~ Credit given where this is known. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah

About-Turn – Steve Beckow

Seraphim art by Lily Moses - angel face

Seraphim Art by Lily Moses



The combination of processing my vasanas, patterns, and interests and exporting these gains to the outside (by interacting with people rather than fleeing from them) is revealing things to me.

For instance, this morning, I re-connected with my happy self. I was about to shave and I remembered my Christmas as a shaving-cream Santa.

In that instant, I recognized my sense of humor and my love of laughter, long left in the dark.

Glee, connection, and a love of sharing is arising in me. I’ve utterly neglected my happy side all the years I lived in dismay and dejection. My predominant mood then was gloomy, not happy.

I’ve mentioned how I used to awaken each day feeling dismayed. “Am I still here?” I’d say to myself, thinking about life with my Dad.

My happiness would surface on rare occasions, but so often I ignored it by concluding that its appearances were aberrational.

Given that I created so much in my lifetime, you’d wonder how a person mired in gloom could do it and be optimistic at the same time.

If I were to ask Michael, I bet he’d say: The spirit is irrepressible. It can make itself felt through the thickest of fogs. And the nature of the times empowers that spirit to make itself felt all the more. And I’ve been feeling the inner push of the spirit.

It’s as if my happy side was in jail until now. From time to time someone would take notice of it, perhaps pass it a scrap of food (affirmation, usually perfunctory). I the personality was too mired in gloom to take serious notice of my imprisoned happy self.

But now that I’ve cleared my field of awareness of at least some vasanas, the space is there for things to arise. Consequently, my awareness has sharpened. My interest in life has increased. My adventurousness has as well: Instead of guarding my space at a coffeehouse, I’m now a welcoming presence. Total about-turn.

We might feel disappointed that space itself lacks bliss.  Let me address that if you would.

I credit the existence of space as playing a critical role in causing what arises to arise.

Without clearing my mind of vasanas, it’s as if I’m producing smoke that fills up the room.  There’s no breathing space.

When the smoke has cleared, what we’re left with is pure air, which was always-already there.

When space arose in my quiet mind, I felt neutral and normal. I didn’t feel blissful.

Bliss arose later. Space is just space and not inherently blissful, but bliss does arise in it, like a guest entering the house; like the wind finding any crack to enter the building. Bliss will not arise in the mind in which there is no space.

Space actually exists unto itself, outside our minds. But our minds are too busy to notice it.

I filled up my mind with worries, hopes, and fear so that I had no awareness of space.

That doesn’t change space itself. It only blocks me off from any of the good things that arise in it – like love, bliss, and peace – when I still my mind. (1)

As long as one is in gloom, however, even if one stumbles upon space and it lacks bliss, one might ignore it as I ignored my happy side all these years.

I think there are people who pass their entire lives in gloom, relying on medications and professional help where, if they processed their vasanas, they might get at the root of the problem.


(1) Through eradicating vasanas and patterns and raising interests to awareness.


Gratitude & Appreciation to all artists & photographers ~ Credit given where this is known. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah


“TRILOCHAN” (THREE EYED) by Swami Amrit Mahamedha @ Trika Yoga Art




In the interests of us deepening our great adventure together, I wanted to share my latest insight into the body of emptiness.

The graphs as shown are my typical experience every time I sit at present.

Every sitting is slightly different as you can see, so I am using the physical body and becoming very still, silent and spacious in order to experience the unbounded unchanging space of being.

I energize the body for about half an hour beforehand using yoga, pilates and energization exercises from Yogananda and Tibetan Buddhism.

I use a simple breathing focus on the three internal subtle energy channels and the upper chakras before beginning to breathe in the lower dantian area, with closed eyes, while my attention is on feeling the open spacious awareness with calm happiness and bliss.

I have discovered that every part of this body is sacred, a portal to being, a mandala of emptiness, so that if our attention is focused on the third eye for example it may yield different insights than if it is focused on the heart chakra.

I realized in the waking state this same body of emptiness when I was walking in Tokyo this week, practicing this same technique as a walking meditation and suddenly my body was not there, only space was, and for a period of time there was an indestructible, changeless light-filled essence.

It is so important to find that simple natural essence or key signature, that we can practice anywhere, anytime, all the time. Mine, as you can see from the graphs, is simply to draw the attention within, become still, and feel (rather than see) the deep stillness that is always there. Then I breathe in that emptiness, that stillness and from that practice light and sound arise and I ride them home. I have learned to allow them to rise and not to focus on them, merely to allow them ever so gently to be, and then they arise even brighter and stronger in full magnificence.

I enter into this in every moment with awe and gratitude. The awareness we are is so humbling and so magnificent all at once. When we dwell in that awareness of Awareness it feels like being at home in yourself. Your natural key signature, as shown in these graphs we do, the pure space of being, is revealed as who we truly are.

So, by developing insight into impermanence we discover the power of changelessness.

The fear of change is why so many of us struggle and we attach to the “I”, the ego in the hope of keeping it from changing. The only way to really understand and embrace change is to have a direct experience of the changeless nature of being. When we experience that, we are at peace with what is. We discover, in stillness, in emptiness, in letting go, in dropping the “I”, that which has no face or form. We discover that in nothing there is everything. We discover stillness, silence and space of the formless within.

Love and blessings

Stephen Altair


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Art shared with permission ~ Gratitude & thanks to Trika Yoga Art