Dear friends, I am Mary. I bring to you an energy of lightness and trust, a luminous energy of playfulness and liveliness. Allow it to be present and drink of it as coming from the Source, because this is the energy that brings you back to your origin, to who you are.
If you go back to the Source, it is there you will discover the “living water” that moves, enlivens, and regenerates the soul, and this life is also who you are – you give life and you receive it. The natural flow, of which you are a part, does that all by itself, untroubled and free. Think of nature on Earth, how life flows continuously. Even when there is death and destruction, either from the forces of nature itself or by the actions of humans, life always begins again and finds a way to flourish.
The urge for life is unstoppable. Do you feel how deep the life force is? It ignores life threatening elements and always finds a way to flower again, to start over. It seems as if the past does not adhere to it. Think of Spring, how the new blossoms appear, the young animals are born; it is as if there was never a history or past that taints or restricts. And now recognize the part in you that is like that — unaffected by doubt; not crippled by pain from the past, but always new and fresh. It throws itself into the unknown and has no concerns.
This is your primal consciousness that is always with you. No matter what you are going through, it remains fresh and new. It observes, it takes in things, it learns through experiences, and it eventually understands the dynamics of life. But whatever it goes through – peaks or valleys – it remains one and the same consciousness.
Recognize that consciousness within you. Take a moment of rest as you let go of all daily business that causes you to think or to worry, and do not let that get in the way. Thinking and emotion keep happening, but you do not need to completely go along with them. There can be a space inside you from which you stay curious and in wonder at what flows through you in the way of thoughts, emotions, and feelings. Sense in your body where you feel the most connected with that quiet, open space: the luminous, primal consciousness within you. In it, all things comes to rest, it is good as it is. Everything else is impermanent and transient, because thoughts, emotions, and feelings pass away. Descend even deeper into that core of yourself that always remains the same, and yet is dynamic and filled with movement and life. Just as does a stream of water, it remains one and the same, and yet it moves – it is on an adventure!
Allow your body to also take pleasure in this Source. Let the energy flow through your body so that all cells are renewed, receiving healing and vitality from the Source. From your head, shoulders, and chest, allow that energy to move down to your belly, hips, thighs, and on to your knees, lower legs, and feet. Imagine that you float effortlessly on this stream. You are propelled, and you allow it to happen; you relax and let the flow lead you. Feel how, when you surrender to this current, it brings healing and confidence to your heart. Let the water carry and comfort you, and take you to a shore where you wash up on a beach where the sand is soft and warmed by the sun.
On this shore, someone is waiting for you. You feel yourself touch land and you step onto the shore, and there is a loving, smiling figure coming toward you – it is a female guide. As she sits down, she seems to be one with nature. She sits there completely at ease while she is waiting for you, and in her presence you feel yourself again becoming a child. You want to run toward her and feel her hand on your shoulder, and so that is what you do.
You both are sitting on the beach near the water and, as you look into her eyes, this female guide says to you: “I am your mother. I am not your earthly mother, but I bring the mother energy that wants to now come to you from the universe so as to encourage you, to bring you healing, and to enfold you with comfort.” And she continues: “I represent that energy for you, so receive it.” See how her eyes are full of compassion and understanding for what you are going through in your life. She deeply understands your emotions, your fears, your resistance. She has no judgment of them, she simply observes and sees inside you. Feel how her eyes roam over your inner life that unfolds for her like a landscape. In the way she looks at you, you feel deeply understood and accepted. It is as if her glance caresses this landscape and sets everything in a gentle light through which it all becomes okay. Everything is good just as it is.
You receive her mother energy and feel how it heals and nurtures you: you are allowed to be a child. This mother sees you as her child; she understands you and accepts you unconditionally. At the same time, this mother also sees something else in you. She sees in you a flower in the bud that will eventually come to full bloom. She sees in you your potential, the acorn, but also the fully grown oak tree. Feel how she sees you and how she invites you through her gaze to become greater, to awaken, to use all your potential.
You then see a bridge appear over the ocean inlet near where you are sitting, and the mother guide invites you to go with her over the bridge. She tells you that there is a new country for you to explore with all kinds of possibilities, and situations that might often challenge you, but which also hold promise within them. You look at her and you feel a desire to go with her, yet there are still things in you that make you hesitant and make you waver. You feel unsure of yourself because it is good here with her; you feel safe and can finally relax.
Somewhat determined she says, “Come, we are going!” And you feel that this is what needs to happen, there is nothing else you can do and her hand on her shoulder feels warm and safe. You now decide to simply trust her, because this is a power from the universe that will help you, so you take her hand and together you go on to the bridge. As you ascend the bridge, you feel resistance grow in you, a fear of what is new, but you also feel her hand and her emanation, and so you go on.
When you descend from the bridge, and you are at the threshold of the new country, you realize why you have felt fear and resistance. You feel that now is the time for you to go forward alone. She looks very deeply into your eyes and tells you: “I will remain with you; my energy is a part of you.” And she says: “I am not your mother, you are your own mother. I am a representative of your own mother energy.”
See if you can receive this message – and take the time to fully take it in. At first, you may feel let down, maybe somewhat cheated. But also feel the force that is in you and her confidence that you have the strength to do it yourself. Know that her love for you remains within you – always. Then embrace her very warmly, and feel how she is not someone outside you, but that you merge in the embrace so that she comes to live within you, in your heart and your belly. Take on this loving mother energy.
With this story, I want you to understand something. One of the hallmarks of a divine being is that it is its own source of creation. To live from your own deepest core is your mission, your destiny; to truly believe in yourself and to know that you are supported in that by positive forces in the universe. You are never alone, you are always surrounded by powers, guides, loving energies, but you are still doing it yourself. It is your mission to be yourself, to be your own gauge or standard, and to not measure yourself by another, or by the outside world, but to walk your own path.
A mother, in the true sense of the word, is someone who loves you for who you are, but who, at the same time, also takes you to a “new country” so you can reveal even more of yourself by further developing into who you truly are. Be such a mother for yourself, be attentive and still, and look at what is going on in your life with the eye of a mother
Fathom the depth of the emotions you experience, but do not judge them. Understand your emotions from within yourself and allow a gentle light to shine upon them, which makes them much less chaotic and turbulent. Through the encouragement and the solace that comes from doing that, you come into harmony with yourself. There is then a peace and harmony in your heart that makes it possible to see your next step, to see where the road leads.
A mother accepts you and sometimes gives you a helping hand. Call on her when you need that help. You can see her as a figure outside yourself, but also realize that she lives within you, that this strength is your own strength, and that you are, and will become, a healing mother, not only for yourself, but also for the life around you. I said, you are a giver of life and a recipient of life, so own that knowledge. Know who you are: a god in the making.
Thank you for your attention.
© Pamela Kribbe
Translation by Maria Baes and Frank Tehan