Pointing in That Direction – Steve Beckow

Lighthouse by Wilma Kleinhans


Pointed in That Direction

I’m struggling in the storm of my own polarity or dualism.

I do love some and hate others. I do want some to win and others to lose.

I don’t put a lot of energy into loving everyone – no, not politician X or businessman Y.

But at the same time I also know that love is universal by its very nature.

If an inner tsunami of love comes, it wipes out every negative thought and feeling in its path. Nothing negative survives in the face of its flow.

While love is very selective in the sense that it doesn’t disturb those who are closed to it, with those who are open to it and able to experience it, it flows universally.

I cannot make it flow to Mary and not to Bill. In that sense, it’s non-selective.

If we’re polar or dual, separative or arrogant, we cut off our awareness of the flow. That’s the price we pay.

The actual experience of this love, while not entirely a distant memory for me, is nothing  compared to what it was in 2015.  But for a person with a not-well-functioning short-term memory, that memory is indelibly etched on my mind.

I ask myself: Is it worth me losing all access to this love to harbor party positions, hate criminals, gossip, and scheme? Do I want to cut myself off from this love, compared with which there’s nothing else worth having? No, I don’t, plain and simple.

Living in that state permanently and fully – which we call Ascension – is what draws me on.

Whether or not I’m very accomplished at imitating love’s example by loving universally, my ship is pointed in that direction.



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Three Opposing Energies – Steve Beckow

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens - angels several male

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens


Three Opposing Energies

I have to tell you what a problem I’m having with three seemingly-opposing energies. Three apparently-antagonistic sides of myself.

Warrior Side

One side says “Stop!” to the Deep State and to international human-rights abusers who are apparently not part of the Deep State.  This voice comes from my gut, my will.

Hey, what’s hard about stopping? Stopping is the easiest thing in the world to do. I’m not asking people to jump through hoops. Just stop.

In saying “Stop!” I realize that those who are simply wanting to elevate, to use Suzi’s word, may find this note to be jarring. That becomes a factor that weighs on me.

Nevertheless there is a warrior side of me that needs to be acknowledged, who wants all human-rights abuses on the planet to stop. I’m even willing to put a date to it: by Jan. 1, 2020.

So there’s that side of me.

Service Side

The second is the side of my mission, what Hindus might call “dharma” (duty) or seva (service).

That duty is to be a neutral voice, an honest broker, a bridge between the galactics and terrestrials.  Allegiance to it comes from my adult consciousness state.

This side of me has been told, repeatedly, that even being a pipeline is a side event. The main event is Disclosure. (1)

It’s been told not to enter the lists, the fray, the battle. There are those for whom that’s in their soul contract; it isn’t in mine.

Consequently, this side draws back from what the first side wants – to join battle.

Heart Side

The third side is that of my heart, which just wants to love everybody.  This urge comes from my soul, deeply seated in the spiritual heart.

And then there’s a third side of me, assuming increasing importance, and that’s the side that experiences love and bliss.

Love and bliss are both universal and both flow; they cannot be channeled or contained.

So when I feel the love or bliss arise from my heart, all I want to do is open my arms and share it with everyone. This is love’s impact.

Especially all the people who were seriously abused as children and now are human-rights abusers themselves.

This side of me arises when I call up the love from my heart with my inbreath. As if I was smelling a wonderful flower. Or drawing in a really-deep breath.

I bring up a deep wave of love. And because it must flow, I send it out to the world on the outbreath.

Higher-dimensional love satisfies to the depths of one’s being. Harmful thoughts do not arise in it.

We had it right a long time ago: Make love; not war.

If we all drew love up from our hearts (make love) and sent it out to the world, there’d be no wars. (And we will, in the future. It’s called Ascension.)

This side of me is not an active side. Except if you call hugging active.

Back to me, the operator, the participant/observer.

How does one manage the three? Because I’m going to need to.

You have your mission as well and may find yourself in exactly the same position.

I’m simply resting with the paradoxes that arise from having three distinct sides to myself at this moment.

I’m allowing the cognitive dissonance (irritability) that goes with it to be there and inviting the paradigmatic breakthrough that should follow – my “Aha!” moment or realization. (2)

That breakthrough starts with awareness.


(1) Archangel Michael: Do not forget. You are a communicator first and foremost and, yes, there will be a flurry of activity in the establishment and a flurry of activity in the grounding.  But first and foremost, dear heart, you are a communicator on process, on truth.

You are a bridge to your star brothers and sisters. The money is just a side event. The main event has yet to occur. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 2, 2013.)

AAM: Do not become overly enmeshed in the money issues. Yes, it is good to be generous, sharing, philanthropic.

But your primary purpose, as you know, is to be the communicator, and particularly as things emerge to be the go-between, between not only us [celestials] but also the star brothers and sisters as well. Do not lose your primary focus. (Ibid., Aug. 27, 2013.)

(2) On the process of paradigmatic breakthrough, see:

“The Principles of Largescale Employment Projects – Part 2/2,”
February 23, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/02/23/the-principles-of-largescale-employment-projects-part-22/

“Paradigm Shift,” October 26, 2018, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/10/26/paradigm-shift/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 1/4,” February 4, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/04/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-14/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 4/4,” February 7, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/07/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-44/



Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens

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The Exploration of the Divine States – Steve Beckow

Divine Doorway by Francene Hart Watercolour Artist


The Exploration of the Divine States

I’d like to continue the discussion I’ve been having about the divine states.

We may find that we have to rewrite, relearn, and reprogram the way we “be with” them.

In my experience, they need to be recognized to be fully experienced.

It’d be as if bliss, love, peace, mastery, abundance, etc., were people passing by  and, until we call out their name, they don’t turn and interact with us. They keep on going without us feeling a thing.

That’s exactly the way I encountered peace – as if it was a face I saw from a passing train. When I recognized it, it transmitted its experience of peace to me.

Bliss the same. I saw it as if it were a person standing perhaps ten feet away from me at a gathering like a party. It was passing me by but when I recognized it – it was almost as if I had said telepathically, “Oh, you’re Bliss” – it came into me and filled the inner space with itself.

Now where in a textbook could I read about this? Someone help me out please?

There’s no ongoing, serious discussion today of how to “be with” something like bliss or love or peace.

Perhaps until now we’ve had no ideas about how to access them.

Perhaps we think we need to meditate for years before we “realize” this state.

Perhaps we think this state is only for high yogis and ascended masters.

I predict that the time will come when we’ll have everyday discussions of subjects like bliss as more and more people experience them.

If we recognize a divine state and merge with it (not as hard as we’ve thought), we’ve just secured our future better than any insurance plan could.

We will have found – it turns out – precisely what we’ve always been looking for. We just didn’t know what it was. But now we do.

It turns out that the divine states are what we’ve always been looking for, the real treasure in life.  Any one of them affords a lifetime of delight.

Once found, once recognized, we’ll have found the switch and turned it on. After that, the divine state will be found to flow by itself, in and from the heart.

Now someone prove me right or prove me wrong – I don’t care which. But let’s get the exploration of these subjects underway.



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3 – Steve Beckow


Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3

(Concluded from Part 2, yesterday.)

I’m going to call this kind of love “higher-dimensional love” or “transformative love.” (1)

There’s no grounds to worry.  We’re all of us experiencing – or going to experience – this very same love and heart opening. (2)

No one will miss out. Ramakrishna used to say, some will eat in the morning, some at noon, and some in the evening, but all will be fed.  Never was that more true than for this generation.

In the morning are the explorers, the pathfinders, the first wave. At noon, are the gatekeepers, the shepherds, the second wave. And in the evening are the pillars, the old hands, the third wave.

You’ve all heard about the time of separation, the time of division.  Well, in my opinion, the heart opening will begin it.

There will be those who, in the face of the rising energies, simply reject love. The rest who accept and welcome love will be allowed to proceed unmolested.  Their paths will now diverge, as SaLuSa, Michael, and Adamu have been saying. (3)

This will all happen in consciousness but it’ll be reflected in setting. (4)

In my opinion, the depth of our love is what determines what Matthew calls our “evolvement.” It determines the depth of our experiencing generally, depth of wisdom, etc.

And under the Mother’s care, we’re all (who accept love) being brought along gradually to a state that allows us to experience that inner tsunami of love that rages just inside the door of the heart. (5)

Oh, how to get those doors open? That is the question.  But this generation has the security of knowing that the Mother has a Plan and that Plan is mass/physical Ascension.

It’ll be fun for me when the heart opening happens. I won’t be Robinson Crusoe any longer.  You think waiting for the Reval is hard. How about waiting for your buddies to show up on the other side of a planetary heart opening?

I can’t think of anything else that’s better than love, deeper, or more inspiring. It deepens and elevates, deepens and elevates, like a wave, always flowing, in and out.

When the door is opened and we all find ourselves swimming in real love, we’ll all of us say: “Oh, THIS is what they’re all talking about.” Yes, THIS is what they’re all talking about.

“Strain and see.” (7)


(1) Only the Third Dimension does not feel this kind of love. All higher dimensions do. Therefore I call it “higher-dimensional love.”

“Transformative” in the sense that it transforms all negativity whereas, with ordinary love, negativity usually drowns it out.  Nothing can drown out this higher-dimensional love.

(2) Most of us gradually; some of us sudden.

What’s the difference between a heart opening and a heart attack?

A heart opening is over in a few seconds, and is either a sharp explosion or a sharp implosion, localized in the spiritual heart, two digits to the right of the breastbone. At no time are you in danger.

A heart attack is extremely painful without let-up and is generalized in its effect on the individual. If you’re in continuous, generalized pain, please seek medical attention.

(3) SaLuSa: “If you can find balance and harmony in your life now, we would say that you are already living from a higher state of consciousness. Is it then no wonder that you feel different to many people around you, and find their ways no longer acceptable? It is a sign of the separation that is occurring at the present time, and it is a perfectly normal development.” (SaLuSa, May 31, 2010 at http://www.treeofthegoldenlight.com/First_Contact/Channeled_Messages_by_Mike_Quinsey.htm.) [My emphasis.]

SaLuSa: “Life on your present Earth is coming to an end and of necessity, because the cycle of duality has all but completed its course. Nothing stands still and all is in motion and change to take up a new position according to its vibration. Separation of the souls on Earth is therefore quite a natural occurrence, as the Law of Attraction is always in action.” (SaLuSa, Nov. 5, 2012.)

Michael: “We have talked about the time of division. Not abandonment, not rejection, but of saying to the collective, ‘There is a better way.’” (“Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: You Have Chosen to Be the New Paradigm of Love, May 31, 2018,” June 7, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/06/07/transcript-archangel-michael-you-have-chosen-to-be-the-new-paradigm-of-love-may-31-2018/.)

Adamu: “Two timelines flow according to our choice to be self-responsible (SR) or other responsible (OR). …

“Besides these two timelines…the SR and the OR ones…consciousness arose that at least one additional timeline must be created, because there’s something very special happening on Earth right now.

“From the Matrix up, beings are awakening, but a very small number of them are awakening in a way that is “completely delightfully amazingly surprising. …

“Those that are awakening in this way would be wasted on the SR or OR path. For those on the accelerated path, this would be a plodding, slow journey.

“So, a transcendent new level of reality needed to be opened up for those.” (Suzi Maresca, “Notes on Adamu Speaks ~ Timelines… and the Dissolution of the illuminati!” August 13, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/13/notes-on-adamu-speaks-timelines-and-the-dissolution-of-the-illuminati/.)

(4) How consciousness affects setting is beyond my knowledge. Everyday reports from afterlife communicators simply regard the fact that consciousness determines setting as obvious. But I’m not sure if they could explain how it all happens either.  Matthew Ward might since he used to design afterlife world settings.

(5) By the doors of the heart, I mean the hridayam or heart aperture. Normally it’s closed. In a heart opening, it opens and we, as points of consciousness, find ourselves inside it and in a river of love. It sweeps all cares from our minds, fills up the room we’re in, and leaves us in an Ocean of Love, endless in all directions. Drowned in that state, we want nothing else but more love.

Even though I feel this love at times, at other times I don’t and am as ordinary and grumpy as many people. Don’t waste your time thinking I’m walking on water. As a friend used to say, you’re a developed writer, not necessarily a developed man.

(6) “You have come to the orchard to eat mangoes. Enjoy them. What is the use of your calculating how many mango-trees there are, how many millions of branches, how many billions of leaves?”  (Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 819.)

(7)  “Do you see yourself in this state? Then you have become vision itself.

“Be of good heart. Remaining here, you have ascended aloft. You need a guide no longer. Strain and see.” (Plotinus in Elmer O’Brien, ed., The Essential Plotinus. Representative Treatises from the Enneads. Toronto: New American Library, 1964, 43.)



Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery

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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

Dreamwork ~ Artist Wen Hsu


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

(Continued from Part 1, yesterday.)

You’d have to be blind not to see the difference between me then and me now.

The dividing line in my life was the heart opening of March 13, 2o15. After that, I knew what love is. (1)

That was the line in the sand. Life was never again the same.

What was it the Buddha said? Better to give up kingdoms in three dimensions than to give up the Buddha Nature – which is Love.

How many channeled messages point their fingers at love and say, “There it is. There it is.” But we, from our more ordinary experience of love, do not get, do not experience, and do not realize what it is they’re pointing at.

If I were to find a metaphor, I’d say that life in the Third/Fourth Dimension is like swimming in water versus life on the dry land of the Fifth.

We have to work to get anywhere and the speeds we can attain – speed of thought, speed of emotional experience, pace of realizations if we ever reach them – are slowed by the density of the medium.

What follows is not a metaphor. This is a report from an out-of-body experience I had in 1977.  I mention it to provide a second view of the density which the physical body in the Third-Dimensional density impedes any refined experience.

I fully experienced re-entering my body after a lucid dream and went through the process of the spirit moving from “inside” to “outside,” so to speak.

Upon first arriving, I was not looking out through my eyes. But when consciousness shifted from being inside to being outside, I found  myself looking out through the body’s eyes.

In the process I got to experience the spirit before it “re-entered” the physical body and after.  I can testify that the spirit body metaphorically is softer than the down at the base of a feather.  The physical body, in contrast, is as dense as India rubber.

Very few of the feelings from my spirit body penetrated the dense medium that the physical body is.

So we have to realize that we’re swimming in a dense medium. It’s density makes it very difficult to experience a highly-refined state such as real love.

(Concluded in  Part 3, tomorrow.)


(1) See “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

Archangel Michael: The heart opening is the blessing in which you became more clearly aware of your infinite, eternal Self.

Steve Beckow: It didn’t happen in a blinding light or anything.

AAM: No, it did not. It happened in the quiet of the day and the night. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Apr. 24, 2015.)



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3 – Steve Beckow

Lavender Visions ~ Artist Christina Dehoff


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3

Before I knew what love was, I didn’t know that I didn’t know what love was.

But you know, I think back on the West Coast Express with Kathleen, which was a real highpoint in my life, and I wasn’t able to let the wonder of it all in.

Here we were being supported to go from town to town and meet the family, so to speak, and I, who knew nothing of love then, really got only half the picture – if that.

And I was in complete mystery about what was missing.

What was missing was love, I see years later. At that time in my life I didn’t know what love was.

Longtime readers know that I’m speaking of Fifth-Seventh Dimensional love, real love, my meditation guru used to call it. (1)

He spent a lifetime of service and meditation to know that real love. And here we are and it’s handed to us on a silver platter.

Before I knew what real love was, I always asked myself: Is this all there is? I wanted more like a hungry animal.

As a young academic, I stepped on so many paradigms that I was lucky to leave under my own sail.

There had to be more than dinners at the Faculty Club, more than “publish or perish,”  more than the elephant line. (2)

By then, I was finding it impossible to hide the fact that I wanted more in my life. My teeth were chattering: There has to be more than this. Otherwise what am I doing here?

(Continued in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) S.N. Goenka.

(2) A young elephant grasps their mother’s tail and follows along in her footsteps, so to speak.

Requiring a Ph.D. student to have 90% of his dissertation be along the same lines as his supervisor’s – which was the conventional wisdom of the times –  is like asking them to take hold of his tail and follow him around. I found that too confining.



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An Introduction to Detachment – Steve Beckow

buddha_painting_by Melissa Bordeaux at DeviantArt - gold - and blue lotus

Buddha Painting by Melissa Bordeaux @ DeviantArt


An Introduction to Detachment

I was working one minute and in the midst of a spiritual experience the next.

I’ve had a few like this in past years. (1) This time I’m being shown what “detachment” feels like.

As in the other experiences, this mood just “came upon me” as I worked. But I recognized it before it departed and so it stayed and enveloped me.

Some of this article was written as it was happening; some in the afterglow; and some is being edited now:

I’ve been bothering myself that this Fall weather is beautiful and I should be out there.

But the furthest I get is looking out from my window.

I don’t mean I never get out because I do but … I could never figure this reticence to go out, without purpose, into the good weather.

Then today I heard myself say, what’s the difference between standing here and standing there? You’re going to be upright on two legs, looking out over a different vista. And … so?

At last I put a name to to the way I was feeling: “Detached.”  Up till now I’ve been ashamed of this nebulous, unnamed feeling, uncomfortable with it, embarrassed by it.

But when I saw it as detachment and experienced it, I changed my vote.

OK, I got it. I now see what the talk is all about.

It isn’t that I’m opposed to anything or hurt or sulking.  It’s that, all things being equal, nothing exerts a pull on me (beyond the needs of the physical) right now.

I was being given an experience of detachment in a deeper form than ever before.  Based on it, I’d say a synonym for what we mean by “detachment” would be “a focus on the eternal.”

For me, as you know, the basic spiritual movement is to turn from the world to God. (2)

Keeping this in mind, let me now reword what I just said. What I was able to name as happening to myself (and then experiencing) was detachment from the things of the world because of growing attachment to the eternal.

And this – that I am and feel and seem right now – is what detachment looks and feels like to this being:  It doesn’t make sense to this one standing at the window to go from here to there.

I’m sitting here amazed. I’ve been resisting this space since forever. I’m still resisting giving into it completely because I worry I’ll float off into fantasy land. Not caring about anything: That’s not staying with the program.

Another word for “detachment” is “peace.”  If they aren’t one and the same, they come bundled together.


(1) In the past I’ve been shown mastery, abundance, love, bliss, and peace … each as a state of consciousness or divine quality – however you choose to see it.

(2) See “The Basic Spiritual Movement,” June 12, 2009, in Back to the Basics: Introductory Essays to a Cross-Cultural Spirituality, p. 24, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Back-to-the-Basics-R2.pages.pdf   



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Allowing Myself to Feel – Steve Beckow

Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue


Allowing Myself to Feel

I continue to allow myself to feel what arises, the residue of a vasana or core issue reactivated.

As long-time readers know, I regard the re-activation of a vasana as a good thing. It’s only then that we can re-experience the incompleted feelings at the heart of it. (1)

Mostly we don’t share them. We might suppress them or paper them over with a smile.

But my job is to experience them and write about them. That’s why I’m writing about it now.

Not to cleverly manipulate you. I have no interest in that.  Why would I write what I write and manipulate? If you see that in print, you can be sure that a troll or worse has written it.

I write awareness writing because every minute is a potentially-rich learning experience – if we remain aware of things – and I want that learning. These times of lowness are especially generous in lessons. And it won’t kill me to explore them.

So please don’t try to rescue me. Just let me explore the feeling and share about it. I’ll use the upset clearing process on feelings I need to dissipate. (2)


There was a feeling that was asking to be seen and felt.

I saw that I was allowing myself at that moment to feel depressed. That’s the presenting condition. Not like I knew I was depressed before consciously naming it.

It took a while for me to see how I was feeling. I told Suzi I was going for a long walk in Stanley Park to clear my head. And I haven’t been able to get out the door.

That was the first clue. Why can’t I get out the door? Well, I’m depressed, I replied.

OK. Now I’ve named the condition. I can get depressed about being depressed. Or I can use the upset clearing process and move through it.

I choose the latter. Having named the feeling, I now ask my mind to give me a picture or thought about the original incident behind it. It’s seldom the present that we’re reacting to. It’s usually a much-earlier traumatic incident.

I’ll tell you mine, again for educational purposes, so you can see what the incident at the heart of a vasana  looks like. I do this to demonstrate how to move through an upset without “dumping” on others.


I see my Mother lying on her collapsed bed. She’s lost it – God knows why or how – and broken her bed  with her fists in a rage.

The doctor is arranging emergency transportation to the psych ward.

My Aunt Lou has come over and says to me: “Steve, you’d better let me sign her in. Whoever signs her in, she will never speak to that person again.”  My Mother never spoke to Lou again.

Leaving aside my Mother’s situation and speaking only for myself, my world collapsed. I’m maybe sixteen at the time and the idea that my Mother might not be here, in my life, for any reason, had never crossed my mind.

This sequestering of my Mom was a psychic break in my experience of wellbeing and it brought me thoughts, for the first time, of my Mother’s mortality.

For my Mother, her decline after that until she died in a housefire two years later was rapid. (3)

So that’s the significance of the event and the origin of the present-day upset. I concluded that I was now on my own. I decided I needed to “leave the nest” and look after myself – and my Mom.

And finally I did not want to feel the depression and insecurity again that I felt at that time and so I created behavior patterns that would ward off re-experiencing them.

But there it is: The full picture, the earlier traumatic incidents which lie below my present-day feeling of depression.

Now what I need to do is to experience the feeling itself until it lifts.

So not tough it out. Not deny the feelings. Not tamp them down. But experience them until they lift of their own volition.

Jesus described this process when he said: “The truth shall make you free.” If I’m onto the truth, I’ll feel increasing relief. If I’m going down the wrong path, I’ll feel more upset and tension. Once I’m through the process, I’m through it because the truth has set me free.

I now “be with” the feeling of depression.


In my opinion, we just keep creating vasanas until our behavior is so much in line with the divine qualities that we no longer do – or we ascend. The first, I think, would lead to the second. (Only one pathway among many, I’m sure.)

Well, obviously as you can see, I’m through my depression.  It didn’t stay any longer when I ceased to give it energy and just observed it. Awareness dissolves our upsets.

Recovery from our depressed feelings doesn’t have to stretch on for long periods of time. It doesn’t (usually) require a psychoanalyst to handle. I follow Contextual Therapist Bob Shaw’s lead in believing recovery can happen right now and right now.

OK. Time to get back to work. Right now.


(1) See for instance “OK, I Feel Upset. … Oh, Great!” in Vasanas: Preparing for Ascension by Clearing Old Issues. Vancouver: Golden Age of Gaia at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R8.pages.pdf

(2) “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/

(3) I’ve spoken to her since then through Linda and she told me she didn’t suffer in her passing.  She was gone long before the fire broke out, she said.

Most people are not required to go through traumatic death experiences; they leave before the end.



Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue

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Who Am I Without This Identity?- Steve Beckow

The Messenger ~ Artist Elizabeth Banker


Who Am I Without This Identity?

Mike Quinsey is having computer problems and will not have a message to post this week.

Tonight, I’m going through one space after another, dealing with the issue of finances.

Greta Thunberg is in town and I could not rouse myself from my mood to go hear her.

Grief at the thought that this phase of things may be ending is coming up. Once I recognize a layer of emotion, feel it, and let it go, up comes another.

When I ask for the original incident, I see break-ups with various girlfriends.  I see the death of my Mother. I allow myself to experience the grief.

Under that is tremendous fatigue.  Ten years of appeals is for me a tour of duty.

I’ve been as clear as I can with everyone. This is the time to register your vote.  If we cannot achieve a sustainable level of ongoing financial commitment by Oct. 1, I’ll regard that as your verdict and will not  re-open the matter again.

I’ll be activating Plan B, which is to ask Michael to find another way. I have a reading scheduled with him in the very near future.

If nothing can be arranged there, it’s back to the job market. Some people will hear that as a complaint. Not at all. It just means that there won’t be very much writing.

By the way, in answer to your kind email, no, the site will not charge for access to any materials here – neither an admission fee for the site itself nor a price for the books, articles, and databases. The material here must remain freely accessible.

Sadness comes up. Self-doubt. Recrimination. I’m a cauldron of negativity and toxicity, all of it arising to be recycled by the Law of Elimination. (Processing the vasana or core issue this way is the alternative to projecting it onto others.)

I’m not fooled or frightened by these conflicting emotions. It feels like I’ve been processing them – simple and layered – since forever.

It’s just not what you’d want to be doing of a Friday evening.

I feel an identity eroding. Good. Let it erode.

Anything that erodes is not eternal. I’m interested in the eternal. Therefore, who am I without this identity?



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Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important? – Steve Beckow

Print of a Ganeshom painting by Snowy Egret Press @ Etsy


Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important?

I was working in my apartment when bliss suddenly arose.  No warning. No reason I was aware of.

It was a circumstance where, if I did not recognize it and allow it, it’d enter my experience for a second and then vanish.  As if it just poked its head in.

But I did recognize it and I allowed it and it expanded to fill my being.

I have one or two colleagues who are also experiencing bliss.

What I noticed was that two things were exerting countervailing pulls on me.

One was bliss, which was pulling me in one direction. And the other was … what to call it? Personality? Ego? A desire for profile, respect, validation, admiration? Pulling me in another direction.

I saw that I could have one or the other but not both … and I chose bliss.

I didn’t need to sit down and get out my calculator. I didn’t need to ask my friends what they thought. Bingo. The decision was made.

If I allow the ego to arise, it arises in the same space otherwise available to bliss. It’s like a volcano that fills the blue skies with smoke.

I allow the ego to arise through making choices. If I choose not to hook up with it but be the observer instead as Michael so often asks of us, then my hope is the ego will not blossom forth in me. It’ll arise and pass away.

Again, if I stop being lazy and focus on drawing up love and bliss from my heart, I’ll start to use this machine I’m in (for a time) to its best effect.

What’s more important, at this time, than my connection with love?

I used to ask myself: Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

Now I’m asking myself: Why do I refuse to do what’s most important?



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The Mechanics of Love – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Amanda Sage


The Mechanics of Love

I feel a little funny saying it, but I’d like to comment on the mechanics of love, if I may.

I can’t remember how I used to look upon love, say, a decade ago.

The truth is I knew nothing about love until age 68.

I probably accepted that I knew nothing about it except that, if it was there, that was a good thing and, if it was not, that was a bad thing – that needed to be masked or hidden.

Fast forward to today and I now have access to my heart, which before was closed, and I see love more clearly now.

Michael has said that love is everywhere for the getting, but I also believe that we’re meant to seek it specially in our very own artesian well – our hearts.

Here it gushes like an inner tsunami of love, filling every nook and cranny and leaving one drowned in an Ocean of Love.

And, later, when one is no longer swimming in bliss, (1) the door remains open a little. One is still lifted up by a wisp or a wave of this divine, higher-dimensional love.

But there are certain characteristics of it that I’d like to make sure we’re aware of.

And I submit these as philosophers might call postulates, as statements of what I think of as truths, which I make available for the testing.

One is that love is never still. It must flow. We cannot contain it or restrict it in any way or it will simply disappear.

Two is that love must flow universally. We talk about “universal love.” If it isn’t universal, it isn’t love. Love is by its very nature always, already universal. It flows in all directions.

Three is that we taste love as it passes through us onto its next destination. That’s why so many people roll their eyes when feeling that love. It’s like having a feather drawn through your heart only ten times more gentle.

It’s rapturous. And we retain the memory of it to spur us on.

Four is that its next destination is someone who’s aware of it. It may flow through someone unaware of it, but they’ll be … unaware of it.

One has to be aware of love, bliss, peace, etc., for them to blossom. I’ve found this to be the case repeatedly.

I think it may prove the same with the dimensional setting we find ourselves in: It’ll depend on what we’re aware of.

To summarize: Love flows universally, but we’re unaware of its flow. Or we’re aware of it but try to hold onto it and it disappears.

It’s open to us instead to call it up from our hearts on our inbreath and send it out to the world on the outbreath (see the “Love Pump” graphic at top). And revel in the love as it passes through us.


(1) All spiritual experiences below Sahaja Samadhi (or Ascension) are either partial or temporary. Only the fire of Sahaja burns the vasanas (the seeds of future action) to a crisp.



Artist ~ Amanda Sage

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Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Vladimir Volegov


Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

Getting back to generosity as a divine state, I know from experience that divine states eventuate – they end up – in love. (1)

I think the Mother is saying: Here’s an easy way to begin exercising your muscle of generosity and clearing the path to transformative love.

In my experience, generosity blends into love.  There isn’t a hard and fast border between them. I’d like to say that generosity invites love. Certainly love comes up with generosity: two for the price of One.

It’s this love that we’ll all need to make wise decisions as financial stewards of the Mother later.

So it isn’t just a case of generosity arising in us because it’s something nice or a pleasant feeling. It’s all that but much more.

It’s the basic curriculum of a financial steward: Generosity 101 as preparation for Humanitarian Philanthropy 202. That I think is what the Mother intends.

So do look inside and fan the flame of generosity you find. Please donate to the upkeep of the blog, using the button below.

See it, if you will, as part of building a generous world, one whose stewards are outfitted with the right qualities to administer a global donor economy.

Love offerings from others, who like us are also in a receiving position, are sincerely welcomed as well.


(1) Let me clarify. I know from experience that generosity blends into transformative love in the opened heart – the heart after a 4th-chakra heart opening, such as we as a planet are gradually going through at this moment.

I no longer am aware of what generosity results in before such an event.

Moreover, I’ve lost interest in what my prior condition was (as SaLuSa predicted long ago). No, I’m not ascended. I’m just a little bit more opened up than I was.


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Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow

Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes


Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2

Giving and generosity are not always the same. They’re often different.

Everyone can give. But some people do because they feel they have to. Or should.

In my view, no disrespect meant, if we felt forced or obliged to give, that wouldn’t fall under “generosity.”

It isn’t what the Divine Mother, in my opinion, wants us to do. I think she wants us to light the fires of generosity.

The Mother has asked the GAoG team to allow ourselves (among other lightworkers and groups) to be used  to light that fire. Here she discusses it:

Divine Mother: You have agreed that you are on, can we say, the receiving end.

Steve: So our allowing ourselves to be in a position to need to ask for help is used as a means to get people to open up?

Divine Mother: To express gratitude, generosity, unity and to express what is valuable to them.

Steve: So that is what the spiritual meaning of this is. That we serve the purpose of igniting people’s generosity or inspiring it.

Divine Mother: That is correct. You are the catalysts. (1)

Tough assignment.  But OK. The fire must be lit.

Why is that?

Generosity is a divine state of consciousness. There’s immense value in entering into it – as a state – in and of itself.

But, leaving that aside for the moment (I’ll return to it in Part 2), we’re also the Mother’s financial stewards and we’ll be administering a significant stream of funds in her post-Reval New Earth.

I don’t think we’ll get very far if we’re giving with suspicion, resentment, or worry about ourselves.

At some point, whether we know it or not, we’ll have to light the fires of our own generosity to do the job we’ll face.

It’s there inside us but dormant.  The Mother wants GAoG to serve as the occasion for awakening it again.

If we have an inner block against giving generously, then lighting our fires may require some inner work, now or later. The cost is lower now.

I’m seeing things from the other side now, playing this role in her plan. And I do see the sense of it.

So please, use this as an occasion to light the fires of generosity. Press the “Donate” button below and give to the upkeep of the blog – on a one-time basis or, better still, on a monthly basis. Start in on generous giving but don’t stop with us. The Mother is using many other lightworkers in the same way as us.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, June 7, 2015.


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Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes

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Quite a Ways Down the Road – Steve Beckow

Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery


Quite a Ways Down the Road

Sages for millennia have called the Creator, Preserver and Transformer of the world of matter (mater, Mother) the Divine Mother.

Here’s Lao Tzu for instance:

“Nameless indeed is the source of creation [the Father],
But things have a mother and she has a name.”  (1)

And Sri Yukestwar Giri, guru of Paramahansa Yogananda:

“‘It is the Spirit of God [the Holy Spirit or Divine Mother] that actively sustains every form and force in the universe; yet he [the Father] is transcendental and aloof in the blissful uncreated void beyond the worlds of vibratory phenomena,’ Master explained.”(2)

When the Mother speaks through Linda Dillon, she identifies herself as the Mother as well. (3)

This though there is no gender at the levels of reality we’re talking about. That leads me to believe that it’s a teaching tool.

They’re represented as the exact opposite of human psychological stereotypes.  In psychology, the male is seen as active and the woman as passive. In spirituality, the Heavenly Male is seen as passive and the Divine Female as active.

In Hinduism, especially, a literature has grown up that incorporates divine consorts and sacred partnerships, all deriving from the original coupleship of the Father and the Mother, the Source and the Creator.

It puts the journey of life into terms we can understand and identify with.

My vision in 1987 showed me that we’re embarked on a common journey from God the Father to God the Father. God the Mother’s material world is our school where we learn our true identity until, having seen it, we experience the moment of enlightenment that constitutes our graduation.

At that moment God meets God.  God the Child, having been birthed and raised to awareness by God the Mother, reunites with God the Father, who is the All.

That, I’m told, is quite a ways down the road….


(1) Lao Tzu, The Way of Life. The Tao Te Ching. trans. R.B. Blakney. New York, etc.: Avon, 1975, 53.

“It began with a matrix: The world had a mother.” (Ibid., 105.)

“The formless Absolute is my Father, and God with form is my Mother.” (Kabir quoted by Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 150.)

(2) Paramahansa Yogananda, quoting Sri Yukteswar Giri in Autobiography of a Yogi. Bombay: Jaico, 1975, 143.)

(3) See for instance “The Divine Mother: Your Essence is Purity,” 



Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery

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A Matter That Simple – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva


A Matter That Simple

I once joked with Michael that I’d groan and moan and complain the whole way and then want all the glory afterwards.

He said, yes, you do want your pound of flesh.

Pound of flesh….

What kind of behavior are we discussing? Because I think it’s one of the ways of the world.  Especially now, in these chaotic times.

I’d call it “childish” if I were to boil it down to a word. Only a child wants a pound of flesh.

Another way of saying what I personally think the world is lacking right now would be to say “adult behavior.”

Adult behavior is not attached to drama. It doesn’t go to extremes.

It doesn’t exact its pound of flesh. It’s attached to a successful outcome, as win/win as possible.

Adult behavior prepares us for interacting with our star family as they arrive on-planet. (1) I predict that they won’t meet with folks enamored of drama.

Adult behavior does a cost/benefit analysis when it’s about to blow a gasket. Do the potential costs I could incur outweigh the benefits I think I’ll get? This is coming from a career gasket-blower, by the way.

Adult behavior processes the vasana rather than projecting the strong feelings onto others. “You made me mad!” Nope. No pass on that one. Especially not in these confused and confusing times.

You made you mad by responding the way you did to a triggered vasana (core issue). You responded angrily. That’s a choice. It’s a long road back from anger but it doesn’t change the fact that getting angry is a choice.

Process the vasana, instead of projecting it. Ask yourself where does the strong feeling originate? What incident in my past history has triggered this?

Take the first picture that comes along. “Be” with it. Experience the feelings through to completion and the vasana will lift – temporarily. Rinse and repeat as necessary. It’s just a matter of retraining ourselves.

This is adult behavior, in my opinion. Projecting one’s anger onto another is not.

The scenario I can’t get out of my mind is being yelled at: “I don’t have any vasanas.”

Say what?

Finally, adult behavior is loving, compassionate, and cooperative. It knows that a higher-dimensional world, a world that works for everyone, is coming.

No matter how we might feel and be as individuals, feeling and being this way as a world is the object of this journey. Returning the world to peace and harmony is the task at hand. And this calls for us all to act as adults.

I’m asking us to leave “childish” behavior behind, no matter where we live. We need “adult,” loving, compassionate behavior in a chaotic world.

It all boils down to a matter that simple.


(1) See “On the Delegations,” September 9, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/09/09/on-the-delegations/  



female male family child - art by Mariana Kalacheva

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva

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Good Work – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


Good Work

I’m observing myself as I do my writing and I notice that I have this concept of “good work.”‘

“Good work” is work I feel love, bliss, or joy in doing. Or peace or tranquillity. Good work elevates.

“Undesirable work” is work I feel irritation, anger, or resistance in doing. This kind of work depresses. I should probably let this kind of work slip off the table.

The exact point at which I saw that I had this notion of “good work” was when I was doing my monthly budget.

I love doing my monthly budget. I love being organized. Here I was, updating my budget, merrily working away.

Hit the pause button.

If you knew me, you’d know I have this story that I hate math. (1)

But my story doesn’t fit the reality.

In reality I very much enjoy adding up the columns of figures and checking it with my bank records. I feel elevated doing it, happily working my way through things and reconciling it all. I just won’t admit it to myself.

So doing my budget falls unexpectedly into this category that I’ve called “good work.”  Acknowledging it as such now removes the blinders that I’ve had on: The truth has set me free.

Anything I think of that can benefit others I think of as “good work” as well. Large or small.  I feel love in the doing of it.

Being on the awareness path is for me a great blessing because the act of awareness causes a condition to lift. So I both get to study a field that supremely interests me and heal myself of all the trauma we accumulate in the process. What’s not to like?

The ultimate act of self-awareness – and its goal – is to be aware of the Self/All Self.

This lifetime I don’t get to be monkish or philosophical. This is a hands-on, karma-yoga lifetime of service. To the monk in me, “service” translates as “work.”

I mean the phrase, “good work,” in the same way the Buddha meant “right action.”  There are universal laws and behavior that aligns with them is right action; in the same vein, work that aligns with universal law and the divine qualities is good work.

Added to the evidence of awareness is the knowledge of the masters. Jesus’s observation that the truth shall set you free is a cornerstone of awareness practice. (2)

The truth does set us free. The follower of the awareness path endeavors to remain in the present moment, which it turns out is also the place of experienced truth. They aim for personal transparency, consistent with duty or dharma, and revel in receiving mirroring and feedback.

Self-awareness is the most fascinating of fields of study for me and the most rewarding. (2) Any time I spend in it I regard as “good work.”


(1) Michael says that I was a mathematical philosopher in another lifetime and, after it, I begged him never to ask me to be a mathematician again.

(2) Tell the truth and it’ll set us free from the condition.

We can use that knowledge in the following way.

We can measure our progress in freeing ourselves from an upset.  Are we feeling freer, lighter, happier? Then we know the truth is being expressed.

Are we feeling denser, darker, and more irritable? Then we know we’re moving farther and farther away from the truth.  Time to turn around and go another way.

(1) I spent three months in a growth-movement program that featured encounter groups and different therapeutic workshops, at Cold Mountain Institute in … 1975-6? After that, est, rebirthing, Zen, enlightenment intensives, etc. The thing that united all of them was awareness.




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Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow

Shelter Of The Sacred by Shiloh Sophia McCloud


Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 2/2

Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

I also see barriers to the resistance falling away. Here’s one. I think I have to say to someone who challenges me on authority: “I speak on my own divine authority.”

No, I don’t. “I speak on my own authority.”

To say “on my divine authority” is to invite controversy. Why go that route?

I know. What does it matter whether the other person does or not? Or believes that I do or not? It doesn’t affect my knowledge.

I see barriers coming up right and left. Voices saying: “But I want others to know.” No, you don’t. You just want to feel like a hero. They each have their own path. Let your concern go.

Oh, yes, my precious knowledge.  I have to be well discerned. I have to read only the best.

I once read only enlightened authors for ten years – after my 1987 vision – to find words to put to it. Perhaps I should go back to that.

I will when I retire.

Right now the agenda is the Ascension of Gaia and all her inhabitants. Therefore, back to uncovering my divine authority.

All the divine states simply are. They don’t come with a manual.

We’re given intuition and guidance to find the key to unlock the door.

The door has to be unlocked by our own efforts (1/1,000) combined with the Mother’s Grace (999/1,000). (1)  As I discuss in the footnote, the Mother’s Grace far outweighs my small efforts.

But nothing is straightforward where souls are concerned. There are many things that have to be factored in to this equation. I am in service to the Mother as a communicator: That means that my experiences will be molded and even truncated if “going too far” jeopardizes my mission.

It also means, I believe, that I’m given more experiences than the average person because they know I’ll write about them.

So here I am digging away at the debris to discover what my divine authority is, knowing that, when I discover it, it’ll be mostly because of the Mother’s Grace.


Here’s a clue. Contemplating my divine authority, I’ve ended up in a state of higher-dimensional love. This aligns with my experience of all the other divine states; I end up in the experience of love.

Is this what is meant by saying that love takes in all the divine qualities?


(1) In other words, her input is vastly more than ours.

Note that you can see in my own case that the Mother plans and monitors enlightenment events and takes an active role in them.

I experienced a full-blown, 4th-chakra heart opening, but did not experience the fulness of the 4th-chakra sight of the Self. The Mother later acknowledged truncating the latter as Archangel Michael did as well.

Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?

Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.

Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated.  …

DM: It was not as brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.

Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?

DM: It is to keep you in sync with your readers. (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)

Michael on truncating in general:

Archangel Michael: If you were completely involved in your full awakening, you in very great likelihood would not be forming a platform with me.  You would be off somewhere in an ashram meditating.

So that is what we have meant.  Ground yourself.  Be human and love the experience of being in form.  (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, May 6, 2013.)

If I had the full experience of any of these states, I’d most probably be off in the Himalayas finishing the job.

The upshot of these experiences is that the active involvement of the Mother and the Archangels in my own spiritual unfoldment rests with me as a proven fact.

This then becomes part of my knowledge base, which contributes a sense of certainty to me about the nature of the life that I encounter every day, inside and out.

Moreover, getting clear about it as I am here removes another barrier to the realization of what my divine authority is.



Shelter Of The Sacred by Shiloh Sophia McCloud

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Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow

Heather Shirin artist.


Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 1/2

I’m beginning to see the tie-in between divine qualities, states of consciousness, and contexts.

They’re different words pointing at the same thing.

I’ve experienced mastery, abundance, and peace, which are divine qualities, as states of consciousness.

They were expansive, transformative – certainly higher states than ordinary consciousness.

Werner Erhard calls the same phenomenon a “context,” something that includes and involves everything. Health and peace are examples of contexts. I experienced the states of consciousness as contexts as well.

Love is an example of a divine quality (1) which is a state of consciousness and a context.  I know that for a certainty.

It may turn out that claiming my divine authority is also a state of consciousness and a context. I’m in the process of finding out.

How do I know something is all three – a divine quality, state of consciousness, and context?

By the transformative impact living in that state of consciousness has on me. Take love for instance.

When I’m in the experience of higher-dimensional love, I’m a completely-different person. It’d be as if I were in constant orgasm. Bliss, bliss, bliss, if only it would be everlasting (and it will be someday).

I notice that, with the experience of every other state of consciousness (mastery, abundance, etc.), I ended up in transformative love. I expect to end up in transformative love when I experience my divine authority as well.

I get glimpses. These present to me as a rock-solid confidence.  In other words, just as I experienced purity and innocence while gazing on the Self, so also here I experience rock-solid certainty and confidence while “feeling” or glimpsing my divine authority.

Because you and I are divine, right? So it isn’t as if we’re feeling into illusion. We’re feeling into the truth of our divinity, which needs to be settled with us before we experience our authority.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) Apparently it’s actually more than a divine quality; it is the Divine. I haven’t experienced the truth of that statement yet.

For convenience only I include it among the qualities.



Heather Shirin artist.

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Does My World Work? – Steve Beckow

Yogini With Flowers @ Lasha Mutual Fine Art (Dakini As Art)


Does My World Work?

Am I creating in my own life a world that works for everyone?

No, I’m not.

I can still be grumpy and territorial and impatient. I snarl at bad bus-line behavior.  I tell people trying to sneak on for free where the front door of the bus is. Cosmic policeman.

Nevertheless, I do know how the world is when it does work for everyone. I have that one skill, that one string to my bow.

I spent months in that space. (1) It’s a space of Love. I hope capitalizing it will make my point. It’s a higher form of love than many people have experienced, apparently.

Many of us might have experienced it for a few moments in a peak experience. And then it’s gone and just a memory. I had a long-enough visit that I could take note of it and write up my experience of it.

I can still summon the Love up from my heart but … and here come my excuses.

What is higher-dimensional Love like? I’ve often compared ordinary love to Tang and higher-dimensional Love to freshly-squeezed Florida orange juice.  But that comparison really doesn’t do it justice (I nearly said, “juice-tice”).  It’s way beyond that.

Being in that Love is being in an ascended state. Fifth to seventh-dimensional I was told by Michael and the Arcturians.

In that state, a person wants nothing else than more Love. They wouldn’t lift a finger against another person. All they want to do is to share the Love and have other people enter into the the flow of it.

I feel like I have an above-top-secret secret. “Pssst! I know where Shangra-la is.” (In the heart.)

But it’s true. If everyone drowned in the Ocean of Love or fell into the Lake of Bliss, such an Ascension of consciousness would produce a world that works for everyone. And we will do these things. That’s my firm prediction. (3)

Meanwhile, creating a world that works for everyone as nearly as I can in my own life seems like a very productive experiment to run.

I loved Adamu’s distinction between self-responsible and other-responsible. (2) If I’m to be self-responsible, rather than waiting for others to do it for me (create a world that works), then I need to make the world around me work.


(1) “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

“Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 1/2” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-12/

“Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 2/2,” athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-22/

(2) “Notes on Adamu Speaks ~ Timelines… and the Dissolution of the illuminati!,” 

(3) Nothing I’ve ever predicted has come to pass. Along with everyone else.



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Ready for the Historic – Steve Beckow

circle-light-art faces male female dolphins


Ready for the Historic

As you know, I need to use this time to sandpaper some of my rougher qualities if I’m to be of use later on.

Part of an Ascension ethnography is the cleansing or purification phase, known to all terrestrial students of enlightenment.

However, things have changed now with the rising energies, it seems. Vasanas that would have remained deeply buried appear to be rising to the surface all over the place, like calving glaciers.

I know they’re coming up fast and thick for me.

And all of it is arising to be swept away, as Michael explained in May 2019:

“Everything that has need to be eliminated, everything that has need to be relinquished, everything that needs to be healed in this cesspool that we call ‘chaos’ has need to come to the surface.

“Otherwise – and this has happened many, many times in human history – there is a belief, there is a healing, an accommodation, a remedy, and then the human collective tends to think, ‘Okay, now it is cleaned up. Now it is healed. Now it is done.’

“But the core issues [i.e., the vasanas] – of the collective, and of course of the individuals, have not been addressed, and therefore it simply settles in and it festers.

“In this part of the infinite, eternal unfoldment of our Mother’s Plan, it all has need to be surfaced so that this subtle and actual festering until it again boils over cannot happen. It is simply, in your time and in the Mother’s time, the juncture at which this has to be healed. So it continues to rise to the surface.” (1)

I can live with that.

I can give you an example of a core issue that arose for me in the course of working away at something this morning. I was imagining talking to an employee at Michaelangelo & Partners and I said, at the end, “We’re good.”

And I suddenly found myself doubled up in pain and tears.

Never when I was growing up was I told I was good.  I succumbed to the criticism and blame from the male side of our family and took upon myself the identity that I was bad. Hey, this is common, garden-variety family stuff.

To hear the word, “We’re good” come out of my mouth was like someone announcing I’d won the lottery. Words I’d never heard before.

This is a core issue. I’m still weeping as I write.

In the course of reparenting myself, I’m coaxing my wounded Child to come back across the line that divides people, in their own minds, into “good” and “bad.” And there is resistance born of fear.

I can tell you for a positive fact, on my own authority, that we are at essence pure and innocent. Xenia showed me that. (2)

So we are good. Unwittingly I’d just expressed a deep and transcendent truth: We are good. At essence we are pure and innocent, the essence of goodness.

Goodness has been in disrepute since the Sixties but it may be time to bring it back again.

It’s territory that I haven’t ventured into for so long my mouth is mentally agape. In my own mind, I’m a bad man dressed up to look good. And why am I bad? Ask Dad.

It’s these core issues we need to clear. It’s these that Michael describes as being raised to the surface to be taken from us once and for all. (3)

So I’m sandpapering myself, grateful that we have a bit more time before anything big happens.  I want to be ready for the historic.


(1) “Archangel Michael: Victory is at Hand!” May 10, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/05/10/archangel-michael-victory-is-at-hand/.

(2) That I knew for a certainty out of my experience at Xenia. See “Original Innocence,” Sept. 21, 2018, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/21/original-innocence-2/

(3) For me to consider myself to be a “good” person is for me to have transcended a huge core issue.  It looks so simple, so innocuous. But it’s like trying to push an iceberg.

Most of any vasana (core issue) remains unexpressed, hidden like the better part of an iceberg.  Only rarely do we fully express ourselves in the course of experiencing one through to completion.

I had the privilege of being able to do that on a four-month resident fellowship at Cold Mountain Institute in 1975-76 (I believe).  It was a carousel of week-long workshops in growth and spirituality with an ongoing encounter group in the evenings.

But most people don’t have that opportunity and so, as Michael pointed out, most of our issues remain uncleared, lurking below the surface, awaiting being triggered once again.

For some assistance with clearing them, see “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/



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Archangel Michael on the Time of Separation – Steve Beckow

Hydrangeas (Photo: VK Chernyak/Shutterstock)


Archangel Michael on the Time of Separation

While researching leadership, I came across this passage from Archangel Michael, in which he discusses the “time of separation.”

Recently we heard Adamu say that timelines are diverging. SaLuSa discussed divine deadlines and a time of separation perhaps a decade ago.

And now Michael explains (generally) when and how this separation will happen.

Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, July 22, 2016.

Steve: What do you mean by time of separation, Lord?  SaLuSa discussed it years ago.

AAM: When you made the collective decision to ascend as one, it was spiritually a very mature and evolved decision. …

That does not mean that, yes, in the infinite and eternal existence of the Mother, she will wait forever because this is the unfoldment of her Plan. This is what the penetration with all of our voices into each and every one of you is about.

There will be those who choose to leave, to abandon their physical forms rather than ascend in physical form.

Steve: That is what you mean by separation – leave?

AAM: That is what I mean and I do not mean being spun off into an alternate world or Earth or Gaia or planet. I mean simply, abandoning the body, dying, leaving, and coming home. There is no penalty or shame or guilt. It is simply a decision.

But it is not the desire of the Mother that this [Ascension process] simply continue [forever] because what she also sees (what we all see) and what you’ve repeatedly said to us, even though we operate often in terms of eons rather than years, many of you are tired.

So we do not wish for those who have been stalwart and continue and practice fortitude and persistence along with love to reach the point where they abandon their bodies. And you are seeing that in many.

Steve: I can think of one person in particular that seems to be thinking of abandoning their body, so yes.

AAM: When it comes to a decision point of whether the recalcitrant remain or whether those who are determined to fulfil the Mother’s dream remain, make no mistake about it. Those who have been in the truth of their heart and service will be victorious. I cannot be clearer than that.



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Who am I? – Steve Beckow

Heart of Infinity by Anna Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America


Who am I?

Who am I? It’s my turn? You want me to tell you….


You’re not asking a non-dualistic question, are you? You want a down-to-earth answer?

Well, to start with, I’m a person who’s looking to meet people who know what real love is.

Many people say they do and turn out not to.

I live for the day when large numbers of people actually do know what true love is, as we all will once the gradual planetary heart opening we’re presently going through is complete.

I’m a person who wants to meet people who accept my speaking to archangels. This blog is a co-creative partnership with an archangel and I’d like to meet people for whom that’s the coolest thing, not a jaw-dropper.

I’m a person who’s driven by his mission, who’ll sacrifice close to anything to carry through on it.  I see now that all my life I’ve refused to stop and insisted on carrying on with what I came to know as my soul contract aka what I love doing – writing.

I’m a person who walked away from formal studies, alwaysknowing (1) that there was very much more to be had than what I was seeing and hearing in “higher” institutions.

On my own in the library during my graduate years, I studied history, anthropology, sociology, and psychology. (2) Mostly for my own interest.

Some programs I left because I abandoned the paradigm of empirical materialism, that only what we see, hear, feel, and touch is real. That paradigm was too small to allow a fruitful pursuit of the truth.

Some I left because people seemed simply to be going through the motions to get ahead.  I wanted truth from a university, not tenure. I discovered that truth was not in my university’s charter. (3)

When I left an endeavor, it seldom felt like I’d lost – well, it did for a time. More often it felt like I was going for something indefinably more. I knew there was more. There had to be more.

It was helpful that I had little interest in material things, like owning a house or having a great car. (4) I never felt that I was somehow tied to anything, “established” or “rooted.” I could move on when the next assignment beckoned.

I also remember emphasizing, with myself, that my databases and everything else I worked with had to be “portable.” A laptop with everything in it is like heaven for me. It allows me to move around.

The feeling that I needed to keep going was so strong that I never questioned it. I assumed that everyone felt this way. But at long last I began to see that it wasn’t necessarily shared.

I’m a person who’s been given plenty of previews of where we’re headed. I expect that’s because I can be relied on to write about them. Fortunately I studied enlightenment years before the experiences started happening so I had a context into which to fit them. (5)

I’m a person who’s going to be so busy in the years ahead that my work life will have to be my social life.  I won’t have time for anything else.

And finally I’m a person who’s after something compelling and unknown that I know I’ll find and I know I’ll know it when I find it.

I have no idea what it is or where, when, or how I’ll find it. I justknow I will.


(1) It was the same kind of feeling that the Mother called “divine knowing”:

Steve: Am I correct in continuing to say to myself, “This source is not what they say they are but it doesn’t matter. I’m still serving Archangel Michael.”

Divine Mother: You have reached this place of clarity. Now, dearest heart, this is exactly what I am talking about in terms of your divine knowing. And nothing is swaying you from that balanced center of knowing. (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018. My emphasis.)

The place of divine knowing did feel solid, stable. It’s a place of rock-solid certainty.

In this, it resembles peace which is like granite. See “Peace is Like … Granite,” August 22, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/22/peace-is-like-granite/. On the experience of peace itself, see “The Peace that Passeth Understanding,” July 18, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/07/18/the-peace-that-passeth-understanding/.

Here is Michael on the solidity of peace:

“Peace is solid.

“There are so many divine qualities that do feel amorphous, light, airy, like a spring day. And yet peace (you have this expression), you can take it to the bank. It feels like ballast. It feels like granite because it is solid. And dare I say immutable. That is why I continue to keep emphasizing that peace within, that rock-solid granite within.” ( “Archangel Michael on AHWAA: Achieving Inner Peace,” )

Again, like the other divine states, it isn’t at all as what we might expect. And the experience of it is transformative.  If I were in my divine knowing at this moment, I expect that I’d be higher in vibration, whether dimensional or not I don’t know.

(2) My thesis adviser once said to me that he thought I read only the introductions to books. He was right. I went from one field to the next in the library and only read the theoretical parts – the introductions.

I just wanted to know what the field was about – linguistics, proxemics, kinesics, folkloristics, etc. I had no interest in the details.

(3) I wanted to study enlightenment for my Ph.D. Thesis but, when I approached the Department of Religious Studies with the proposal, they informed me that they were prevented from studying enlightenment by the university’s charter.

(4) Except for my collections of things – marbles, soldiers, dinosaurs, model airplanes,  later books, etc.

(5) I remember being at an Adyashanti workshop in which Adya was helping a woman understand that the experience she went through, which totally bamboozled her, was enlightenment. She had no idea what had happened.

I had the advantage of having studied the subject even if I could not somehow get the whole picture. On Feb. 13, 1987, in a vision, I got the whole picture.  See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/



Heart of Infinity by Anna Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America

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The Symbol of the Sun – Steve Beckow

7 Horses Of The Sun God by Herendra Swarup @ Best College Art


The Symbol of the Sun

This is the second of two articles occasioned by reflection on a vision experience I had in 1987. (1)

Sunset is a very emotional time for me.

To understand why, I’d have to mention (again) the actors in the 1987 vision I had.

I knew who the actors in the vision were because I was bathed in bliss at the time.  Bliss brings all things to remembrance, so to speak. (2)

The first actor I saw was a large golden Sun and I knew that to be what Jesus meant by “God the Father.”

Out from the Sun came a little golden star and I knew that to be what some sages call the “Self”; Jesus, the Son, the Christ, the Pearl of great price; Hindus, the Atman and Brahman-within-the-individual; what I call the Child of God, etc.

Gosh, I get caught up in this so easily. Here I am, in the process of being swept away.

I need go no further with the vision than to jump to the penultimate scene.  The Child of God has experienced the first enlightenment and stands gazing at the Sun.

In the final scene, I watched the Child of God, the Christ, or Atman race to and merge itself again with the golden Sun from which it came. End of story for one Child of God.


I digress, I know. But please allow me. Writing about this is my joy.

So I got it. From God we came; to God we return. From God to God. All in aid of enlightenment, at which point God meets God. Everything I’ve just seen (in the spiritual tableau), the whole world of worlds the individual soul traversed was created in order to have these moments of divine meeting occur.

Some people tell us that we’re allowing illusion to reign. God created illusion in order to have the pleasure of meeting Itself. It isn’t as if there’s something bad and wrong about the illusion. It’s one of God’s highly-intentional, even basic creations.

God put it there to give us something to recognize and wake up to, so that God could see and experience Itself. How else could something that is everything know itself, than to create an illusory world in which fragments of itself, who agree to forget, follow lives that lead to the recognition of their true identity? And in that flash, God realizes Itself. Perfect.


The words roll off our tongue, but the implications are immense. If God is everything, then you are God. And so am I.

Therefore all of this unfolding is according to my Plan. And yours. And ours.

Everything on Earth that’s happening is happening inside of me.

Nothing the illusory part of me does has any lasting significance unless it contributes to its and the collective’s ultimate awakening.

God meeting God carries immense mutual benefits.

The implications just keep rolling out.


By the way, when would I have the time, courage, or ability to allow this unfoldment to occur in public if I had to do a nine-to-five job?  I don’ think I’d even attempt it. At a moment like this, I realize that I owe my ability to write this Ascension ethnography to you. And to go as deeply as I’m able.

I feel a tremendous amount of gratitude and bondedness. Not just from those who sent money.

I know what love feels like. Sending love, which really does reach the other party, is happily accepted.


To return to my original point, the sun sets directly in front of my apartment. And so it comes fully into view at a place in the sky where it’s safe for me to gaze at it.

What I see is the large Sun in my vision and I often talk to it as the Father.

I see myself, as in my vision, standing on the shore of the realm of matter (mater, Mother), and gazing at the Father in the Transcendental, represented by the Sun.

I’ve had the first enlightenment (fourth-chakra heart opening and sight of the Self), just as the little golden star in my vision had. That golden star then left the domain of the Mother, raced back to the Father, and merged with It.

I know our Sun is a portal. Last night I tried to get the Sun to extend that portal all the way to me and take me to the Father. Just like in my vision?

Ahhhh, not yet.

Smilingly, I’m still here.


(1) The actual vision is described here: “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

The first article in this series is “It All Works Out in the Final Reel (Repost),” 

(2) OK, OK, it doesn’t allow you to know what happened on June 13, 1867. But it greatly expands one’s knowing. I just “knew” the identities of the large golden Sun (the Father) the small golden star (the Child) and the cloud that contained lifetimes in matter (the Mother, mater, matter).



7 Horses Of The Sun God by Herendra Swarup @ Best College Art

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Everyone Gets a Fresh Start Eventually – Steve Beckow

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Everyone Gets a Fresh Start Eventually

I call for a fresh start for the planet by Jan. 1, 2020.

The end of one age and the beginning of another is a fresh start.

Ascension is a fresh start – in a new dimension of existence.

Not ascending is a fresh start – in another 3D world.

All of us, at this moment in time, may very well need – and are in for – a fresh start.

Hallelujah. The feast awaits.

The question then arises: What do we want to do with our fresh start?

Oh, that’s easy for me to answer. It should be difficult, right?

I should wrestle with it for a week, n’est-ce pas?

Absolutely not. No contest.

I want to be, do, and have infinite, eternal Love.

Hands down. End of story.

What more could anyone want or need?

Don’t forget: Your spirit is already immortal and always was. In the higher dimensions, our immortal spirit is not troubled by hunger.

There’s no negative valence placed on just being. Being drowned in the Ocean of Love, being rich beyond imagining in the treasure of Love, if we simply choose to just sit there, no one would mind.

But here on Earth, in the Third/Fourth Dimension, we have to eat, right? A person has to sleep. We need a car. It costs money to live.

Here, we have to work to do or have these things. (1) Not on the higher planes. There, thought creates things.

They’re not troubled by “needs.” (2) I imagine that they have the ability to pass years in meditation, without being troubled by the thought of a single need. Just my guess.

So what do I want to do with my fresh start? I want to be like butter that melts in the presence of the warmth that Love is. I want no more of “me” to exist; only Love.

Consequently I’m not holding on to “me.” Let Love dissolve it. Let Love alone be, that Love may be all in all.

That’s what I want to do with my fresh start.


(1) This brings us into social interaction, which in turn helps us to awaken to our true nature.

(2) The same could be said of the astral planes of the afterlife: That they create with thought. The closest we have to that is our Fourth Dimension.

But, while we may be in the Fourth Dimension, we’re in it from within our physical bodies, whereas astral dwellers are free of theirs. This physical body is very dense, a non-conductor of refined feelings, thoughts, etc., as I learned in an out-of-body experience in 1977.

So, in my opinion, we don’t manifest things as quickly as astral dwellers do, even though we may be considered to be in the same 3rd/4th dimension.



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Archangel Michael on How to Regard a Fallen Guru – Steve Beckow

Archangel Michael by Alma Yamazaki @ Pixels


Archangel Michael on How to Regard a Fallen Guru

In trying to find the quote from the Divine Mother on fallen gurus, I came across a passage from Archangel Michael in which he discusses the same subject.

I found the piece so informative that I determined to post it:

Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon,
Jan. 3, 2013.

S: Is XXX and her circle guilty of the crimes that YYY accuses her of?

AAM: No one is to be hung out and dried. That is the way of persecution. That is the way of the old Third [Dimension]. That is the way of guilt, shame, blame, fault, that false grid that we are happy to be waving goodbye to.

Now have there been some mis-steps or irregularities in this situation with XXX? And with several others?

S: Like ZZZ?

AAM: The answer is yes. Now one of the difficulties – and you and I have spoken of this, as with WWW – but let us speak of the situation of those who become might we say gilded gurus. And we use that term very specifically. And that is why Pope Francis, thus far, is demonstrating being such an exception to the rule.

The power is tremendous. And, as you know, regardless of the vows of chastity, poverty, humility, many of these beings have massive followings and massive donations and wealth. And the temptations can be enormous, not only to do with money, but to do with using power in ways that are not loving.

It is necessary for such beings to surround themselves constantly and vigilantly with those who adhere to a very high moral, ethical framework, and you are learning this. You have always been a person of integrity and I would never infer otherwise, but you and I have, dear heart, had the conversation of integrity around massive wealth. (1)

And so the dangers of integrity particularly as it relates to ethical behaviour of one’s followers is the baseline. It cannot … well, it can … but from our perspective, it cannot be violated.

Now did we say to you that such gurus in fact become unacceptable or that they have lost their vision? [No.]  They may have lost their way momentarily but they are always worked with, never abandoned; the same, no being is abandoned. Sometimes there are situations where they forget that their direction comes from the Divine Mother and so there is an influx of ego.

But your [our] role is never to judge, to stand back and be the observer and to forgive. And sometimes you [we] are forgiving on behalf of the human collective. Sometimes you [we] are assisting those who have been hurt. Sometimes you [we] are tending to those who are trying to re-emerge or re-organize in light of, can we say, misguidance.


(1) I said to him earlier that I couldn’t see how people could keep from being bowled over by the idea and arrival of sudden wealth and a conversation ensued.



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I Do Know the Address – Steve Beckow

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I Do Know the Address

Yesterday I found my stash of Paramahansa Yogananda Self-Realization Fellowship (SRF) monthly lessons from decades ago.

I now have access again to the documents which are the source of the equation of “Om” with the “Holy Spirit.”

Each of these fundamental statements is of immense value to the spiritual student. To me, they’re like a child finding a gold coin on the street. (1)

In poring over the documents, I came across this passage which sent me off in an entirely different direction and it’s really this that I’d like to talk about here.

Yogananda said:

“As a soul, man can never find true satisfaction merely through possessions and selfish interests.” (2)

Wonderful benchmarks. I think they’re open to misunderstanding. Let me depart from the usual interpretations in looking at them.

The “soul” is the operator inside the body, operating all the levers. Anyone who has had a lucid out-of-body experience has experienced that soul as being separate from the body.

Souls can never find true satisfaction through objects and selfish interests.

True satisfaction he defines as “eternal, ever-new Bliss, and along with it … Immortality [Ascension], and everlasting consciousness.” (3)

If we lived in the Blissful state Yogananda refers to, which is a state of at least the Fifth Dimension, we would already be what he calls “immortal.”

Immortal as he’s using it simply means that we exist in a Fifth-Dimensional consciousness state or higher. We now no longer need to be born and die.

But in point of fact we always were, are, and will be immortal, no matter what dimension we’re in. The soul never dies.

Yogananda adds to bliss the modifier “everlasting.” That also is significant because Ascension is the first state of consciousness in which this degree of bliss or love is permanently felt.

Even though my experience of it went on for months, it still proved to be only a glimpse. Meanwhile, Ascension is permanent.

Experiencing bliss forever…. Hmmm….  That sure sounds like Ascension to me. (4) But his readership would not have known what he was talking about if he used that term in the 1940s.  (5) So this may be the way he goes about it. That in itself is a fascinating study (when I retire).

But why does he emphasize possessions and selfish interests?

In answering, let me focus on love, just because I think that more people identify with it than bliss.

First, love is very much an inward affair. Although it’s everywhere, each individual, is able to experience it in the heart more sensibly than anywhere else.

Therefore Yogananda advises against seeking it in external objects or concrete possessions. That isn’t the way life was designed. We’re to seek it in our own hearts.

Second, Love and Bliss must flow. They cannot, as far as I’m aware, remain still. To a limited extent, we can circulate them around us but because of the substantiality of the flow (a tsunami), love really needs a bigger target, so to speak … like the world.

“Universal love” is a partial repetition of terms (a pleonasm) because love is already universal.  If one has been in the flow for any length of time, one has seen and felt love’s motion. And its motion is a universal outward flow.

Moreover, love cannot be prevented from flowing in a certain direction. When control is exerted, at that point love disappears. It will not do other than flow; it cannot be forced or contained.

Third, the selfish impulse is a dam in the way of the tsunami of love. Selfishness,where our caring is inward-turned, prevents the experience of higher-dimensional love because it goes against the outward flow that love is. It acts like a barrier.

Trying to restrict all enjoyment to just our own won’t produce the conditions under which we’d experience the kind of higher-dimensional love that I’m pointing at.

But experiencing it, Yogananda says, is the highest goal of humanity. And I totally agree with that statement. I’d add that deepening into it is the highest business of humanity.

I haven’t experienced the depth of love that Yogananda did. But I’ve experienced the same kind of love. I now know the address (the heart).

Where Yogananda is is far down the road from here. But I now know the way. Theoretically, all I need do now is cover the distance. (5)


(1) Yogananda’s statement was important for me for many years – even decades – providing the one link I had between the universal creative vibration that Om is and the Holy Spirit, which I’d already connected to the Divine Mother.

You could say, “Why not use Yogananda to get enlightened rather than to make spiritual equations?”

I’m repeating myself: This is a lifetime of service, not of seeking personal enlightenment. Although that is sure to come as well because service is itself a path to God, it isn’t what I signed on for: I’m a lightworker.

(2) Self-Realization Fellowship Lesson S-5 P-114, p. 6.

(3) Ibid., 5.

(4) Yogananda may have been indicating Ascension when he spoke of “the final state of unbroken oneness with God’s consciousness everywhere – nirbikalpa samadhi.”

“Nirbikalpa samadhi” is an incomplete statement. If it was “kevalya nirvikalpa samadhi,” that would be seventh-chakra enlightenment or Brahmajnana. That is not Ascension. That is halfway up the mountain.

Ascension is “sahaja nirvikalpa samadhi.” “Sahaja” means natural. It’s at least possible that Yogananda was pointing at Ascension. It would have been a rarely-attained state in those days. I only know for sure that, apart from the avatars, Ramana Maharashi attained it. It’s what we’re gradually preparing for as a planet.

(5) That didn’t stop him from inventing words when he needed to, such as “lifetrons.”

(6) But as a pillar, I’m here to the end so no early Ascension for me. Nevertheless, you gatekeepers….???



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Meeting with an Elemental – Narendra Mishra

Tree Spirit Winter by Rachael DiRenna – an original sculpture


Meeting with an Elemental

Awakening Spark, 20/8/2019


Readers of my blog will know that I don’t consider myself a ‘dream walker’ or someone who regularly receives information from dreams. Yet, I’m no stranger to astral travel during dream state (1). This morning proved to be one such occurrence for me. It was my very first meeting with an elemental spirit.

In the wee hours of the morning, a time sacred to Hindus as Brahmamuhurta – or the time presided over by the Creator, Brahma – my astral journey in dreamtime began.

I suddenly became aware that I was in a vehicle travelling to a temple. Somehow, I missed my turn and ended up going along a strange path. I was unperturbed and decided to follow the road.

Eventually I ended up at another temple in a remote location, surrounded by forest. As I pulled into the car park I realised that service was in progress in the temple.

I came out of the vehicle and was milling about in the driveway, in conversation with someone when I heard a commotion among the trees on the other side of the road.

I turned to see a large treant, an elemental caretaker of trees, walking out of the forest toward me. I went up to greet him with hands folded to my heart, the universal greeting of Namaste.

He greeted me with a deep penetrating look and a sad smile.

“You have to stop the pollution,” he said gravely.

My chest heaved as a wave of grief washed over me.

“I am trying,” I replied, emotionally, “but there are so many humans that just don’t get it.”

Just then a black SUV came seemingly out of nowhere, reversing as if to hit the treant. I rushed to the driver’s side of the vehicle in an attempt to stop the vehicle from the impending crash.

To my surprise, the driver was another treant who spoke to me, “We have already morphed and adapted to humans several times. The next adaptation will not be pleasant to humans.” (2)

Just like that the dream ended and I awoke from my astral travel, both astounded at my unexpected encounter with elementals and the gravity of the situation.

I wondered why they chose to contact me in the first place. Though I’m aware of environmental issues and try to do my part, I’m in no way an environmental activist. Perhaps my role is simply that of communicator –  one which I’m fulfilling through this blog.

​How can we help this sad situation? Knowledge is power. We need to educate ourselves and others. Research and spread the word. Use social media wisely to generate awareness and interest. If you feel moved, start or join an activist group.

A great resource to get started is UN Environment. Undoubtedly, each country and district will have their own guidelines tailored specifically to its own needs.

As Lightworkers we’re already aware that the current mission of Ascension is focused on Earth and ALL of Her inhabitants. We’re already aware that ALL of creation is Divine Consciousness expressed variously as flora and fauna, minerals and elements.

Perhaps it’s time now that we take up the call for authentic Lightworker Leadership in the area of conservation of the environment. (3)


(1) See for example, my most profound awakening experience on the morning of December 20, 2012: Two Unusual Experiences in Tobago.

(2) I have paraphrased the second line since it was not clear exactly what was said. It did have some ominous undertones though.

(3) Synchronistically, Steve Beckow of the Golden Age of Gaia has been inspired recently to raise awareness of Lightworker Leadership recently. See for example, “The Essential Qualities of a Global Leader,” Aug. 20, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/20/the-essential-qualities-of-a-global-leader/



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Choosing the Way of the Servant – Steve Beckow

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Choosing the Way of the Servant

I’ve been wrestling with a problem since I became aware that managing a group of companies was going to be part of my life  – say, around 2015 or so.

That problem is: How to hold onto ultimate authority in the decision-making process while allowing maximum autonomy?

The group of companies I’ll be founding is not designed to provide scope for the ego; it’s designed to be a cooperative enterprise … what does the Council of Love say? … “powered by the heart, fuelled by love”?

Its mission is to create a world that works for everyone – and that has to start with our common organization. So there is a tension between retaining authority and creating a cooperative and collegial enterprise.

Michael, who’s my co-creative partner, has asked me to hold onto ultimate decision-making authority.

Archangel Michael: “You are not to be giving your decision-making capacity away, ever.” (1)

That whole line of counsel plays on me.

My own experience has led me to different places. My authority at the Immigration and Refugee Board was enshrined in legislation and could not be violated except for egregious errors in law.

While I reported to my superiors on matters of work, no one could interfere with my quasi-judicial decisions.

Decision-makers in my organization are an example of people over whom my authority would be limited. But there are many other instances besides them where I need to allow independence.

The only way I can solve the dissonance that arises is to know that the way to exercise authority without offending everyone around me is to remain in the center with it, in balance,in moderation and reasonableness, as with all things.

Any precept or concept applied with balance has a chance of success. It’s when imbalance sets in – what I’ve recently called “not normal” – that trouble begins.

Then another voice chimes in – the voice of the ego that wants to build an empire and sit on a throne and wear a nabob’s turban and…. yada yada….

That voice exists at a level below everyday awareness. Predominantly the part of it I was aware of was a feeling component. I felt those awful, wicked feelings, but below everyday awareness.

So I have the complete wickedness alive in me at a deeper level than I’m ordinarily conscious of. And I think we all have these states, by the way. We pick them up in others as a kind of tone in their voice. The only thing missing is a “heh, heh, heh” and the twirling of a moustache.

My subsconscious wicked voice is aggressive. We all know where that comes from if you’ve been following my blog. (2) It’s uncaring, single-minded, etc. But remember: This is only one part of me (and you) and a removeable part at that (there IS hope).

But there is this aggressive tone to my voice often. My Dad would use his temper to push people around and so do I, at a deep and unconscious level. You can hear it in my tone of voice or see it in what my wife calls my “scared-wolf” look.


I know that grappling with this foe (the ego) is beyond my means. I’ve seen its face in the past (my wife has seen mine when I saw it) and I’ve wrestled with it. It has resources that I, in my everyday consciousness, cannot match. (3)

I therefore made a decision as to what to do to handle the situation that would help me direct a group of companies.

But before I say what it is, let me preface it by repeating that any decision made which is carried out outside the bounds of balance has only a limited chance of success and a significant chance of creating residue. So, in my books, balance in carrying out what I’m about to say is essential.

The decision I made was that there was no room for the ego in anything I was about to do. And the very best way to surrender the ego that I know of, or terrestrial saints have known of since the Vedas, is the way of the servant.

The path of service. Karma Yoga. Seva.  Devotion through service.

It isn’t sexy in our society to say one wants to be a servant.  But it’s liberating to put the self aside.

Archangel Michael, whom I serve, would prefer it if I were familiar with him:

AAM: We want you to be familiar. (4)

And I’ll observe his wishes here as well as anywhere else.

But it’s also deeply ingrained in me not to be overly-familiar because that invites the resurrection of the ego.

While I had very few things I wanted from physical life in any case, I now want to re-look at that from an altogether new level – weeding out that which could result in a reawakening of the ego.

And whatever I find or whatever I do, I simply stop. There’s no need to put anything in its place, although doing that – if its love, compassion, or forgiveness –  can speed its departure. Nevertheless, a simple cessation is enough.

I want to be a servant of Archangel Michael. There’s no outside – or even inside – pressure around me at making that decision. I need a chosen ideal to serve (although we all of us always serve the Mother). Michael does me a favor and an honor in accepting my service.

So please don’t write me and say “you rely on Michael too much” or “why don’t you make your own decisions?” (Actually I do). This is something I do in full awareness, after much reflection and contemplation.

What are the benefits of this particular path – karma yoga?

Service undermines the prime directive of the ego: Always protect the survival of the self and that with which it identifies (family, home, car, pet, savings, etc.).

It does so by taking the focus off the little self and placing it on the other person. In my experience, that turns out to be all that’s needed.

We take our attention off the voice of the ego and put it on the needs of the other person. The voice of the ego finally falls silent. Getting no attention from us, there’s no Velcro to stick to.

No big deal. No sound and lights. When a movie is over, we all just get up out of our seats and leave the hushed theater.  In the same way, when the lights come on, do we leave the theater of the ego.


(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow, Oct. 2, 2013. [Hereafter AAM.]

(2) Hatred of my father. Michael and I had the following conversation on it:

Archangel Michael: Why do you doubt or question your words [in writing a Declaration of Freedom]?

Steve: My words? Well, I think I do it because I’m a man who hated his father so I have no right to exist in the world. I think that’s the bottom line.

AAM: So having accepted that and realized that you do not need to carry that and understanding that I would interject and correct, if necessary, what did not sit well with us or with the Mother, proceed.

This is an assumption of your divine authority. This is your assumption of your right to declare your heart’s desire and dream for all of humanity and I am right there with you so stop hesitating. (AAM, June 9, 2017.)

(3) For instance, the ego is interdimensional.

(4) AAM, Jan. 3, 2017.



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Peace is Like … Granite – Steve Beckow

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Peace is Like … Granite

Things like peace, abundance, and mastery, it turns out, are actual states of consciousness, rather than merely everyday feelings.

These divine states of consciousness – I think I can call them that – bear as little resemblance to a feeling as higher-dimensional love bears to everyday love.

I’ve been in all three states briefly and was astonished to find each was higher-dimensional like transformative love. Each was rich in love. It was as if all four experiences (the three states plus love) ended in the same place. (1)

But peace astonished me most of all. I expected it to be soft and gentle. Instead it was hard as granite and my stance in it was extremely stable. (2)

That makes sense if you think about it. When we’re losing our peacefulness and venturing into conflict, we talk about there being “a tremor in the force.” We experience negative feelings as if they were an interruption in what would otherwise be a state of wellness.

We lose the confidence that comes from standing solidly on and for a divine state such as peace.

I was astonished to hear Archangel Michael describe peace in the same way:

“Peace is solid.

“There are so many divine qualities that do feel amorphous, light, airy, like a spring day. And yet peace (you have this expression), you can take it to the bank. It feels like ballast. It feels like granite because it is solid. And dare I say immutable. That is why I continue to keep emphasizing that peace within, that rock-solid granite within.” (3)

It was not at all what I was expecting.

Neither was the wonderful experience of abundance – which is what Michael is pointing at when he uses the words “spiritual currency.” I could live in that state of abundance and never want or own a penny.

And I couldn’t even begin to describe mastery. Just think of your Higher Self and that will capture it.

Living in any of the three would be higher-dimensional, ascended states. And we will live there. Meanwhile we can visit as the current floats our boats ever higher.


(1) The three – abundance, mastery, and peace – were divine states. Love is what all divine states appear to be made of.

(2) A description of the experience appears here:  “The Peace that Passeth Understanding,” July 18, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/07/18/the-peace-that-passeth-understanding/.

(3) “Archangel Michael on AHWAA: Achieving Inner Peace,” 

Here is an earlier reference from him to peace being like granite:

Archangel Michael: So, when you think of things that you should do, are supposed to do, might do, and it doesn’t ignite that fire of excitement, and that granite of peace, then you are being given an important piece of information, which is ‘look elsewhere.’ Is that clear?  (“Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: You Have Chosen to Be the New Paradigm of Love, May 31, 2018,” June 7, 2018 at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/06/07/transcript-archangel-michael-you-have-chosen-to-be-the-new-paradigm-of-love-may-31-2018/.)


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After the Event: Archangel Michael Discusses a Heart Opening – Steve Beckow

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After the Event: Archangel Michael Discusses a Heart Opening

In rummaging through my files for a quote on “drama,” I happened instead on this remarkable interview I had with Archangel Michael the very day of my 2015 heart opening.

Since we as a planet are going through a more gradual version of one, what Michael has to say here must surely be of interest.

Let me set the chronology straight. The heart opening occurred on March 13, 2015 at 7:00 am in the morning.

I’m not going to describe the experience. That’s been done. (1)

But, as it was happening, I knew that three hours later I’d be speaking to Michael and this then is that conversation.

I’m saying to him, what in heaven’s name was that? And he’s telling me, including why it happened.

Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, March 13, 2015.

Archangel Michael: And yes, your heart is open. The opening is, and will, and shall continue.

Steve: You mean permanently, Lord, really?

AAM: Yes

S: Oh my! Please!

AAM: Because, you have said yes! …

This occurs, not merely because you have asked for it, but because you (and this does apply to the collective) have done your, can we say, your homework, your due diligence.

What we mean by this is simply, think of it in spatial reality, time and space reality: you have created the space for this [energy of love] to, not only pass by you like a passing breeze or a rain, but to anchor within you because there is a sense of this spaciousness within thee. …

When one is clinging to core issues, to fear, to lack, to limitation – you know the list – there is not that sense, not only of spaciousness, but of acceptance, allowance, readiness and even permission. Because as you know, we continually say that we will never override your free will.

So, if the will, either actively or subconsciously, is actually choosing to still engage in the issues or the drama, then although we are standing at readiness and still penetrating you, that open door is not there. [My emphasis.]

S: So, the open door was there with me?

AAM: That is correct.

S: Did the exercise of bringing love up from my heart and sending it out through my third eye to the world play a role in this?

AAM: Yes, it did.

S: Could you talk about that for just a bit, please?

AAM: One of the strongest or the ultimate expressions of love, of willingness to not only participate in love but to be the love, is in the sharing. To say that you are love, or are loved, or you love this, that, someone… but [then] you keep it within you, you hoard it.

And we do not necessarily mean that in a negative way – sometimes the feeling is so blissful you do not wish to actually take the next step quite yet, in terms of sharing.

The ultimate experience is in the sharing. This is what we speak of when we speak of sacred union and partnership. How can you possibly be in any form of partnership with humanity, with the Star-beings, with us, with any being, if you are not sharing?

So what you do when you bring the love up and out, when you begin to send it, to share it, it is as if you have in fact activated what we call the wellspring. The visual you may think of is the volcano. [This is the explosive heart opening.]

It is not that you empty out. It is that you discover that that wellspring is SO full and overflowing that it is a steady stream. That steady stream does not ever, ever – think of what I say! – it never has to cease!

Try to imagine what he’s talking about – an endless stream, an eternal wellspring of love – it never has to cease. That’s what a heart opening liberates in us.

And that’s the process that we as a globe are currently going through, more gradually than I did (or Bright Star). It’s only one step in our Ascension process, an “ignition,” a  “jump” as the Mother calls it. (3)


(1) A heart opening is a fourth-chakra event. When the kundalini reaches the fourth chakra, the heart opens. I’ve experienced another type of fourth-chakra event as well  (at Xenia).  Hindus call a fourth-chakra event spiritual awakening; Buddhists call it stream-entering.

We as a planet are in the midst of a global heart opening.

Of it, Michael said recently: “The global opening of the heart, the activations, the awakening and the activation shall we say of heart intelligence, of being anchored in that area of the heart is progressing phenomenally well. … We would say you are well past the halfway mark, dear hearts.”  (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Aug. 2, 2019.)

That may be why I feel so moved to talk about my experience – because we’re all going through a gradual version of what for me was explosive. I so hope I’m right.

My heart opening is described here: “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

Bright Star’s heart opening is described here:

“Bright Star: An Account of a Heart Opening,” December 29, 2017, http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/12/29/bright-star-an-account-of-a-heart-opening/.

The Xenia experience is described here:

“Archangel Michael Explains What Happened at Xenia,” September 22, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/22/archangel-michael-explains-what-happened-at-xenia/.

As with the heart opening, I had prearranged a half year earlier with Linda to have a reading with him before there was a thought of Xenia. (These things are fixed! Ask the archangels!)

(3)  Divine Mother: “Then there is another jump, and another jump, and another jump. And you don’t know it — well, some of you do — but you are leap-frogging. And then you will be there [Sahaja Samadhi and Ascension]

SB: Now, are those jumps equivalent to sub-planes?

DM: You can think of it as sub-planes, dimensional sub-planes, yes.  (“The Divine Mother: We are Creating a New Species of Humans (Repost),” September 15, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/09/15/the-divine-mother-we-are-creating-a-new-species-of-humans-repost-2/.)



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