Judging and Fearing Being Judged – Steve Beckow

Guan Yin Statue


Judging and Fearing Being Judged

Never mind forgiving Illuminati and deep-state militarists. I’m having trouble forgiving myself.

I watched myself the other day judging one person after another for things like being overweight, poorly dressed, unsmiling, etc. (I’m making it up; I actually don’t remember my judgments.)

And I can’t say I was feeling grumpy. This was just ordinary me.

And then I watched myself shrinking from real change out of fear of being, myself, judged by others. (As within, so without.)

It’s insidious.

I feared judgment because I’ve taken to reading Gandhi for inspiration on how to be inclusive and love universally.

I feared that the mere act of reading or repeating Gandhi invited the charge of me being a hypocrite because I don’t live my life as Gandhi did.

Well, no, I don’t live my life as Gandhi did. Not to the slightest extent. Even as I’m reading Gandhi, I’m judging this person and that.

And yes, my actions don’t fit my words. Not by any stretch of the imagination. And it’ll probably be some time before they do. My habits still spring forward and they, to a greater or lesser extent, are often aggressive and egoistic.

My usual practice would be to abandon the reading out of shame and fear.

If I stop myself from making significant changes in my personality out of fear of being judged, how can I blame others who might do the same?

And how would I reform those elements of my character which can’t go forward with me into the New Age if I’m too scared to make the attempt?

If I abandon character reform, how much more must an Illuminati or militarist fear reforming?

Where is the fulcrum that will allow me the leverage I need to reform myself.

When I inquire into that, I see the Mother as the fulcrum of support and validation.

Right now I’m turning to people and other people around me may be as prone to judge and fear being judged as I am. We may all of us be in the same quandary.

The only one I know I can rely on to not be judgmental is the Mother (and the Company of Heaven, of course).

Jack Nicholson is quoted a saying, what makes you think I give a damn about what you think of me? Well, that’s going a bit far.

But if I’m going to tackle character reformation in a deep enough fashion to equip me to break out of judgement and the fear of being judged, I’ll have to let go of my fear of what others think of me.

And for that I need an unimpeachable ally … and the Mother is that for me.

The minute I say that, up comes a fear of being judged for turning to the Mother. The fear never ends.

Nonetheless so much depends on me breaking through to universal love – in the absence of a permanently-open heart – that I must persevere.

I invoke the Divine Mother and the Laws of Intent, Sacred Purpose, and Grace to show me the way through judgment and fearing being judged and the courage to take that path.



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Which “Transcendental” are We Referring to? – Steve Beckow

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Which “Transcendental” are We Referring to?

Let me make a brief note here about the difficulties that that presents.

I studied life after “death” in the composition of the database, New Maps of Heaven. At the time, I thought of myself as an “afterlife cartographer.”

I gave an interview to Michael Tims in which I expressed my frustration that there was really no agreement among people on what names to call the various “planes” or experiences:

“Different spirit communicators use words like the ‘borderlands,’ ‘Hades,’ ‘purgatory,’ ‘Kamaloka,’ the ‘misty region,’ or the ‘grey world’ for what we can only hope is the same region. …

“Some say ‘the Christ sphere’ and others ‘the God plane,’ but are they identical? Do they signify plane or subplane? Spirit researchers usually do not specify. Establishing residency and equating descriptions takes pain-staking research. (There must be a better way.)” (1)

Nowhere was this more confusing than in the discussion of the Transcendental.  To look at that, let’s now change our focus from afterlife commentators to classical enlightenment sages and scholars.

If we keep in mind that the seven-chakra system is strictly a feature of Third/Fourth Dimensionality, here’s Swami Prabhavananda calling a sixth-chakra experience (or savikalpa samadhi) a transcendental one:

“[Savikalpa samadhi is] the first stage of transcendental consciousness, in which the distinction between subject and object persists. In this state the spiritual aspirant may have a mystic vision of the Personal God, with or without form.” (2)

By “transcendental” here, he probably means “formless” and “beyond conscious knowing.”

Here’s Brahmacharini Usha defining a seventh-chakra experience (also called Brahmajnana or nirvikalpa samadhi) as “the supreme transcendental state of consciousness.”

“Nirvikalpa samadhi. The supreme transcendental state of consciousness in which the spiritual aspirant becomes completely absorbed in Brahman [i.e., the Father] so that all sense of duality is obliterated.” (3)

It’s in no way supreme. It’s not even outside our present Third-Dimensional reality.

Only a later experience of sahaja samadhi is beyond the seven-chakra system. It lifts us out of this dimension and into Fifth. But even the Fifth Dimension is far removed from the Transcendental, which is beyond the Twelfth.

Now let’s leave afterlife commentators and classical scholars and turn to our own sources in the Company of Heaven.

After my heart opening in 2015, which was a fourth-chakra experience, I had lengthy tastes of higher-dimensional love and bliss and brief experiences of ecstacy and exaltation. I asked Archangel Michael what dimensions these were associated with:

Steve: The space that I call transformative love, what dimension is it?

Archangel Michael: It is the Seventh Dimension.

Steve: Then what dimension is bliss?

AAM: It is between Eighth and Ninth.

Steve: And ecstasy?

AAM: Twelfth.

Steve: And what about exaltation?

AAM: Then you have moved beyond.

Steve: What is beyond? How many dimensions are there Lord?

AAM: Twelve. (4)

Well, of course, what lies beyond the Twelfth Dimension is … you guessed it … the Transcendental, in which most lightworkers, being angels, have their beings anchored, whether or not they also enjoy spending time on a planet in various of the dimensional environments.

While classical sages describe an enlightenment experience that is still within Third Dimensionality as “transcendental,” Michael reserves the term for experiences that are altogether beyond the dimensional ladder.

Entirely-different meanings are being given to things and events by afterlife commentators, classical sages, and the Company of Heaven.

This reveals the crying need for standardization in ways of referring to both the dimensions themselves and our experiences of them. If we’re to have a truly cross-cultural spirituality, the first task at hand is to standardize our use of terms.

After the Reval, I plan to fund research to standardize our spiritual language (just as Shakespeare was subsidized to standardize English). (5)

If we’re to be able to compare descriptions of dimensions and experiences in our Nova-Earth spirituality, the first thing we’ll need is standard terms that allow us to understand what our informants are talking about.


(1) “New Maps of Heaven,” Oct. 2, 2011, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/10/02/new-maps-of-heaven/.  Originally published in The Searchlight, a publication for the Academy of Spirituality and Paranormal Studies.

Among the names given to the Fifth Dimension by residents of the afterlife worlds are Heaven, the Celestial Plane, the Creative Sphere, the Devachan, the Fourth Plane, Eidos, and the Plane of Color.

(2) Swami Prabhavananda, The Eternal Companion. Brahmananda. Hollywood: Vedanta Press, 1970; c1944, 299.

(3) Brahmacharini Usha, A Ramakrishna-Vedanta Wordbook. Hollywood: Vedanta Press, 1971; c1962, 52.

(4) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 20, 2016.

(5) Shakespeare: “It was part of my work – and I must say that I was encouraged a bit by patronage – to standardize spelling and grammar. That’s why you can recognize it now. … Almost every civilized country has had to ‘appoint’ someone to do this particular piece of work.

“After all, in the fifteenth, sixteenth, and seventeenth centuries, language was in a state of chaos…. Had it not been for people such as me in English letters, it would be very difficult for an English-speaking scientist to write a technical paper about a scientific event. …

“It was thought best to do my work in a theatrical form  -so it would help standarize the pronunciation. Now, this was not an effort that I was alone in – there were many people working on it.” (“Shakespeare Returns” in Robert R. Leichtman, M.D, From Heaven to Earth: The Dynamics of Creativity. Atlanta, GA: Ariel Press, 1998; c1978, 19.)



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Seeking Love Internally – Steve Beckow

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The Art of Love by Amanda Cass


Seeking Love Internally

(1) I lived, off and on, in a state of transformative love from March 13, 2015 until Sept. 28, 2015.

(2) As a result, I do know what transformative love is.

(3) Nonetheless, like all spiritual experiences short of Ascension, that space gradually disappeared. Consequently I no longer live in that state and haven’t for a few years now. I can access wisps of it when I breathe it up from my heart but nowhere near the intensity of it in 2015. That does not mean however that I’ve forgotten what transformative love is.

One of the chief mistakes we make is that we seek love externally, chiefly, from another person, when the heart is the chief source of it for us.

Archangel Michael tells us that love exists everywhere, but its chief place to be found is within our own hearts.

“The love that you think anchors in your heart … in fact anchors in your entire being, but the heart is a good place to think of it.” (1)

He asks us to:

“Stop seeking [love] externally. It is interesting, is it not, that so often we witness you human beings seeking love externally, when in fact all the love [you need] is within thee.” (2)

Archangel Uriel calls it “an illusion – a nightmare in many ways – seeking home, seeking fulfilment, when in fact it was all there, present within you.”  (3)

I agree. It’s a nightmare to seek love and never find it because we looked for it where it largely was not: outside ourselves.

The Arcturian Group counsels us along the same lines:

“You seek desperately without for what can only be found within – Love – and there you will find It in abundance. Within there is no shortage or scarcity, there is only and always abundance.” (4)

When my heart opened explosively in 2015, the kundalini having reached the fourth chakra, I was astounded to find myself in an inner tsunami of love, which flowed endlessly and copiously. It never stopped, as if I had tapped into an endless artesian well.

Eckhart Tolle tells a story to get the message across:

“A beggar had been sitting by the side of a road for over thirty years. One day a stranger walked by. ‘Spare some change?’ mumbled the beggar, mechanically holding out his old baseball cap.

“’I have nothing to give you,’ said the stranger. Then he asked: ‘What’s that you are sitting on?’

“’Nothing,’ replied the beggar. ‘Just an old box. I have been sitting on it for as long as I can remember.’

“’Ever looked inside?’ asked the stranger.

“’No,’ said the beggar. ‘What’s the point? There’s nothing in there.’

“’Have a look inside,’ insisted the stranger.

“The beggar managed to pry open the lid. With astonishment, disbelief, and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.” (3)

The love that lies inside is the gold in that box.

The treasure buried in a field is the love that lies unknown in the field of our hearts. The pearl of great price, the Self, the Christ, which is the source of our love, is also to be found in the depths of our hearts.

And, when the energies rise such that the kundalini reaches the fourth chakra, we’ll all find, know, and enjoy that treasure – for a time.

When they rise such that we leave the Third-Dimensional chakra system altogether and ascend to the Fifth, we’ll all live immersed in that love forever.


(1) “Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: Understand the Divine Gift of Will, AHWAA, September 22, 2016,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/09/30/transcript-archangel-michael-understand-divine-gift-will-ahwaa-september-22-2016/.

Matthew Ward once made the same point but I no longer have that quote.

(2) Archangel Michael via Linda Dillon, “I am Protecting You – Archangel Michael Channeling,” Oct. 16, 2017, at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxCMC9_smW0&index=7&list=PLKhdbUBLU4tvhROQ7HqKPlsYcEHK9nP7Z.

(3) “Transcript ~ Archangel Uriel On Divine Authority, May 16, 2017,” via Linda Dillon, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/05/21/transcript-archangel-uriel-on-divine-authority-heavenly-blessings-may-16-2017/

(4) The Arcturian Group, Sept. 11, 2016, at http://www.onenessofall.com.

(5) Eckhart Tolle,The Power of Now. Downloaded from http://www.inner-growth.info/power_of_now_tolle/eckhart_tolle_chapter1.htm.


The Art of Love by Amanda Cass

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The Divine Mother: All of It is my Love – Steve Beckow


The Divine Mother: All of It is My Love

In 2015, I asked the Divine Mother on An Hour with an Angel to explain how love could be everything – building block, glue, and solvent.

Her reply merits reposting in its entirety.

“Transcript of the Divine Mother: Density is Unloving Emotion; Love is Lightness of Being,” March 6, 2015

Steve Beckow: You said that everything is created from love, that love is the only essence, substance, fiber there is. So love is the building blocks of the universe. But others, like SaLuSa and the Arcturian Group, have also called it the glue of the Universe, and others say love is the solvent – love dissolves various things and plunges them back into voidness.

We here have a great deal of difficulty in thinking of something doing such seemingly different functions. How can love both build, preserve and dissolve? What is it about love that allows it to do so?

Divine Mother: It is a multipurpose tool. It is a multipurpose energy that can be whatever is required. So there are times when it is the dissolver. There are times when it is the building block. There are times when it is the glue.

There are so many expressions, or what you would think of as elements, of the love, the joy, the sweetness, the nurturing. All of the divine qualities – hope, purity, chastity, charity – all of this is unified in the love.

And you say, “Well wait a minute. What is love? Is it the joy? Is it the nurturing? Is it the creation?” Now, each civilization – and I mean upon Gaia and far beyond; you have mentioned the Arcturians for example. Do I stop and correct them? Of course not! Does this matter? Is this a critical element? Not as long as they are using and being the love.

But let us be very basic. My essence is love. The Father and I are conjoined as One, [in] our love. And it is from this union that all is born. This is part of what Sanat Kumara has been teaching you:  The transmutation of that essence, of my being, can be a building block, can be a glue, can be a skin, can be a heart, can be a limb, can be a building, can be whatever is required. And what I do – and this is the heart of the discussion that we have this day – I give you again and again and again and again my essence. I am part of you. Inseparable.

My essence is love.

Now, in many cultures and civilizations, they call that love by many names. That does not matter because the knowing, the feeling, the experience, the energy does not change. I am a part of thee, each and every one of you – and this has been reinforced by my Tsunami of Love.

But, beloveds, you are also a part of me, of us, of One. And that is the piece that oftentimes is forgotten. And that is why I say there is no separation.

So think of it in this way – if you are an energy healer, a healer of the Violet Flame, one of St. Germaine’s best friends, you send the love from your heart, from your hands, and you flood the person with healing energy, and it is a flow of color and richness, seen and unseen.

And what would St. Germaine say to you? You are sending the love – his expression, Archangel Raphael’s expression, Lao Tzu’s expression, Sanat Kumara’s expression. So you would have variations of that healing energy. But if you scratch the surface, it is the wondrous expressions of love.

Now, if you are a wordsmith, then your tool and what you choose to create are words, sentences, paragraphs, and space between the letters and words. And it is brilliant, and it is challenging, and it is insightful.

But what is it? It is a transmission of love. Whether it is from Gabrielle or Michael, it is love. It is the substance. It is the form. It is the energy. And it is the message. So which part of it is the love? I suggest to you, all of it.

If you are a bricklayer, and you are building a home for your beloved family, is it the brick or the stone, the mortar or the foundation that is the love? Or is it the energy that the bricklayer puts into them? It is all of the above.

So the answer to your question – and I am pleased to address this – is that all of it is my love. And I can take a billion forms, and I have just begun. So do not take your time, my sweet beloveds, trying to count the number of angels on the head of a pin, because they are all expressions of love just like you.

Does this make sense to thee?



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Up and Down Jacob’s Ladder – Steve Beckow

Jacob’s Dream art print by Svitozar Nenyuk @ Fine Art America


Up and Down Jacob’s Ladder

I’d like to continue the discussion of dimensionality, looking particular at the idea of descent rather than ascent.

Terrestrial sages did not discuss it. Michael once said:

“Now [in olden times] that sense of bringing others along wasn’t defined by dimensions. It was more a teacher/student, sage/novitiate relationship. So the framework was very different.” (1)

When Jacob dreamt his dream of angels on a ladder that went to heaven, he saw them descending as well as ascending.

There are many examples of such a descent.

An avatar such as Sri Ramakrishna or Lord Krishna is a descent of the Divine into matter.

Lightworkers are for the most part angels and we’ve descended from our native dimensions (or in some cases from beyond the twelve dimensions, in the Transcendental, for those who may not have been living in the dimensional universe) to participate in Gaia’s Ascension.

St. Germaine, whom Michael told me ascended not after his lifetime as Sir Francis Bacon as is popularly assumed, but in Atlantis, (2) descended into matter and lived for hundreds of years before leaving this dimension and returning to his own.

Ashtar once said to me that he would descend from his place, which was beyond the Twelfth Dimension, as far as the Fifth to communicate with us and no lower:

Ashtar: What we have done is we have brought our vibrations to the fifth dimension in order to be at a place where we can meet you. If you are to think of the human realm and what is available currently to you, if you were looking for me, I would be out of the realm of human experience. So, let us make that clear as well.

Steve Beckow: That means above the twelfth dimension, is that correct?

A: That is correct. (3)

So a descent down Jacob’s Ladder of consciousness doesn’t necessarily mean a devolution of consciousness. It could be – as in the case of lightworkers – an act of service to others.

Now I’d like to focus on Oneness and the descent into the lower dimensions.

At this dense dimension of physicality into which we lightworkrs have descended, we remain One and yet are different. It’s not an easy topic to discuss until we introduce the notion of dimensions into the equation.

We are One at our essence. Our essence eternally exists at a level beyond the dimensions, beyond matter (mater, Mother), beyond the power of words to discuss.

Sri Ramakrisha described, through his metaphor of the salt doll wanting to measure the ocean, the difficulty of talking about things at that level of existence.

“The nature of Brahman [God, the Infinite] cannot be described. About it one remains silent. Who can explain the Infinite in words? … Once a salt doll went to the ocean to measure its depth. But it could not come back to give a report.” (4)

“No sooner did it get into the water than it melted. Now who was there to report the ocean’s depth?” (5)

In a second metaphor, he compared the situation to a man who scales a wall and sees a wondrous sight:

“Once four friends, in the course of a walk, saw a place enclosed by a wall. The wall was very high. They all became eager to know what was inside. One of them climbed to the top of the wall. What he saw on looking inside made him speechless with wonder.

“He only cried, ‘Ah! Ah!’ and dropped in. He could not give any information on what he saw. The others, too, climbed the wall, uttered the same cry, ‘Ah! Ah!,’ and jumped in. Now who could tell what was inside?” (6)

Similarly if we merge again with the Father, as the small golden star in my 1987 vision did with the large Golden Sun, (6) who is left to report on the experience? The golden star is gone.

As we descend into matter, not only does our consciousness vibrate at lower and lower rates, but we don a different body with each level to allow us to act and interact with others.

On the Third Dimension we don what we think of as a “physical” body. Hindus call it annamayakosha – the food body.

But when we leave the Earth plane after “death,” we first find ourselves in an etheric body and then in an astral or Fourth-Dimensional body.

We leave this at some point for a mental or Fifth-Dimensional body (i.e., ascend) and continue on up Jacob’s Ladder, eventually reaching formless dimensions.

One could say that the differences among us at the lower-dimensional levels are quite obvious but that they get less and less obvious as we mount Jacob’s ladder.

Thus our differences become more and more pronounced as we descend into density or dimensionality and less and less pronounced as we ascend. While it’s hard to see how we are One at a Third/Fourth-Dimensional level of density, it would be plain as day at the highest levels.


(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Feb. 17, 2017.

(2) Steve Beckow: When did St. Germaine ascend?

Archangel Michael: You mean WHICH time?

SB: The first time.

AAM: He ascended during the time of Atlantis.

SB: So, it’s not true to say that Francis Bacon was his time of Ascension.

AAM: No, he came back, did it again and came back and did it again. This one is QUITE the revolving door. That is why he says he is NEVER coming back. But we know differently! (Archangel Michael in a personal reading, ibid., Jan. 23, 2015.)

(3) “An Introduction to Enlightenment and the Trinity – Part 2/2,” May 14, 2012, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2012/05/14/an-introduction-to-enlightenment-and-the-trinity-part-22/.

(4) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 218. Sri Ramakrishna was speaking only of Brahmajnana or seventh-chakra enlightenment but the same situation applies to complete merger with the One.

(5) Ibid., 102-3.

(6) Ibid., 268.

(7) See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/



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A Time will Come – Steve Beckow

Sri Ramanuja - male hindu deity

Sri Ramanuja


A Time will Come

I’ve been working with Michael on a matter that involved drawing the love up from my heart and sending it out to the world. I’d neglected this practice in recent times.

After months of dryness, I was again feeling higher-dimensional, transformative, real love.

No sooner was I doing so than I again feel impelled to sing its praises. There’s nothing like transformative love in Third Dimensionality. There are no words for it.

The Hindu sage Ramanuja must have been feeling it when he risked hellfire to help others experience and realize it.

The story goes that his guru had told him that if he shared the mantra he’d given him with anyone else, he’d go to hell.

Ramanuja used the mantra to achieve Self-realization and, when he had, he mounted the steps of the temple and sang his mantra out to all and sundry.

Aside from seeing through his guru’s injunction, I think Ramanuja was under the spell of this higher form of love.

I say that because, at this moment, I’m under its spell as well.

All concerns melt away. All is well in my world. Where before I felt stress, all is now sublime.  My only desire, like Ramanuja’s, is to share what I feel with all and sundry.

One cannot say, “Make your love universal.” Show me real love that isn’t universal. Show me real love that doesn’t flow out from the heart to everyone, without exception.

Try to make it exclusive and it disappears.

Increase its flow and it becomes bliss. One loses track of everything else but it. I lose all desire to do anything else than simply sit here enjoying it. Not good for one who needs to work! Even less so for one who wants to participate in building a new world.  I lose myself in bliss and get no further!

If I were to increase the volume and frequency, as I did in late 2015, I’d be in ecstacy; further and I’d be in exaltation. (1) But I’d no longer be writing for you. I’d be gone.

So, back to Earth and back to work. A time will come to enjoy these sublime states of being. For now I’m given little snacks to sustain and inspire me.

Be a glutton and I’ll remove myself from the game.  And that is not the plan.


(1) I discussed the dimensionality of these experiences in 2016 with AAM:

Steve: The space that I call transformative love, what dimension is it?

Archangel Michael: It is the seventh dimension.

Steve: Then what dimension is bliss?

AAM: It is between eight and nine.

Steve: And ecstasy?

AAM: Twelfth.

Steve: And what about exaltation?

AAM: Then you have moved beyond.

Steve: What is beyond? How many dimensions are there, Lord?

AAM: Twelve. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 20, 2016.)



Sri Ramanuja

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Expanding the Container – Steve Beckow

Male Northern Cardinal in The Apple Blossom Tree by Robert Scott @ Flickr


Expanding the Container

Remaining in the center means abandoning all actions that carry me into any extreme.  Good, bad, right, wrong, liberal, conservative, etc.

Up comes the fear of being merely a bland person.

Nevertheless,in the center, there isn’t one “side” that’s good and one side that’s bad. There are no sides.

There are only people – sentient, communicative individuals, all of them struggling to live lives that matter.

What’s happening for me is that a huge amount of undigested information is coming up for me to assimilate and own.

There are certain aspects of myself which I don’t discuss, just as I suggested to Narendra that he not either – at this time.  But those aspects are operative and coming together, along with all other aspects of us as total human beings – our past lives, lives on other planets, etc.

And so it becomes necessary, while living a normal, everyday life with all of its concerns, to expand the container of what I’m receiving. I talked about this earlier as “getting bigger.”

To the largest extent, that container is our beliefs about what we think is true, existing, and operative.

I have to let go of some beliefs about myself, as may you, if I’m to hold all that is presently felt to be coming into me. Or arising in me. Coming to my attention and awareness.

Or if I’m to discharge my responsibilities later on.

This era is not the same as the Sixties (freedom) or Seventies (growth). This era is about service. The matters I’m discussing here would not have gained much of an ear in the Sixties or Seventies. But in the face of the events that are soon to be upon us, they become acutely important.

If I insist on remaining the psychic size that I am, either things could become uncomfortable or I may miss out on the opportunity before me.

I like the way philosopher William James phrased it, when he was ascending from the Astral Plane (4th Dimension) to the Mental Plane (5th). He talked about his present house becoming too cramped for him and needing to move on.

“I feel myself growing out of myself in a certain fashion. My adopted characteristics are becoming too small and cramped to contain my new growth and development, and I will move on most certainly to larger psychological quarters.

“It is not only the physical body we outlive, but the psychological house we have chosen. First after death we add new rooms and suites to accommodate our greater experience, but it is soon obvious that the entire structure has had its day. We must move out of it completely.” (1)

“I do not know when I will finish this composition, but I will suddenly know that I had added my last comments, written my last words as a tenant of my present psychological manse, and will then move into the larger framework of myself which I feel is being constructed.” (2)

My “adopted characteristics” are also becoming too small and cramped for me. Either we’re in the chrysalis, as Sri  Krishna said to Narendra, (3) or I’m shedding my shell or skin, or I simply have to release any restrictions I have on myself and just get bigger.

Whichever way there is a need to go, I have to grow the container to hold all that is new and paradigm-shifting that is coming our way.


(1) William James, : William James through Jane Roberts, medium, The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher: The World View of William James. Englewood Cliffs, NJ: Prentice-Hall, 1978, 159.

(2) James, ibid., 160.

(3) “If you were a caterpillar, you would be in the cocoon or the chrysalis at the dawn [in other words, cocooning is nearly complete]. But that is ok because that is part of the birthing. This is part as you well know of the cycle. And of course, beloved, it is never going to be about losing our sweet Narendra.” (“Much Lies Ahead: Personal Reading of Narendra Mishra with Sri Krishna and the Divine Mother, May 30, 2019,” 



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Creating Context as Creating Structure, Belongingnesss, & Involvement – Steve Beckow

Blue Eye Wonder Cat ~ Artist A Andrew Gonzalez


Creating Context as Creating Structure, Belongingnesss, and Involvement

I remember how I’d sit around doing precious little as a child until the day arrived when I could join a baseball team.

All of a sudden I had a structured activity that I enjoyed in my life. I had a sense of belonging – I wore a black baseball cap, belonged to Dietrich Collins little league baseball team, and was involved in something exciting.

Once the Reval hits and we’re enabled to begin creating universal basic incomes and medicare plans, without having a context with a deadline, there won’t be any means to structure our work. We’ll be faced with a sense of doing things alone. We may not know what to do or how to do it. And we won’t have the sense of being involved in any great work.

When we create the context of UBIs or medicare, in our own country or around the world, by a certain deadline, we allow ourselves and others to join together and orchestrate our actions.

Think of the difference between John Kennedy saying we shall land a man on the moon some day and we shall land a man on the moon by 1970. I personally don’t feel any power in the first but I feel a distinct arousal by the second.

We’d better get going. What do we need to do first? What follows that, to have the whole thing accomplished by the end of the decade?

I’m hesitant to say this, but creating a context is something like creating a game. No, I don’t mean that homelessness or hunger is a game. But the work of ending homelessness and hunger by a certain date has some of the same features of a game.

I think of a game as an activity played by one or more teams which has an endpoint seen to be more desirable than its starting point.

So the endpoint of an end to homelessness is seen to be more desirable than the starting point of homelessness. The foundation of a system of universal medicare is seen to be more desirable than the lack of such a system.

When we create a context with a deadline, we create a game for people to play.

Not everyone may want to play the game of creating universal medicare and so we create more games such as an end to infectious diseases on the planet or free tuition for all, by a certain date.

By people aligning on the end of a condition of global unworkability by a definite date, we create an endpoint to aim for and a structure that invites belongingness and involvement.

At that point, the aimlessness we may feel after the Reval may transform into a sense of dedication and purpose which is tangible and realizable.



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I am Responsible for the State of My world – Steve Beckow

Heart of Infinity ~ Artist Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America


I am Responsible for the State of My World

When I took the est Training in 1979, one of the statements that was made in it stayed with me from then till now. It was Werner Erhard’s declaration on responsibility:

“Responsibility begins with the willingness to take the stand that one is cause in the matter of one’s life. It is a declaration not an assertion; that is, it is a context from which one chooses to live.

“Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is simply what’s so, and the stand you choose to take on what’s so.” (From The est Standard Trainingpublished in Biosciences Communication, 1977 at https://wernererhardquotes.wordpress.com/tag/responsibility/.

The being that we are operates at various levels of frequency. One of the denser levels we call “the mind.” The higher frequencies we call “the Self.” And there are numerous frequencies in between. (1)

When I operate from the mind and make the statement, “I am responsible for the state of the world,” we hear it as “I’m at fault. I’m to blame.”

When I operate from the Self, I hear it as “This is my world and I take responsibility for the shape it’s in.”

Werner asserts that “responsibility begins with the willingness to take the stand that one is cause in the matter of one’s life.” To locate the cause as outside oneself – except in certain circumstances – can often be what we know as taking a victim stance.

I am the victim of my Father’s harshness is an example. Perhaps I was. But even in that circumstance, to hold events that way will limit my ability to respond to them or their effects.

It’s a much more powerful stance to come from my being cause in the matter. Because I’ve had readings with Linda Dillon, I know something about the way I – and “a design team” (2) – crafted the contours of my life prior to birth.

I know the purpose in my choosing my Father. It wouldn’t be of service to him for me to disclose it but I do know it.

I’d imagine that, if I pursued the matter, I’d find that I chose my Father and probably welcomed the resistance and challenge it provided as something which, in the overcoming of which, I’d learn and write about the subject of core issues, or what I call vasanas.

There’s no power in blaming my Father. But there is power in taking responsibility for my life.

“Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is simply what’s so, and the stand you choose to take on what’s so.”

Burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame, and guilt are all aspects of the dense mind which, as I’ve said elsewhere, believes that it’s a separate self struggling for survival amid seeming scarcity. (3)

None of this is true. But believing is seeing: It becomes true because we believe it to be so.

“Responsibility is not an evaluation, but a simple statement of what’s so, the truth – and what we choose to do with it.”

So there I am responsible for the state of my world. I take responsibility for its state. And what I choose to do about it is to declare that, by Jan. 1, 2023, I am working towards the state of that world dramatically improving to the extent that the world will work for all and not as it does now, which is just for a privileged few.

This shift from blame to responsibility empowers me. I’m certain it causes a ripple in the Self if it does not in fact come from the Self. It awakens a sleeping giant.

And it allows me to take further action that contributes to the world working whereas blame does not contribute to it.

“It is a declaration not an assertion; that is, it is a context from which one chooses to live.”

Saying I am responsible for the state of my world frees me from the downtrodden, beaten feelings of victimization and allow me to set about planning what I intend to do about it.


(1) Which we associate with various “bodies” – the ethetric, astral, mental, etc.

(2) Personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, June 12, 2019.

(3) “Basic Third-Dimensional Illusion: Separate Selves Struggling for Survival amid Seeming Scarcity,” 



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Poised to Ascend – Part 2/2 – Narendra Mishra

female face dark hair by Jason Brooks Store

Art @ Jason Brooks Store


Poised to Ascend – Part 2/2

November 6, 2019, awakeningspark.com


Concluded from Part 1 yesterday.

Turning to one of my metaphysical tools of choice, Vedic Astrology, I find the celestial alignments to be very, very intriguing. So intriguing in fact that some time ago a cousin of mine, also a Vedic Astrologer called me to discuss the current alignments.

The specific alignment in question is that of Jupiter, Saturn, and Ketu (the south node) all being conjunct in sidereal Sagittarius. This configuration started yesterday, and lasts until-guess when? January 2020!
For the astrologically minded, Jupiter is in his own sign, empowering him to shine his Light of Truth, Fairness, Justice, and Equality on the world stage. Saturn is the proverbial ‘Father Time’ and conjunct with Ketu indicates the end of one cycle, or epoch, and the beginning of another.

We are now at the starting point of a new cycle. We have moved upwards the spiral of time.

Many, including myself, would have experienced a ‘revisiting of the past’ in many aspects of our lives. This is essential as we move up the spiral, returning to our starting point, yet from a higher vantage point. This gives us the ability to achieve closure and move on.

Collectively, we are now at this point. The start of the new cycle will manifest differently for everyone.

Those that are ‘asleep’ will awaken and begin to thread the path of inquiry that the wayshowers have long walked. Their path will however, be much easier and quicker than ours, with many wayshowers having fulfilled their soul-contracts to assist in this way.

Wayshowers, those who are already awake and aware, may very well find themselves in the first wave of Ascension. It depends on individual soul-contracts. Some have agreed to wait a bit longer than the first wave. Others have agreed to wait till last. These latter folks are whom Archangel Michael refers to as the pillars.

Where do I fit in? I do not know for certain but I am inclined to believe that I will ascend with the first wave. It seems to fit with Sri Krishna’s assessment, and with what I am told is my major purpose in assisting with Ascension-teaching. I could be wrong, but one can but hope, right?

​So… Here we are, collectively poised to Ascend. Bon Voyage!

So I Said to the Divine Mother: “Mother, Please, Open My Heart!” – Steve Beckow

In The Arms of The Mother ~ Visionary Water Color Artist Meganne Forbes


So I Said to the Divine Mother: “Mother, Please, Open My Heart!”


I wanted a heart opening and I got open-heart surgery.

I need to be more specific next time.

Kidding aside, I’m home, groggy, sounding more like Donald Duck than Marlon Brando and having a waking span of … not very long.

The medical teams at St. Paul’s were totally professional, mature, and yet compassionate.

I didn’t know that such a level of functioning was possible across an organization.

I was very impressed and seeing them operate that way will have an effect on me when I’m hiring for my projects.

So, the total cost to me of extended medical care for heart surgery? Zero, zip, nada. I walked out of St. Paul’s without having reached into my pocket – except to buy chocolate milk and a devilled egg sandwich.

Please don’t allow people to convince you that universal medicare is communism or socialism. That’s nonsense. It’s humane.

I had a major breakthrough relative to humanitarian philanthropy, a small booklet I read which erased basic problems I was having in conceptualization. I’ll share more about that later, as the lights come back on.

I also enjoyed watching how the Mother and Michael took care of me.  I’ve told you some instances already.

Today as my friend was driving me home, she asked where we might find a parking space. Being a smartypants I said, “Right out front.”

We turned the corner and there was a parking space right out front.

I walked towards the door and asked myself how I’d get word to Phil, the manager, that I was home, when he suddenly appeared around the corner … and that was handled.

And so it has gone. I think the same assistance is available to any committed lightworker in these times.

Thank you so much to Suzi for having carried the load (and carrying it a bit further as well) and to Sitara and Kathleen for pitching in.

Gonna sleep further and wait for the lights to come back on.

Thank you all for allowing me this space to recover from major surgery. I’ve already healed significantly and I expect the rest of the journey to be equally swift as well.



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Poised to Ascend – Part 1/2 – Narendra Mishra


Chosen ~ Artist Donna Smallenberg


Poised to Ascend – Part 1/2

November 5, 2019, awakeningspark.com


This is it. We are here. Now. At the proverbial starting line of Ascension. It has all come to this.

Following my last piece, I Feel Peace, (pun intended) I am still in that sublime state. Surely, there are ripples on the surface that Peace, but it runs only surface deep.

I am not particularly drawn to meditation, or any other spiritual practice or discipline. I seem to be in a state of stasis or limbo… waiting… waiting… ​
I tuned in to find out what I was waiting for exactly. I saw myself as if in a cocoon, fully developed and ready to emerge (ascend). I was reminded of Sri Krishna’s observations to me earlier this year, ​

“If you were a caterpillar you would be in the cocoon or the chrysalis at the dawn.”*

So why the wait to emerge? I was shown an image of the starting line of a race, where all participants take their starting positions, and starting pose, waiting for the signal to start. Some lightworkers were already poised and ready. Others were still doing their final warm-ups and stretches.

I understood that all the wayshowers would ascend as one. Millions of us going together in the first wave of Ascension. The planetary impact of that would be HUGE! We would literally create the ‘Event’.

This is where we are at now. The gradual aspect of Ascension is over for us wayshowers. Now comes the great quantum jump.

A recent message from Archangel Michael informed us that the period from October 10, 2019 to January 12, 2020 will see the mass awakening of humanity, whereas those already awakened and aware will be called into greater service.

Likewise, another message from St. Germaine also spoke of this time,

“That is what this is all about now, as you are all preparing to be a part of that first wave of ascension. Some of you are already in that ascension now.”

​We all know the dangers and difficulty of putting a specific time-frame to energetic occurrences. So while I hope dearly that these next few months will be very interesting, I am cautious about making any predictions. We have all been wrong before where that was concerned.

Concluded in Part 2 tomorrow.


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The Why of Existence; the Purpose of Life – Steve Beckow

Son of God painting by Steve Gamba @ Fine Art America


The Why of Existence; the Purpose of Life

Prescheduled. Steve is recovering from surgery at the moment.

“Nothing matters any more,” said the man I passed in the hospital hall, who called himself an “alcoholic.”  “I’m going to drink and smoke till I die.”

And here I am almost bursting, saying to myself, “Life has a purpose. There is a meaning to all this.”

Most people, it seems, when a loved one dies, a crop fails, or a similar disaster happens, ask, “Why? Why? Why?”

And supplying a credible and truthful reason seems to bring them peace.

OK, if that’s the case, then what is the purpose of life? (1) What is the “why? why? why?” of existence?

Well, let’s start by looking at God’s purpose in creating life. Ibn Arabi tells us, speaking from God’s perspective: “I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known, and I created the creation so that I be known.” (2)

Included in being known is for God to know Itself.  God, who is All and One without a second, faces a difficult task in knowing Itself and being known. How does the One achieve this end?

It’s achieved in and through our enlightenment or Self-Realization. In the moment when you or I realize ourselves as … surprise! … God, God meets God.

I know God in that moment and God knows God. For that meeting was all of this created.

“The only purpose of life is to realize God,” declares Paramahansa Ramakrishna, an Incarnation of the Divine Mother. (3) Sri Aurobindo adds:

“There is no I [or] thou, but only one divine Self equal in all embodiments, equal in the individual and the group, and to realize that, to express that, to serve that, to fulfill that is all that matters.” (4)

Rumi makes the case at greater length:

“There is one thing in this world which must never be forgotten. If you were to forget everything else, but did not forget that, then there would be no cause for worry; whereas if you performed and remembered and did not forget every single thing, but forgot that one thing, then you would have done nothing whatsoever.

“It is just as if a king had sent you to the country to carry out a specified task. You go and perform a hundred other tasks; but if you have not performed that particular task on account of which you had gone to the country, it is as if you have performed nothing at all. So man has come into this world for a particular task [enlightenment], and that is his purpose; if he does not perform it, then he will have done nothing.” (5)

I had a vision of the purpose of life on Feb. 13, 1987 (6) in which, filled with bliss, I watched a small golden star (7) emerge from a large Golden Sun (8) and travel a sacred arc from God to God, all the time spiraling forward. (9)

I watched two instances of enlightenment, (10) in the second of which the small golden star merged with the large Golden Sun and disappeared. The vision itself disappeared when I muttered to myself, “I see. The purpose of life is enlightenment.”

So that is the overarching purpose behind all of life: That God may experience Itself in a moment of our enlightenment.  Sri Ramakrishna playfully pictures Siva or pure consciousness at that moment:

“When Siva realizes his own Self [in a moment of our enlightenment], He dances about in joy exclaiming, ‘What am I! What am I!’” (11)

For this reason, Hindus call life a divine leela or play, in which eternal sparks journey down into density forgetting their true identity and then climb Jacob’s Ladder of consciousness back to the beginning – and end.

Realizing the nature of life as a leela, many masters, upon realizing the Supreme Consciousness, laugh.

That’s the purpose of life. That’s the “why? why? why?” of existence. Perhaps allow that to be the foundation of all our other spiritual adventures and enquiries: We could build on no firmer foundation.


(1) If you wish to read numerous discussions of the subject, start with The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment at https://gaog.wpengine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/Purpose-of-Life-is-Enlightenment.pdf

Hungry for more?

See “Enlightenment – Enlightenment is the purpose of life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=E#Enlightenment_-_Enlightenment_is_the_purpose_of_life; “Reincarnation and the Purpose of Life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Reincarnation_and_the_Purpose_of_Life#The_Purpose_of_Life ;”The Purpose of Life for God” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=The_Nature_of_Life_1#The_Purpose_of_Life_for_God; “The Purpose of Life for Us” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=The_Nature_of_Life_1#The_Purpose_of_Life_for_Us ; “Purpose of Life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Philosophy#Purpose_of_Life

(2) Muhyideen Ibn Arabi, Kernel of the Kernel. trans. Ismail Hakki Bursevi. Sherborne: Beshara, n.d., 3.

(3) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 273. [Hereafter GSR.]

(4) Sri Aurobindo, The Synthesis of Yoga. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 1983, 316.

(5) Rumi in A.J. Arberry, trans., Discourses of Rumi. New York; Samuel Weiser, 1977; c1961, 26.

(6) For a description of it, see “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

(7) The Self, soul, Christ, or Atman. God the Child.

(8) God the Father, the One, the Transcendental. For simplicity’s sake, I’ve left the realm of the Divine Mother (mater, matter) out of this explanation.

(9) Returning to the same karmic lessons, lifetime after lifetime, until the lessons are learned. This makes the journey a spiral as well as an arc, from God to God.

(10) The first was a fourth-chakra experience of the Self, after which the golden star left the physical cycle and sped back to God, merging in It.  There are of course many more levels of enlightenment between the two.

(11) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in GSR, 393. In an earlier article, I gave St. Paul’s description of the moment before final mergence:

“And when all things [all worldly desires] shall be subdued unto him, then shall the Son [the Self, the Christ, the individuated spark] also himself be subject unto him that put all things under him, that God may be all in all [i.e., reunited].” (1 Corinthians 15:28.)



Son of God painting by Steve Gamba @ Fine Art America

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The Grand Experiment – Steve Beckow

Black and white hearts, handpainted stone by Alleluia Rock, Etsy


The Grand Experiment
October 26, 2019 by Steve Beckow

Pssst! The philosopher’s stone is in your heart

I mentioned earlier that, after the terrific scare of the first few days, when it was thought I had a resistant strain of superbug and I agreed mentally to rest (OK, OK, I got it!), the prognoses have been falling ever since.

Now instead of MRSA (resistant to antibiotics) I have MSSA (treatable by them).

And the infection instead of lasting for weeks, is nearly gone. Instead of six weeks of antibiotics, I’m now on two weeks and nearly finished.

So there’s a great deal of stage managing happening behind the scenes.

Not only that but Michael makes it easier for me in other ways. My wife and I were putting my bed together (I was out on a day pass) and we needed a board to finish the job off.

So I went downstairs to the locker room and, sure enough, there were two boards leaning up against the wall in the free area that perfectly fit. Thank you, Michael.

I have to reassure those who’ve asked that St. Paul’s is a world leader in heart medicine. I am in the best possible care at no cost to me, apart from what I pay in taxes.

Add to that that Michael said last reading that I was not going anywhere. There are no slip-ups in my future.

One thing I’m learning here – and I’m learning lots – is the power of music to heal, unify, and inspire.

I’ve watched so many flash mobs and it always seem to be the same. People who are rushing hither and yon stop, listen and laugh together. People from all countries join in those moments; all pretense and coldness are dropped.

Today I found myself listening to John Denver’s Heart to Heart and weeping.

Unlike years ago when I first heard him, I now know that what he describes is exactly the way it is:

Love is everywhere
Always safe, always true
And exactly where it comes from
Is where it’s going to

Your heart to mine
My heart to yours
Talk about opening windows
Talk about opening doors
My heart to yours
Your heart to mine
Love is a light that shines
From heart to heart


When one has felt the kind of love that he’s talking about and experienced it arising from one’s own heart and flowing out to the world, what were simply words before come alive.

One can feel it as it passes through us, up from the heart and out to the world.

Out to everyone in the world – young, old, male, female, white, black, and everywhere in between. It opens windows, opens doors.

I see now that love is a profligate, a total spendthrift. Love doesn’t hoard or ask for payment. It can flow like a tsunami or waft like a feather.

The higher-dimensional love that the galactics and celestials point to as the promised land is, just as Yogananda said, “all-beautiful, all-satisfying, all-thirst quenching, ever-new.” (1)

There’s nothing else on Earth one could point to and say the same of – except love’s other forms as joy, bliss, peace, etc.

Lying here, listening to music, I must look a sight. Some of my neighbors have been in a great deal of pain and I try to be respectful. But behind my drawn curtain, I’m blissfully tapping to the music. (My time will come, I’m sure.)

But the grand experiment will be whether drawing this love up from my heart makes all that easier. My operation is after Wednesday of next week, so we shall see.


(1) Paramahansa Yogananda, The Second Coming of Christ. Dallas: Amrita Foundation, 1979-86, 1, 17.



Black and white hearts, hand-painted stone by Alleluia Rock, Etsy

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Message in a Bottle from Room 22, Bed 4 – Steve Beckow

Angel of Music by Marsha Vernon Krygier


Message in a Bottle from Room 22, Bed 4

Suzi, whaddamIgonnado if I don’t write?

Listen to music videos?

I must be the only fellow on the Cardiac Unit, facing a triple bypass, who’s laughing and crying, listening to America’s Got Talent. Or laughing for any other reason, for that matter!

Young boy with cancer, bullied, takes up the violin. For those short of time, begin at 2:43

I see signs at every turn of this transition that I’m going through being managed.

Maybe I should give you the background. On my birthday my friend, who wishes to be unnamed, took me to the Keg and there, being treated to a perfectly-marvellous Sirloin Oscar (two bites), I vomited four times. I did not see this as a symptom of heart problems (1) although the unit here has told me it was.

The next day I’m in Victoria having a second birthday with my brother Paul and his wife Fran. By now I’ve gone through a series of episodes of shortness of breath, pain in my upper chest, constipation, an aching in my left arm, dizziness, and nausea.

I’m lying in bed thinking something may be seriously wrong (ya think?). I felt I had to cut short my visit, return to Vancouver, and check myself into St Pauls Hospital (2) on Thanksgiving.

Incredible range and voice control.

I have a complete workup in Emergency and they order an angiogram.

The angio shows I have 100%, 90%, 80% and 60% blockage in four arteries. I am headed for a triple, or maybe even a quadruple, bypass in, they say, two weeks.

Then things begin to escalate. I catch what they say is stapholococcus and I begin to make arrangements with Suzi to cover for me. Now they say it’ll take four weeks. (3)

The next day they call it MRSA (Methicillin-Resistant Staphylococcus aureus). An ultrasound shows “vegetation” on my heart. The wait time goes up to six weeks. So I really begin planning for a long rest.

Before I even started the blog, I’d written a living will in which I rejected open-heart surgery. I’d brought it to the hospital.

Heck, I’ve been outside my body. I know what the other side is like. I even wrote a book about it. (4) What have I to fear?

OMG. Courtney Hadwin went on to win the finals in 2018. She bursts … explodes … onto the music scene.

Quick call to Linda Dillon. Michael, through her, says, “Nope. You’re not leaving.”

OK, so I retrieve my living will and put that idea out of my mind. By then I’ve thoroughly settled into the idea that I need a rest.

Now, me having reached the pinnacle of concern, the hospital starts backtracking. Now they say they caught the bug soon enough that they won’t need six weeks.

Then they say I don’t have MRSA; I have MSSA (Methicillin-Susceptible Staphylococcus aureus). This is treatable by antibiotics.

Uhhh, I’m beginning to see a pattern here.

I have chest pains, but only for less than a day. My left arm aches but, again, only for a short time. Conclusion? Someone is gently moving me towards the hospital.

I have high concern over having a superbug. So I agree to a good, long rest period. Then, after I’ve agreed to it, I hear that they caught the bug early.

And then, after that, I hear the strain I have is susceptible, not resistant, to antibiotics. (Just today they say I now have negative blood cultures. Say again?)

(The next news I’m waiting for is that my arteries are clear without the need for an operation!!!!)

So once I’ve cleared the decks and agreed to rest, the seriousness of the situation begins to decrease. Once I agreed to the urgency of the situation, the situation eased. Conclusion? Someone is guiding events and simply wants me to rest.

Then on the 17th I have a pre-scheduled reading with Michael and, among other things, he confirms my growing suspicions:

“There are … times, Beloved One, as you have witnessed in those around you, that we literally take you out, that we take you out of play to reimagine, rebuild, reintegrate, reincarnate… (No, not into a different life or a different form!) But into the resurrected self.” (5)

I have never, ever heard guitar played this way.

So this is his arrangement. And he tells me “directly”: “This is certainly not the era or the time or the timing for the departure of your sweet self.” (5)

Ooooookay. I’m now thoroughly behind the assignment, resigned to taking time off, wide open to what will follow, and surrendered to however it develops, much of which seems to be outside my control anyway. The high drama has produced results.

Fade to black….

Meanwhile I’m learning a great deal from the nurses and doctors here. Their kindness, maturity, and professionalism are all making an impact on me.

Never mind taking a picture with my iPhone. I’m snapping shots with my mind. This is how committed and well-developed people act. How this will help me after the Reval!

As a person used to living in a high degree of solitude, I couldn’t have asked for a better tutorial. I am sooooo grateful for this stay among such exemplary professionals.

So now I wait till perhaps sometime this week before I go home. Then a community nurse drops by and gives me an antibiotic IV once a day till Nov. 28, no matter when the operation is. (They don’t have to wait until the bug is completely gone before operating; just gone from my heart.) (7)

Thank you all for relieving me of a heavy load of email. Suzi does read some out to me and keep me apprized of the loving consolation you’ve been sending. She’s putting all your emails into one document soon and sending that along to me.

I’m not suffering. I’m experiencing more learning from this experience than anything I’ve been through in years so no need to feel sorry for me.

Thank you for your expressions of love. I love you all,



(1) Because I also have Schatsky’s ring, which is an occasional and unpredictable constriction of the throat while eating beef.

(2) Where I was born, by the way.

(3) Even more recently they found a leaky valve as well. That now necessitates more tests today …no, now it’s tomorrow … while they put probes down my throat and take another, clearer picture of my heart.

(4) New Maps of Heaven at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=New_Maps_of_Heaven

(5) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 17, 2019.

(6) Loc. cit.

(7) I definitely won’t be able to read or answer email or phone calls for probably a week after the operation.

And, finally, for your viewing entertainment, a moment a little girl will probably always remember:


Click onto Steve’s website link for original post


angels x 2 and harps by sulamith-wulfing

Artist ~ Sulamith Wulfing

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Pointing in That Direction – Steve Beckow

Lighthouse by Wilma Kleinhans


Pointed in That Direction

I’m struggling in the storm of my own polarity or dualism.

I do love some and hate others. I do want some to win and others to lose.

I don’t put a lot of energy into loving everyone – no, not politician X or businessman Y.

But at the same time I also know that love is universal by its very nature.

If an inner tsunami of love comes, it wipes out every negative thought and feeling in its path. Nothing negative survives in the face of its flow.

While love is very selective in the sense that it doesn’t disturb those who are closed to it, with those who are open to it and able to experience it, it flows universally.

I cannot make it flow to Mary and not to Bill. In that sense, it’s non-selective.

If we’re polar or dual, separative or arrogant, we cut off our awareness of the flow. That’s the price we pay.

The actual experience of this love, while not entirely a distant memory for me, is nothing  compared to what it was in 2015.  But for a person with a not-well-functioning short-term memory, that memory is indelibly etched on my mind.

I ask myself: Is it worth me losing all access to this love to harbor party positions, hate criminals, gossip, and scheme? Do I want to cut myself off from this love, compared with which there’s nothing else worth having? No, I don’t, plain and simple.

Living in that state permanently and fully – which we call Ascension – is what draws me on.

Whether or not I’m very accomplished at imitating love’s example by loving universally, my ship is pointed in that direction.



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Three Opposing Energies – Steve Beckow

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens - angels several male

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens


Three Opposing Energies

I have to tell you what a problem I’m having with three seemingly-opposing energies. Three apparently-antagonistic sides of myself.

Warrior Side

One side says “Stop!” to the Deep State and to international human-rights abusers who are apparently not part of the Deep State.  This voice comes from my gut, my will.

Hey, what’s hard about stopping? Stopping is the easiest thing in the world to do. I’m not asking people to jump through hoops. Just stop.

In saying “Stop!” I realize that those who are simply wanting to elevate, to use Suzi’s word, may find this note to be jarring. That becomes a factor that weighs on me.

Nevertheless there is a warrior side of me that needs to be acknowledged, who wants all human-rights abuses on the planet to stop. I’m even willing to put a date to it: by Jan. 1, 2020.

So there’s that side of me.

Service Side

The second is the side of my mission, what Hindus might call “dharma” (duty) or seva (service).

That duty is to be a neutral voice, an honest broker, a bridge between the galactics and terrestrials.  Allegiance to it comes from my adult consciousness state.

This side of me has been told, repeatedly, that even being a pipeline is a side event. The main event is Disclosure. (1)

It’s been told not to enter the lists, the fray, the battle. There are those for whom that’s in their soul contract; it isn’t in mine.

Consequently, this side draws back from what the first side wants – to join battle.

Heart Side

The third side is that of my heart, which just wants to love everybody.  This urge comes from my soul, deeply seated in the spiritual heart.

And then there’s a third side of me, assuming increasing importance, and that’s the side that experiences love and bliss.

Love and bliss are both universal and both flow; they cannot be channeled or contained.

So when I feel the love or bliss arise from my heart, all I want to do is open my arms and share it with everyone. This is love’s impact.

Especially all the people who were seriously abused as children and now are human-rights abusers themselves.

This side of me arises when I call up the love from my heart with my inbreath. As if I was smelling a wonderful flower. Or drawing in a really-deep breath.

I bring up a deep wave of love. And because it must flow, I send it out to the world on the outbreath.

Higher-dimensional love satisfies to the depths of one’s being. Harmful thoughts do not arise in it.

We had it right a long time ago: Make love; not war.

If we all drew love up from our hearts (make love) and sent it out to the world, there’d be no wars. (And we will, in the future. It’s called Ascension.)

This side of me is not an active side. Except if you call hugging active.

Back to me, the operator, the participant/observer.

How does one manage the three? Because I’m going to need to.

You have your mission as well and may find yourself in exactly the same position.

I’m simply resting with the paradoxes that arise from having three distinct sides to myself at this moment.

I’m allowing the cognitive dissonance (irritability) that goes with it to be there and inviting the paradigmatic breakthrough that should follow – my “Aha!” moment or realization. (2)

That breakthrough starts with awareness.


(1) Archangel Michael: Do not forget. You are a communicator first and foremost and, yes, there will be a flurry of activity in the establishment and a flurry of activity in the grounding.  But first and foremost, dear heart, you are a communicator on process, on truth.

You are a bridge to your star brothers and sisters. The money is just a side event. The main event has yet to occur. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 2, 2013.)

AAM: Do not become overly enmeshed in the money issues. Yes, it is good to be generous, sharing, philanthropic.

But your primary purpose, as you know, is to be the communicator, and particularly as things emerge to be the go-between, between not only us [celestials] but also the star brothers and sisters as well. Do not lose your primary focus. (Ibid., Aug. 27, 2013.)

(2) On the process of paradigmatic breakthrough, see:

“The Principles of Largescale Employment Projects – Part 2/2,”
February 23, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/02/23/the-principles-of-largescale-employment-projects-part-22/

“Paradigm Shift,” October 26, 2018, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/10/26/paradigm-shift/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 1/4,” February 4, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/04/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-14/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 4/4,” February 7, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/07/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-44/



Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens

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The Exploration of the Divine States – Steve Beckow

Divine Doorway by Francene Hart Watercolour Artist


The Exploration of the Divine States

I’d like to continue the discussion I’ve been having about the divine states.

We may find that we have to rewrite, relearn, and reprogram the way we “be with” them.

In my experience, they need to be recognized to be fully experienced.

It’d be as if bliss, love, peace, mastery, abundance, etc., were people passing by  and, until we call out their name, they don’t turn and interact with us. They keep on going without us feeling a thing.

That’s exactly the way I encountered peace – as if it was a face I saw from a passing train. When I recognized it, it transmitted its experience of peace to me.

Bliss the same. I saw it as if it were a person standing perhaps ten feet away from me at a gathering like a party. It was passing me by but when I recognized it – it was almost as if I had said telepathically, “Oh, you’re Bliss” – it came into me and filled the inner space with itself.

Now where in a textbook could I read about this? Someone help me out please?

There’s no ongoing, serious discussion today of how to “be with” something like bliss or love or peace.

Perhaps until now we’ve had no ideas about how to access them.

Perhaps we think we need to meditate for years before we “realize” this state.

Perhaps we think this state is only for high yogis and ascended masters.

I predict that the time will come when we’ll have everyday discussions of subjects like bliss as more and more people experience them.

If we recognize a divine state and merge with it (not as hard as we’ve thought), we’ve just secured our future better than any insurance plan could.

We will have found – it turns out – precisely what we’ve always been looking for. We just didn’t know what it was. But now we do.

It turns out that the divine states are what we’ve always been looking for, the real treasure in life.  Any one of them affords a lifetime of delight.

Once found, once recognized, we’ll have found the switch and turned it on. After that, the divine state will be found to flow by itself, in and from the heart.

Now someone prove me right or prove me wrong – I don’t care which. But let’s get the exploration of these subjects underway.



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3 – Steve Beckow


Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3

(Concluded from Part 2, yesterday.)

I’m going to call this kind of love “higher-dimensional love” or “transformative love.” (1)

There’s no grounds to worry.  We’re all of us experiencing – or going to experience – this very same love and heart opening. (2)

No one will miss out. Ramakrishna used to say, some will eat in the morning, some at noon, and some in the evening, but all will be fed.  Never was that more true than for this generation.

In the morning are the explorers, the pathfinders, the first wave. At noon, are the gatekeepers, the shepherds, the second wave. And in the evening are the pillars, the old hands, the third wave.

You’ve all heard about the time of separation, the time of division.  Well, in my opinion, the heart opening will begin it.

There will be those who, in the face of the rising energies, simply reject love. The rest who accept and welcome love will be allowed to proceed unmolested.  Their paths will now diverge, as SaLuSa, Michael, and Adamu have been saying. (3)

This will all happen in consciousness but it’ll be reflected in setting. (4)

In my opinion, the depth of our love is what determines what Matthew calls our “evolvement.” It determines the depth of our experiencing generally, depth of wisdom, etc.

And under the Mother’s care, we’re all (who accept love) being brought along gradually to a state that allows us to experience that inner tsunami of love that rages just inside the door of the heart. (5)

Oh, how to get those doors open? That is the question.  But this generation has the security of knowing that the Mother has a Plan and that Plan is mass/physical Ascension.

It’ll be fun for me when the heart opening happens. I won’t be Robinson Crusoe any longer.  You think waiting for the Reval is hard. How about waiting for your buddies to show up on the other side of a planetary heart opening?

I can’t think of anything else that’s better than love, deeper, or more inspiring. It deepens and elevates, deepens and elevates, like a wave, always flowing, in and out.

When the door is opened and we all find ourselves swimming in real love, we’ll all of us say: “Oh, THIS is what they’re all talking about.” Yes, THIS is what they’re all talking about.

“Strain and see.” (7)


(1) Only the Third Dimension does not feel this kind of love. All higher dimensions do. Therefore I call it “higher-dimensional love.”

“Transformative” in the sense that it transforms all negativity whereas, with ordinary love, negativity usually drowns it out.  Nothing can drown out this higher-dimensional love.

(2) Most of us gradually; some of us sudden.

What’s the difference between a heart opening and a heart attack?

A heart opening is over in a few seconds, and is either a sharp explosion or a sharp implosion, localized in the spiritual heart, two digits to the right of the breastbone. At no time are you in danger.

A heart attack is extremely painful without let-up and is generalized in its effect on the individual. If you’re in continuous, generalized pain, please seek medical attention.

(3) SaLuSa: “If you can find balance and harmony in your life now, we would say that you are already living from a higher state of consciousness. Is it then no wonder that you feel different to many people around you, and find their ways no longer acceptable? It is a sign of the separation that is occurring at the present time, and it is a perfectly normal development.” (SaLuSa, May 31, 2010 at http://www.treeofthegoldenlight.com/First_Contact/Channeled_Messages_by_Mike_Quinsey.htm.) [My emphasis.]

SaLuSa: “Life on your present Earth is coming to an end and of necessity, because the cycle of duality has all but completed its course. Nothing stands still and all is in motion and change to take up a new position according to its vibration. Separation of the souls on Earth is therefore quite a natural occurrence, as the Law of Attraction is always in action.” (SaLuSa, Nov. 5, 2012.)

Michael: “We have talked about the time of division. Not abandonment, not rejection, but of saying to the collective, ‘There is a better way.’” (“Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: You Have Chosen to Be the New Paradigm of Love, May 31, 2018,” June 7, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/06/07/transcript-archangel-michael-you-have-chosen-to-be-the-new-paradigm-of-love-may-31-2018/.)

Adamu: “Two timelines flow according to our choice to be self-responsible (SR) or other responsible (OR). …

“Besides these two timelines…the SR and the OR ones…consciousness arose that at least one additional timeline must be created, because there’s something very special happening on Earth right now.

“From the Matrix up, beings are awakening, but a very small number of them are awakening in a way that is “completely delightfully amazingly surprising. …

“Those that are awakening in this way would be wasted on the SR or OR path. For those on the accelerated path, this would be a plodding, slow journey.

“So, a transcendent new level of reality needed to be opened up for those.” (Suzi Maresca, “Notes on Adamu Speaks ~ Timelines… and the Dissolution of the illuminati!” August 13, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/13/notes-on-adamu-speaks-timelines-and-the-dissolution-of-the-illuminati/.)

(4) How consciousness affects setting is beyond my knowledge. Everyday reports from afterlife communicators simply regard the fact that consciousness determines setting as obvious. But I’m not sure if they could explain how it all happens either.  Matthew Ward might since he used to design afterlife world settings.

(5) By the doors of the heart, I mean the hridayam or heart aperture. Normally it’s closed. In a heart opening, it opens and we, as points of consciousness, find ourselves inside it and in a river of love. It sweeps all cares from our minds, fills up the room we’re in, and leaves us in an Ocean of Love, endless in all directions. Drowned in that state, we want nothing else but more love.

Even though I feel this love at times, at other times I don’t and am as ordinary and grumpy as many people. Don’t waste your time thinking I’m walking on water. As a friend used to say, you’re a developed writer, not necessarily a developed man.

(6) “You have come to the orchard to eat mangoes. Enjoy them. What is the use of your calculating how many mango-trees there are, how many millions of branches, how many billions of leaves?”  (Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 819.)

(7)  “Do you see yourself in this state? Then you have become vision itself.

“Be of good heart. Remaining here, you have ascended aloft. You need a guide no longer. Strain and see.” (Plotinus in Elmer O’Brien, ed., The Essential Plotinus. Representative Treatises from the Enneads. Toronto: New American Library, 1964, 43.)



Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery

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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

Dreamwork ~ Artist Wen Hsu


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

(Continued from Part 1, yesterday.)

You’d have to be blind not to see the difference between me then and me now.

The dividing line in my life was the heart opening of March 13, 2o15. After that, I knew what love is. (1)

That was the line in the sand. Life was never again the same.

What was it the Buddha said? Better to give up kingdoms in three dimensions than to give up the Buddha Nature – which is Love.

How many channeled messages point their fingers at love and say, “There it is. There it is.” But we, from our more ordinary experience of love, do not get, do not experience, and do not realize what it is they’re pointing at.

If I were to find a metaphor, I’d say that life in the Third/Fourth Dimension is like swimming in water versus life on the dry land of the Fifth.

We have to work to get anywhere and the speeds we can attain – speed of thought, speed of emotional experience, pace of realizations if we ever reach them – are slowed by the density of the medium.

What follows is not a metaphor. This is a report from an out-of-body experience I had in 1977.  I mention it to provide a second view of the density which the physical body in the Third-Dimensional density impedes any refined experience.

I fully experienced re-entering my body after a lucid dream and went through the process of the spirit moving from “inside” to “outside,” so to speak.

Upon first arriving, I was not looking out through my eyes. But when consciousness shifted from being inside to being outside, I found  myself looking out through the body’s eyes.

In the process I got to experience the spirit before it “re-entered” the physical body and after.  I can testify that the spirit body metaphorically is softer than the down at the base of a feather.  The physical body, in contrast, is as dense as India rubber.

Very few of the feelings from my spirit body penetrated the dense medium that the physical body is.

So we have to realize that we’re swimming in a dense medium. It’s density makes it very difficult to experience a highly-refined state such as real love.

(Concluded in  Part 3, tomorrow.)


(1) See “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

Archangel Michael: The heart opening is the blessing in which you became more clearly aware of your infinite, eternal Self.

Steve Beckow: It didn’t happen in a blinding light or anything.

AAM: No, it did not. It happened in the quiet of the day and the night. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Apr. 24, 2015.)



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3 – Steve Beckow

Lavender Visions ~ Artist Christina Dehoff


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3

Before I knew what love was, I didn’t know that I didn’t know what love was.

But you know, I think back on the West Coast Express with Kathleen, which was a real highpoint in my life, and I wasn’t able to let the wonder of it all in.

Here we were being supported to go from town to town and meet the family, so to speak, and I, who knew nothing of love then, really got only half the picture – if that.

And I was in complete mystery about what was missing.

What was missing was love, I see years later. At that time in my life I didn’t know what love was.

Longtime readers know that I’m speaking of Fifth-Seventh Dimensional love, real love, my meditation guru used to call it. (1)

He spent a lifetime of service and meditation to know that real love. And here we are and it’s handed to us on a silver platter.

Before I knew what real love was, I always asked myself: Is this all there is? I wanted more like a hungry animal.

As a young academic, I stepped on so many paradigms that I was lucky to leave under my own sail.

There had to be more than dinners at the Faculty Club, more than “publish or perish,”  more than the elephant line. (2)

By then, I was finding it impossible to hide the fact that I wanted more in my life. My teeth were chattering: There has to be more than this. Otherwise what am I doing here?

(Continued in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) S.N. Goenka.

(2) A young elephant grasps their mother’s tail and follows along in her footsteps, so to speak.

Requiring a Ph.D. student to have 90% of his dissertation be along the same lines as his supervisor’s – which was the conventional wisdom of the times –  is like asking them to take hold of his tail and follow him around. I found that too confining.



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An Introduction to Detachment – Steve Beckow

buddha_painting_by Melissa Bordeaux at DeviantArt - gold - and blue lotus

Buddha Painting by Melissa Bordeaux @ DeviantArt


An Introduction to Detachment

I was working one minute and in the midst of a spiritual experience the next.

I’ve had a few like this in past years. (1) This time I’m being shown what “detachment” feels like.

As in the other experiences, this mood just “came upon me” as I worked. But I recognized it before it departed and so it stayed and enveloped me.

Some of this article was written as it was happening; some in the afterglow; and some is being edited now:

I’ve been bothering myself that this Fall weather is beautiful and I should be out there.

But the furthest I get is looking out from my window.

I don’t mean I never get out because I do but … I could never figure this reticence to go out, without purpose, into the good weather.

Then today I heard myself say, what’s the difference between standing here and standing there? You’re going to be upright on two legs, looking out over a different vista. And … so?

At last I put a name to to the way I was feeling: “Detached.”  Up till now I’ve been ashamed of this nebulous, unnamed feeling, uncomfortable with it, embarrassed by it.

But when I saw it as detachment and experienced it, I changed my vote.

OK, I got it. I now see what the talk is all about.

It isn’t that I’m opposed to anything or hurt or sulking.  It’s that, all things being equal, nothing exerts a pull on me (beyond the needs of the physical) right now.

I was being given an experience of detachment in a deeper form than ever before.  Based on it, I’d say a synonym for what we mean by “detachment” would be “a focus on the eternal.”

For me, as you know, the basic spiritual movement is to turn from the world to God. (2)

Keeping this in mind, let me now reword what I just said. What I was able to name as happening to myself (and then experiencing) was detachment from the things of the world because of growing attachment to the eternal.

And this – that I am and feel and seem right now – is what detachment looks and feels like to this being:  It doesn’t make sense to this one standing at the window to go from here to there.

I’m sitting here amazed. I’ve been resisting this space since forever. I’m still resisting giving into it completely because I worry I’ll float off into fantasy land. Not caring about anything: That’s not staying with the program.

Another word for “detachment” is “peace.”  If they aren’t one and the same, they come bundled together.


(1) In the past I’ve been shown mastery, abundance, love, bliss, and peace … each as a state of consciousness or divine quality – however you choose to see it.

(2) See “The Basic Spiritual Movement,” June 12, 2009, in Back to the Basics: Introductory Essays to a Cross-Cultural Spirituality, p. 24, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Back-to-the-Basics-R2.pages.pdf   



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Allowing Myself to Feel – Steve Beckow

Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue


Allowing Myself to Feel

I continue to allow myself to feel what arises, the residue of a vasana or core issue reactivated.

As long-time readers know, I regard the re-activation of a vasana as a good thing. It’s only then that we can re-experience the incompleted feelings at the heart of it. (1)

Mostly we don’t share them. We might suppress them or paper them over with a smile.

But my job is to experience them and write about them. That’s why I’m writing about it now.

Not to cleverly manipulate you. I have no interest in that.  Why would I write what I write and manipulate? If you see that in print, you can be sure that a troll or worse has written it.

I write awareness writing because every minute is a potentially-rich learning experience – if we remain aware of things – and I want that learning. These times of lowness are especially generous in lessons. And it won’t kill me to explore them.

So please don’t try to rescue me. Just let me explore the feeling and share about it. I’ll use the upset clearing process on feelings I need to dissipate. (2)


There was a feeling that was asking to be seen and felt.

I saw that I was allowing myself at that moment to feel depressed. That’s the presenting condition. Not like I knew I was depressed before consciously naming it.

It took a while for me to see how I was feeling. I told Suzi I was going for a long walk in Stanley Park to clear my head. And I haven’t been able to get out the door.

That was the first clue. Why can’t I get out the door? Well, I’m depressed, I replied.

OK. Now I’ve named the condition. I can get depressed about being depressed. Or I can use the upset clearing process and move through it.

I choose the latter. Having named the feeling, I now ask my mind to give me a picture or thought about the original incident behind it. It’s seldom the present that we’re reacting to. It’s usually a much-earlier traumatic incident.

I’ll tell you mine, again for educational purposes, so you can see what the incident at the heart of a vasana  looks like. I do this to demonstrate how to move through an upset without “dumping” on others.


I see my Mother lying on her collapsed bed. She’s lost it – God knows why or how – and broken her bed  with her fists in a rage.

The doctor is arranging emergency transportation to the psych ward.

My Aunt Lou has come over and says to me: “Steve, you’d better let me sign her in. Whoever signs her in, she will never speak to that person again.”  My Mother never spoke to Lou again.

Leaving aside my Mother’s situation and speaking only for myself, my world collapsed. I’m maybe sixteen at the time and the idea that my Mother might not be here, in my life, for any reason, had never crossed my mind.

This sequestering of my Mom was a psychic break in my experience of wellbeing and it brought me thoughts, for the first time, of my Mother’s mortality.

For my Mother, her decline after that until she died in a housefire two years later was rapid. (3)

So that’s the significance of the event and the origin of the present-day upset. I concluded that I was now on my own. I decided I needed to “leave the nest” and look after myself – and my Mom.

And finally I did not want to feel the depression and insecurity again that I felt at that time and so I created behavior patterns that would ward off re-experiencing them.

But there it is: The full picture, the earlier traumatic incidents which lie below my present-day feeling of depression.

Now what I need to do is to experience the feeling itself until it lifts.

So not tough it out. Not deny the feelings. Not tamp them down. But experience them until they lift of their own volition.

Jesus described this process when he said: “The truth shall make you free.” If I’m onto the truth, I’ll feel increasing relief. If I’m going down the wrong path, I’ll feel more upset and tension. Once I’m through the process, I’m through it because the truth has set me free.

I now “be with” the feeling of depression.


In my opinion, we just keep creating vasanas until our behavior is so much in line with the divine qualities that we no longer do – or we ascend. The first, I think, would lead to the second. (Only one pathway among many, I’m sure.)

Well, obviously as you can see, I’m through my depression.  It didn’t stay any longer when I ceased to give it energy and just observed it. Awareness dissolves our upsets.

Recovery from our depressed feelings doesn’t have to stretch on for long periods of time. It doesn’t (usually) require a psychoanalyst to handle. I follow Contextual Therapist Bob Shaw’s lead in believing recovery can happen right now and right now.

OK. Time to get back to work. Right now.


(1) See for instance “OK, I Feel Upset. … Oh, Great!” in Vasanas: Preparing for Ascension by Clearing Old Issues. Vancouver: Golden Age of Gaia at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R8.pages.pdf

(2) “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/

(3) I’ve spoken to her since then through Linda and she told me she didn’t suffer in her passing.  She was gone long before the fire broke out, she said.

Most people are not required to go through traumatic death experiences; they leave before the end.



Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue

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Who Am I Without This Identity?- Steve Beckow

The Messenger ~ Artist Elizabeth Banker


Who Am I Without This Identity?

Mike Quinsey is having computer problems and will not have a message to post this week.

Tonight, I’m going through one space after another, dealing with the issue of finances.

Greta Thunberg is in town and I could not rouse myself from my mood to go hear her.

Grief at the thought that this phase of things may be ending is coming up. Once I recognize a layer of emotion, feel it, and let it go, up comes another.

When I ask for the original incident, I see break-ups with various girlfriends.  I see the death of my Mother. I allow myself to experience the grief.

Under that is tremendous fatigue.  Ten years of appeals is for me a tour of duty.

I’ve been as clear as I can with everyone. This is the time to register your vote.  If we cannot achieve a sustainable level of ongoing financial commitment by Oct. 1, I’ll regard that as your verdict and will not  re-open the matter again.

I’ll be activating Plan B, which is to ask Michael to find another way. I have a reading scheduled with him in the very near future.

If nothing can be arranged there, it’s back to the job market. Some people will hear that as a complaint. Not at all. It just means that there won’t be very much writing.

By the way, in answer to your kind email, no, the site will not charge for access to any materials here – neither an admission fee for the site itself nor a price for the books, articles, and databases. The material here must remain freely accessible.

Sadness comes up. Self-doubt. Recrimination. I’m a cauldron of negativity and toxicity, all of it arising to be recycled by the Law of Elimination. (Processing the vasana or core issue this way is the alternative to projecting it onto others.)

I’m not fooled or frightened by these conflicting emotions. It feels like I’ve been processing them – simple and layered – since forever.

It’s just not what you’d want to be doing of a Friday evening.

I feel an identity eroding. Good. Let it erode.

Anything that erodes is not eternal. I’m interested in the eternal. Therefore, who am I without this identity?



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Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important? – Steve Beckow

Print of a Ganeshom painting by Snowy Egret Press @ Etsy


Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important?

I was working in my apartment when bliss suddenly arose.  No warning. No reason I was aware of.

It was a circumstance where, if I did not recognize it and allow it, it’d enter my experience for a second and then vanish.  As if it just poked its head in.

But I did recognize it and I allowed it and it expanded to fill my being.

I have one or two colleagues who are also experiencing bliss.

What I noticed was that two things were exerting countervailing pulls on me.

One was bliss, which was pulling me in one direction. And the other was … what to call it? Personality? Ego? A desire for profile, respect, validation, admiration? Pulling me in another direction.

I saw that I could have one or the other but not both … and I chose bliss.

I didn’t need to sit down and get out my calculator. I didn’t need to ask my friends what they thought. Bingo. The decision was made.

If I allow the ego to arise, it arises in the same space otherwise available to bliss. It’s like a volcano that fills the blue skies with smoke.

I allow the ego to arise through making choices. If I choose not to hook up with it but be the observer instead as Michael so often asks of us, then my hope is the ego will not blossom forth in me. It’ll arise and pass away.

Again, if I stop being lazy and focus on drawing up love and bliss from my heart, I’ll start to use this machine I’m in (for a time) to its best effect.

What’s more important, at this time, than my connection with love?

I used to ask myself: Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

Now I’m asking myself: Why do I refuse to do what’s most important?



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The Mechanics of Love – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Amanda Sage


The Mechanics of Love

I feel a little funny saying it, but I’d like to comment on the mechanics of love, if I may.

I can’t remember how I used to look upon love, say, a decade ago.

The truth is I knew nothing about love until age 68.

I probably accepted that I knew nothing about it except that, if it was there, that was a good thing and, if it was not, that was a bad thing – that needed to be masked or hidden.

Fast forward to today and I now have access to my heart, which before was closed, and I see love more clearly now.

Michael has said that love is everywhere for the getting, but I also believe that we’re meant to seek it specially in our very own artesian well – our hearts.

Here it gushes like an inner tsunami of love, filling every nook and cranny and leaving one drowned in an Ocean of Love.

And, later, when one is no longer swimming in bliss, (1) the door remains open a little. One is still lifted up by a wisp or a wave of this divine, higher-dimensional love.

But there are certain characteristics of it that I’d like to make sure we’re aware of.

And I submit these as philosophers might call postulates, as statements of what I think of as truths, which I make available for the testing.

One is that love is never still. It must flow. We cannot contain it or restrict it in any way or it will simply disappear.

Two is that love must flow universally. We talk about “universal love.” If it isn’t universal, it isn’t love. Love is by its very nature always, already universal. It flows in all directions.

Three is that we taste love as it passes through us onto its next destination. That’s why so many people roll their eyes when feeling that love. It’s like having a feather drawn through your heart only ten times more gentle.

It’s rapturous. And we retain the memory of it to spur us on.

Four is that its next destination is someone who’s aware of it. It may flow through someone unaware of it, but they’ll be … unaware of it.

One has to be aware of love, bliss, peace, etc., for them to blossom. I’ve found this to be the case repeatedly.

I think it may prove the same with the dimensional setting we find ourselves in: It’ll depend on what we’re aware of.

To summarize: Love flows universally, but we’re unaware of its flow. Or we’re aware of it but try to hold onto it and it disappears.

It’s open to us instead to call it up from our hearts on our inbreath and send it out to the world on the outbreath (see the “Love Pump” graphic at top). And revel in the love as it passes through us.


(1) All spiritual experiences below Sahaja Samadhi (or Ascension) are either partial or temporary. Only the fire of Sahaja burns the vasanas (the seeds of future action) to a crisp.



Artist ~ Amanda Sage

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Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Vladimir Volegov


Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

Getting back to generosity as a divine state, I know from experience that divine states eventuate – they end up – in love. (1)

I think the Mother is saying: Here’s an easy way to begin exercising your muscle of generosity and clearing the path to transformative love.

In my experience, generosity blends into love.  There isn’t a hard and fast border between them. I’d like to say that generosity invites love. Certainly love comes up with generosity: two for the price of One.

It’s this love that we’ll all need to make wise decisions as financial stewards of the Mother later.

So it isn’t just a case of generosity arising in us because it’s something nice or a pleasant feeling. It’s all that but much more.

It’s the basic curriculum of a financial steward: Generosity 101 as preparation for Humanitarian Philanthropy 202. That I think is what the Mother intends.

So do look inside and fan the flame of generosity you find. Please donate to the upkeep of the blog, using the button below.

See it, if you will, as part of building a generous world, one whose stewards are outfitted with the right qualities to administer a global donor economy.

Love offerings from others, who like us are also in a receiving position, are sincerely welcomed as well.


(1) Let me clarify. I know from experience that generosity blends into transformative love in the opened heart – the heart after a 4th-chakra heart opening, such as we as a planet are gradually going through at this moment.

I no longer am aware of what generosity results in before such an event.

Moreover, I’ve lost interest in what my prior condition was (as SaLuSa predicted long ago). No, I’m not ascended. I’m just a little bit more opened up than I was.


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Artist ~ Vladimir Volegov

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Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow

Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes


Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2

Giving and generosity are not always the same. They’re often different.

Everyone can give. But some people do because they feel they have to. Or should.

In my view, no disrespect meant, if we felt forced or obliged to give, that wouldn’t fall under “generosity.”

It isn’t what the Divine Mother, in my opinion, wants us to do. I think she wants us to light the fires of generosity.

The Mother has asked the GAoG team to allow ourselves (among other lightworkers and groups) to be used  to light that fire. Here she discusses it:

Divine Mother: You have agreed that you are on, can we say, the receiving end.

Steve: So our allowing ourselves to be in a position to need to ask for help is used as a means to get people to open up?

Divine Mother: To express gratitude, generosity, unity and to express what is valuable to them.

Steve: So that is what the spiritual meaning of this is. That we serve the purpose of igniting people’s generosity or inspiring it.

Divine Mother: That is correct. You are the catalysts. (1)

Tough assignment.  But OK. The fire must be lit.

Why is that?

Generosity is a divine state of consciousness. There’s immense value in entering into it – as a state – in and of itself.

But, leaving that aside for the moment (I’ll return to it in Part 2), we’re also the Mother’s financial stewards and we’ll be administering a significant stream of funds in her post-Reval New Earth.

I don’t think we’ll get very far if we’re giving with suspicion, resentment, or worry about ourselves.

At some point, whether we know it or not, we’ll have to light the fires of our own generosity to do the job we’ll face.

It’s there inside us but dormant.  The Mother wants GAoG to serve as the occasion for awakening it again.

If we have an inner block against giving generously, then lighting our fires may require some inner work, now or later. The cost is lower now.

I’m seeing things from the other side now, playing this role in her plan. And I do see the sense of it.

So please, use this as an occasion to light the fires of generosity. Press the “Donate” button below and give to the upkeep of the blog – on a one-time basis or, better still, on a monthly basis. Start in on generous giving but don’t stop with us. The Mother is using many other lightworkers in the same way as us.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, June 7, 2015.


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Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes

Gratitude to all artists. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah   

Quite a Ways Down the Road – Steve Beckow

Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery


Quite a Ways Down the Road

Sages for millennia have called the Creator, Preserver and Transformer of the world of matter (mater, Mother) the Divine Mother.

Here’s Lao Tzu for instance:

“Nameless indeed is the source of creation [the Father],
But things have a mother and she has a name.”  (1)

And Sri Yukestwar Giri, guru of Paramahansa Yogananda:

“‘It is the Spirit of God [the Holy Spirit or Divine Mother] that actively sustains every form and force in the universe; yet he [the Father] is transcendental and aloof in the blissful uncreated void beyond the worlds of vibratory phenomena,’ Master explained.”(2)

When the Mother speaks through Linda Dillon, she identifies herself as the Mother as well. (3)

This though there is no gender at the levels of reality we’re talking about. That leads me to believe that it’s a teaching tool.

They’re represented as the exact opposite of human psychological stereotypes.  In psychology, the male is seen as active and the woman as passive. In spirituality, the Heavenly Male is seen as passive and the Divine Female as active.

In Hinduism, especially, a literature has grown up that incorporates divine consorts and sacred partnerships, all deriving from the original coupleship of the Father and the Mother, the Source and the Creator.

It puts the journey of life into terms we can understand and identify with.

My vision in 1987 showed me that we’re embarked on a common journey from God the Father to God the Father. God the Mother’s material world is our school where we learn our true identity until, having seen it, we experience the moment of enlightenment that constitutes our graduation.

At that moment God meets God.  God the Child, having been birthed and raised to awareness by God the Mother, reunites with God the Father, who is the All.

That, I’m told, is quite a ways down the road….


(1) Lao Tzu, The Way of Life. The Tao Te Ching. trans. R.B. Blakney. New York, etc.: Avon, 1975, 53.

“It began with a matrix: The world had a mother.” (Ibid., 105.)

“The formless Absolute is my Father, and God with form is my Mother.” (Kabir quoted by Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 150.)

(2) Paramahansa Yogananda, quoting Sri Yukteswar Giri in Autobiography of a Yogi. Bombay: Jaico, 1975, 143.)

(3) See for instance “The Divine Mother: Your Essence is Purity,” 



Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery

Gratitude to all artists. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah

A Matter That Simple – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva


A Matter That Simple

I once joked with Michael that I’d groan and moan and complain the whole way and then want all the glory afterwards.

He said, yes, you do want your pound of flesh.

Pound of flesh….

What kind of behavior are we discussing? Because I think it’s one of the ways of the world.  Especially now, in these chaotic times.

I’d call it “childish” if I were to boil it down to a word. Only a child wants a pound of flesh.

Another way of saying what I personally think the world is lacking right now would be to say “adult behavior.”

Adult behavior is not attached to drama. It doesn’t go to extremes.

It doesn’t exact its pound of flesh. It’s attached to a successful outcome, as win/win as possible.

Adult behavior prepares us for interacting with our star family as they arrive on-planet. (1) I predict that they won’t meet with folks enamored of drama.

Adult behavior does a cost/benefit analysis when it’s about to blow a gasket. Do the potential costs I could incur outweigh the benefits I think I’ll get? This is coming from a career gasket-blower, by the way.

Adult behavior processes the vasana rather than projecting the strong feelings onto others. “You made me mad!” Nope. No pass on that one. Especially not in these confused and confusing times.

You made you mad by responding the way you did to a triggered vasana (core issue). You responded angrily. That’s a choice. It’s a long road back from anger but it doesn’t change the fact that getting angry is a choice.

Process the vasana, instead of projecting it. Ask yourself where does the strong feeling originate? What incident in my past history has triggered this?

Take the first picture that comes along. “Be” with it. Experience the feelings through to completion and the vasana will lift – temporarily. Rinse and repeat as necessary. It’s just a matter of retraining ourselves.

This is adult behavior, in my opinion. Projecting one’s anger onto another is not.

The scenario I can’t get out of my mind is being yelled at: “I don’t have any vasanas.”

Say what?

Finally, adult behavior is loving, compassionate, and cooperative. It knows that a higher-dimensional world, a world that works for everyone, is coming.

No matter how we might feel and be as individuals, feeling and being this way as a world is the object of this journey. Returning the world to peace and harmony is the task at hand. And this calls for us all to act as adults.

I’m asking us to leave “childish” behavior behind, no matter where we live. We need “adult,” loving, compassionate behavior in a chaotic world.

It all boils down to a matter that simple.


(1) See “On the Delegations,” September 9, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/09/09/on-the-delegations/  



female male family child - art by Mariana Kalacheva

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva

Gratitude to all artists. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah