I am Responsible for the State of My world – Steve Beckow

Heart of Infinity ~ Artist Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America


I am Responsible for the State of My World

When I took the est Training in 1979, one of the statements that was made in it stayed with me from then till now. It was Werner Erhard’s declaration on responsibility:

“Responsibility begins with the willingness to take the stand that one is cause in the matter of one’s life. It is a declaration not an assertion; that is, it is a context from which one chooses to live.

“Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is simply what’s so, and the stand you choose to take on what’s so.” (From The est Standard Trainingpublished in Biosciences Communication, 1977 at https://wernererhardquotes.wordpress.com/tag/responsibility/.

The being that we are operates at various levels of frequency. One of the denser levels we call “the mind.” The higher frequencies we call “the Self.” And there are numerous frequencies in between. (1)

When I operate from the mind and make the statement, “I am responsible for the state of the world,” we hear it as “I’m at fault. I’m to blame.”

When I operate from the Self, I hear it as “This is my world and I take responsibility for the shape it’s in.”

Werner asserts that “responsibility begins with the willingness to take the stand that one is cause in the matter of one’s life.” To locate the cause as outside oneself – except in certain circumstances – can often be what we know as taking a victim stance.

I am the victim of my Father’s harshness is an example. Perhaps I was. But even in that circumstance, to hold events that way will limit my ability to respond to them or their effects.

It’s a much more powerful stance to come from my being cause in the matter. Because I’ve had readings with Linda Dillon, I know something about the way I – and “a design team” (2) – crafted the contours of my life prior to birth.

I know the purpose in my choosing my Father. It wouldn’t be of service to him for me to disclose it but I do know it.

I’d imagine that, if I pursued the matter, I’d find that I chose my Father and probably welcomed the resistance and challenge it provided as something which, in the overcoming of which, I’d learn and write about the subject of core issues, or what I call vasanas.

There’s no power in blaming my Father. But there is power in taking responsibility for my life.

“Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is simply what’s so, and the stand you choose to take on what’s so.”

Burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame, and guilt are all aspects of the dense mind which, as I’ve said elsewhere, believes that it’s a separate self struggling for survival amid seeming scarcity. (3)

None of this is true. But believing is seeing: It becomes true because we believe it to be so.

“Responsibility is not an evaluation, but a simple statement of what’s so, the truth – and what we choose to do with it.”

So there I am responsible for the state of my world. I take responsibility for its state. And what I choose to do about it is to declare that, by Jan. 1, 2023, I am working towards the state of that world dramatically improving to the extent that the world will work for all and not as it does now, which is just for a privileged few.

This shift from blame to responsibility empowers me. I’m certain it causes a ripple in the Self if it does not in fact come from the Self. It awakens a sleeping giant.

And it allows me to take further action that contributes to the world working whereas blame does not contribute to it.

“It is a declaration not an assertion; that is, it is a context from which one chooses to live.”

Saying I am responsible for the state of my world frees me from the downtrodden, beaten feelings of victimization and allow me to set about planning what I intend to do about it.


(1) Which we associate with various “bodies” – the ethetric, astral, mental, etc.

(2) Personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, June 12, 2019.

(3) “Basic Third-Dimensional Illusion: Separate Selves Struggling for Survival amid Seeming Scarcity,” 



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Poised to Ascend – Part 2/2 – Narendra Mishra

female face dark hair by Jason Brooks Store

Art @ Jason Brooks Store


Poised to Ascend – Part 2/2

November 6, 2019, awakeningspark.com


Concluded from Part 1 yesterday.

Turning to one of my metaphysical tools of choice, Vedic Astrology, I find the celestial alignments to be very, very intriguing. So intriguing in fact that some time ago a cousin of mine, also a Vedic Astrologer called me to discuss the current alignments.

The specific alignment in question is that of Jupiter, Saturn, and Ketu (the south node) all being conjunct in sidereal Sagittarius. This configuration started yesterday, and lasts until-guess when? January 2020!
For the astrologically minded, Jupiter is in his own sign, empowering him to shine his Light of Truth, Fairness, Justice, and Equality on the world stage. Saturn is the proverbial ‘Father Time’ and conjunct with Ketu indicates the end of one cycle, or epoch, and the beginning of another.

We are now at the starting point of a new cycle. We have moved upwards the spiral of time.

Many, including myself, would have experienced a ‘revisiting of the past’ in many aspects of our lives. This is essential as we move up the spiral, returning to our starting point, yet from a higher vantage point. This gives us the ability to achieve closure and move on.

Collectively, we are now at this point. The start of the new cycle will manifest differently for everyone.

Those that are ‘asleep’ will awaken and begin to thread the path of inquiry that the wayshowers have long walked. Their path will however, be much easier and quicker than ours, with many wayshowers having fulfilled their soul-contracts to assist in this way.

Wayshowers, those who are already awake and aware, may very well find themselves in the first wave of Ascension. It depends on individual soul-contracts. Some have agreed to wait a bit longer than the first wave. Others have agreed to wait till last. These latter folks are whom Archangel Michael refers to as the pillars.

Where do I fit in? I do not know for certain but I am inclined to believe that I will ascend with the first wave. It seems to fit with Sri Krishna’s assessment, and with what I am told is my major purpose in assisting with Ascension-teaching. I could be wrong, but one can but hope, right?

​So… Here we are, collectively poised to Ascend. Bon Voyage!

So I Said to the Divine Mother: “Mother, Please, Open My Heart!” – Steve Beckow

In The Arms of The Mother ~ Visionary Water Color Artist Meganne Forbes


So I Said to the Divine Mother: “Mother, Please, Open My Heart!”


I wanted a heart opening and I got open-heart surgery.

I need to be more specific next time.

Kidding aside, I’m home, groggy, sounding more like Donald Duck than Marlon Brando and having a waking span of … not very long.

The medical teams at St. Paul’s were totally professional, mature, and yet compassionate.

I didn’t know that such a level of functioning was possible across an organization.

I was very impressed and seeing them operate that way will have an effect on me when I’m hiring for my projects.

So, the total cost to me of extended medical care for heart surgery? Zero, zip, nada. I walked out of St. Paul’s without having reached into my pocket – except to buy chocolate milk and a devilled egg sandwich.

Please don’t allow people to convince you that universal medicare is communism or socialism. That’s nonsense. It’s humane.

I had a major breakthrough relative to humanitarian philanthropy, a small booklet I read which erased basic problems I was having in conceptualization. I’ll share more about that later, as the lights come back on.

I also enjoyed watching how the Mother and Michael took care of me.  I’ve told you some instances already.

Today as my friend was driving me home, she asked where we might find a parking space. Being a smartypants I said, “Right out front.”

We turned the corner and there was a parking space right out front.

I walked towards the door and asked myself how I’d get word to Phil, the manager, that I was home, when he suddenly appeared around the corner … and that was handled.

And so it has gone. I think the same assistance is available to any committed lightworker in these times.

Thank you so much to Suzi for having carried the load (and carrying it a bit further as well) and to Sitara and Kathleen for pitching in.

Gonna sleep further and wait for the lights to come back on.

Thank you all for allowing me this space to recover from major surgery. I’ve already healed significantly and I expect the rest of the journey to be equally swift as well.



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Poised to Ascend – Part 1/2 – Narendra Mishra


Chosen ~ Artist Donna Smallenberg


Poised to Ascend – Part 1/2

November 5, 2019, awakeningspark.com


This is it. We are here. Now. At the proverbial starting line of Ascension. It has all come to this.

Following my last piece, I Feel Peace, (pun intended) I am still in that sublime state. Surely, there are ripples on the surface that Peace, but it runs only surface deep.

I am not particularly drawn to meditation, or any other spiritual practice or discipline. I seem to be in a state of stasis or limbo… waiting… waiting… ​
I tuned in to find out what I was waiting for exactly. I saw myself as if in a cocoon, fully developed and ready to emerge (ascend). I was reminded of Sri Krishna’s observations to me earlier this year, ​

“If you were a caterpillar you would be in the cocoon or the chrysalis at the dawn.”*

So why the wait to emerge? I was shown an image of the starting line of a race, where all participants take their starting positions, and starting pose, waiting for the signal to start. Some lightworkers were already poised and ready. Others were still doing their final warm-ups and stretches.

I understood that all the wayshowers would ascend as one. Millions of us going together in the first wave of Ascension. The planetary impact of that would be HUGE! We would literally create the ‘Event’.

This is where we are at now. The gradual aspect of Ascension is over for us wayshowers. Now comes the great quantum jump.

A recent message from Archangel Michael informed us that the period from October 10, 2019 to January 12, 2020 will see the mass awakening of humanity, whereas those already awakened and aware will be called into greater service.

Likewise, another message from St. Germaine also spoke of this time,

“That is what this is all about now, as you are all preparing to be a part of that first wave of ascension. Some of you are already in that ascension now.”

​We all know the dangers and difficulty of putting a specific time-frame to energetic occurrences. So while I hope dearly that these next few months will be very interesting, I am cautious about making any predictions. We have all been wrong before where that was concerned.

Concluded in Part 2 tomorrow.


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The Why of Existence; the Purpose of Life – Steve Beckow

Son of God painting by Steve Gamba @ Fine Art America


The Why of Existence; the Purpose of Life

Prescheduled. Steve is recovering from surgery at the moment.

“Nothing matters any more,” said the man I passed in the hospital hall, who called himself an “alcoholic.”  “I’m going to drink and smoke till I die.”

And here I am almost bursting, saying to myself, “Life has a purpose. There is a meaning to all this.”

Most people, it seems, when a loved one dies, a crop fails, or a similar disaster happens, ask, “Why? Why? Why?”

And supplying a credible and truthful reason seems to bring them peace.

OK, if that’s the case, then what is the purpose of life? (1) What is the “why? why? why?” of existence?

Well, let’s start by looking at God’s purpose in creating life. Ibn Arabi tells us, speaking from God’s perspective: “I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known, and I created the creation so that I be known.” (2)

Included in being known is for God to know Itself.  God, who is All and One without a second, faces a difficult task in knowing Itself and being known. How does the One achieve this end?

It’s achieved in and through our enlightenment or Self-Realization. In the moment when you or I realize ourselves as … surprise! … God, God meets God.

I know God in that moment and God knows God. For that meeting was all of this created.

“The only purpose of life is to realize God,” declares Paramahansa Ramakrishna, an Incarnation of the Divine Mother. (3) Sri Aurobindo adds:

“There is no I [or] thou, but only one divine Self equal in all embodiments, equal in the individual and the group, and to realize that, to express that, to serve that, to fulfill that is all that matters.” (4)

Rumi makes the case at greater length:

“There is one thing in this world which must never be forgotten. If you were to forget everything else, but did not forget that, then there would be no cause for worry; whereas if you performed and remembered and did not forget every single thing, but forgot that one thing, then you would have done nothing whatsoever.

“It is just as if a king had sent you to the country to carry out a specified task. You go and perform a hundred other tasks; but if you have not performed that particular task on account of which you had gone to the country, it is as if you have performed nothing at all. So man has come into this world for a particular task [enlightenment], and that is his purpose; if he does not perform it, then he will have done nothing.” (5)

I had a vision of the purpose of life on Feb. 13, 1987 (6) in which, filled with bliss, I watched a small golden star (7) emerge from a large Golden Sun (8) and travel a sacred arc from God to God, all the time spiraling forward. (9)

I watched two instances of enlightenment, (10) in the second of which the small golden star merged with the large Golden Sun and disappeared. The vision itself disappeared when I muttered to myself, “I see. The purpose of life is enlightenment.”

So that is the overarching purpose behind all of life: That God may experience Itself in a moment of our enlightenment.  Sri Ramakrishna playfully pictures Siva or pure consciousness at that moment:

“When Siva realizes his own Self [in a moment of our enlightenment], He dances about in joy exclaiming, ‘What am I! What am I!’” (11)

For this reason, Hindus call life a divine leela or play, in which eternal sparks journey down into density forgetting their true identity and then climb Jacob’s Ladder of consciousness back to the beginning – and end.

Realizing the nature of life as a leela, many masters, upon realizing the Supreme Consciousness, laugh.

That’s the purpose of life. That’s the “why? why? why?” of existence. Perhaps allow that to be the foundation of all our other spiritual adventures and enquiries: We could build on no firmer foundation.


(1) If you wish to read numerous discussions of the subject, start with The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment at https://gaog.wpengine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/Purpose-of-Life-is-Enlightenment.pdf

Hungry for more?

See “Enlightenment – Enlightenment is the purpose of life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=E#Enlightenment_-_Enlightenment_is_the_purpose_of_life; “Reincarnation and the Purpose of Life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Reincarnation_and_the_Purpose_of_Life#The_Purpose_of_Life ;”The Purpose of Life for God” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=The_Nature_of_Life_1#The_Purpose_of_Life_for_God; “The Purpose of Life for Us” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=The_Nature_of_Life_1#The_Purpose_of_Life_for_Us ; “Purpose of Life” at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Philosophy#Purpose_of_Life

(2) Muhyideen Ibn Arabi, Kernel of the Kernel. trans. Ismail Hakki Bursevi. Sherborne: Beshara, n.d., 3.

(3) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 273. [Hereafter GSR.]

(4) Sri Aurobindo, The Synthesis of Yoga. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 1983, 316.

(5) Rumi in A.J. Arberry, trans., Discourses of Rumi. New York; Samuel Weiser, 1977; c1961, 26.

(6) For a description of it, see “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

(7) The Self, soul, Christ, or Atman. God the Child.

(8) God the Father, the One, the Transcendental. For simplicity’s sake, I’ve left the realm of the Divine Mother (mater, matter) out of this explanation.

(9) Returning to the same karmic lessons, lifetime after lifetime, until the lessons are learned. This makes the journey a spiral as well as an arc, from God to God.

(10) The first was a fourth-chakra experience of the Self, after which the golden star left the physical cycle and sped back to God, merging in It.  There are of course many more levels of enlightenment between the two.

(11) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in GSR, 393. In an earlier article, I gave St. Paul’s description of the moment before final mergence:

“And when all things [all worldly desires] shall be subdued unto him, then shall the Son [the Self, the Christ, the individuated spark] also himself be subject unto him that put all things under him, that God may be all in all [i.e., reunited].” (1 Corinthians 15:28.)



Son of God painting by Steve Gamba @ Fine Art America

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The Grand Experiment – Steve Beckow

Black and white hearts, handpainted stone by Alleluia Rock, Etsy


The Grand Experiment
October 26, 2019 by Steve Beckow

Pssst! The philosopher’s stone is in your heart

I mentioned earlier that, after the terrific scare of the first few days, when it was thought I had a resistant strain of superbug and I agreed mentally to rest (OK, OK, I got it!), the prognoses have been falling ever since.

Now instead of MRSA (resistant to antibiotics) I have MSSA (treatable by them).

And the infection instead of lasting for weeks, is nearly gone. Instead of six weeks of antibiotics, I’m now on two weeks and nearly finished.

So there’s a great deal of stage managing happening behind the scenes.

Not only that but Michael makes it easier for me in other ways. My wife and I were putting my bed together (I was out on a day pass) and we needed a board to finish the job off.

So I went downstairs to the locker room and, sure enough, there were two boards leaning up against the wall in the free area that perfectly fit. Thank you, Michael.

I have to reassure those who’ve asked that St. Paul’s is a world leader in heart medicine. I am in the best possible care at no cost to me, apart from what I pay in taxes.

Add to that that Michael said last reading that I was not going anywhere. There are no slip-ups in my future.

One thing I’m learning here – and I’m learning lots – is the power of music to heal, unify, and inspire.

I’ve watched so many flash mobs and it always seem to be the same. People who are rushing hither and yon stop, listen and laugh together. People from all countries join in those moments; all pretense and coldness are dropped.

Today I found myself listening to John Denver’s Heart to Heart and weeping.

Unlike years ago when I first heard him, I now know that what he describes is exactly the way it is:

Love is everywhere
Always safe, always true
And exactly where it comes from
Is where it’s going to

Your heart to mine
My heart to yours
Talk about opening windows
Talk about opening doors
My heart to yours
Your heart to mine
Love is a light that shines
From heart to heart


When one has felt the kind of love that he’s talking about and experienced it arising from one’s own heart and flowing out to the world, what were simply words before come alive.

One can feel it as it passes through us, up from the heart and out to the world.

Out to everyone in the world – young, old, male, female, white, black, and everywhere in between. It opens windows, opens doors.

I see now that love is a profligate, a total spendthrift. Love doesn’t hoard or ask for payment. It can flow like a tsunami or waft like a feather.

The higher-dimensional love that the galactics and celestials point to as the promised land is, just as Yogananda said, “all-beautiful, all-satisfying, all-thirst quenching, ever-new.” (1)

There’s nothing else on Earth one could point to and say the same of – except love’s other forms as joy, bliss, peace, etc.

Lying here, listening to music, I must look a sight. Some of my neighbors have been in a great deal of pain and I try to be respectful. But behind my drawn curtain, I’m blissfully tapping to the music. (My time will come, I’m sure.)

But the grand experiment will be whether drawing this love up from my heart makes all that easier. My operation is after Wednesday of next week, so we shall see.


(1) Paramahansa Yogananda, The Second Coming of Christ. Dallas: Amrita Foundation, 1979-86, 1, 17.



Black and white hearts, hand-painted stone by Alleluia Rock, Etsy

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Message in a Bottle from Room 22, Bed 4 – Steve Beckow

Angel of Music by Marsha Vernon Krygier


Message in a Bottle from Room 22, Bed 4

Suzi, whaddamIgonnado if I don’t write?

Listen to music videos?

I must be the only fellow on the Cardiac Unit, facing a triple bypass, who’s laughing and crying, listening to America’s Got Talent. Or laughing for any other reason, for that matter!

Young boy with cancer, bullied, takes up the violin. For those short of time, begin at 2:43

I see signs at every turn of this transition that I’m going through being managed.

Maybe I should give you the background. On my birthday my friend, who wishes to be unnamed, took me to the Keg and there, being treated to a perfectly-marvellous Sirloin Oscar (two bites), I vomited four times. I did not see this as a symptom of heart problems (1) although the unit here has told me it was.

The next day I’m in Victoria having a second birthday with my brother Paul and his wife Fran. By now I’ve gone through a series of episodes of shortness of breath, pain in my upper chest, constipation, an aching in my left arm, dizziness, and nausea.

I’m lying in bed thinking something may be seriously wrong (ya think?). I felt I had to cut short my visit, return to Vancouver, and check myself into St Pauls Hospital (2) on Thanksgiving.

Incredible range and voice control.

I have a complete workup in Emergency and they order an angiogram.

The angio shows I have 100%, 90%, 80% and 60% blockage in four arteries. I am headed for a triple, or maybe even a quadruple, bypass in, they say, two weeks.

Then things begin to escalate. I catch what they say is stapholococcus and I begin to make arrangements with Suzi to cover for me. Now they say it’ll take four weeks. (3)

The next day they call it MRSA (Methicillin-Resistant Staphylococcus aureus). An ultrasound shows “vegetation” on my heart. The wait time goes up to six weeks. So I really begin planning for a long rest.

Before I even started the blog, I’d written a living will in which I rejected open-heart surgery. I’d brought it to the hospital.

Heck, I’ve been outside my body. I know what the other side is like. I even wrote a book about it. (4) What have I to fear?

OMG. Courtney Hadwin went on to win the finals in 2018. She bursts … explodes … onto the music scene.

Quick call to Linda Dillon. Michael, through her, says, “Nope. You’re not leaving.”

OK, so I retrieve my living will and put that idea out of my mind. By then I’ve thoroughly settled into the idea that I need a rest.

Now, me having reached the pinnacle of concern, the hospital starts backtracking. Now they say they caught the bug soon enough that they won’t need six weeks.

Then they say I don’t have MRSA; I have MSSA (Methicillin-Susceptible Staphylococcus aureus). This is treatable by antibiotics.

Uhhh, I’m beginning to see a pattern here.

I have chest pains, but only for less than a day. My left arm aches but, again, only for a short time. Conclusion? Someone is gently moving me towards the hospital.

I have high concern over having a superbug. So I agree to a good, long rest period. Then, after I’ve agreed to it, I hear that they caught the bug early.

And then, after that, I hear the strain I have is susceptible, not resistant, to antibiotics. (Just today they say I now have negative blood cultures. Say again?)

(The next news I’m waiting for is that my arteries are clear without the need for an operation!!!!)

So once I’ve cleared the decks and agreed to rest, the seriousness of the situation begins to decrease. Once I agreed to the urgency of the situation, the situation eased. Conclusion? Someone is guiding events and simply wants me to rest.

Then on the 17th I have a pre-scheduled reading with Michael and, among other things, he confirms my growing suspicions:

“There are … times, Beloved One, as you have witnessed in those around you, that we literally take you out, that we take you out of play to reimagine, rebuild, reintegrate, reincarnate… (No, not into a different life or a different form!) But into the resurrected self.” (5)

I have never, ever heard guitar played this way.

So this is his arrangement. And he tells me “directly”: “This is certainly not the era or the time or the timing for the departure of your sweet self.” (5)

Ooooookay. I’m now thoroughly behind the assignment, resigned to taking time off, wide open to what will follow, and surrendered to however it develops, much of which seems to be outside my control anyway. The high drama has produced results.

Fade to black….

Meanwhile I’m learning a great deal from the nurses and doctors here. Their kindness, maturity, and professionalism are all making an impact on me.

Never mind taking a picture with my iPhone. I’m snapping shots with my mind. This is how committed and well-developed people act. How this will help me after the Reval!

As a person used to living in a high degree of solitude, I couldn’t have asked for a better tutorial. I am sooooo grateful for this stay among such exemplary professionals.

So now I wait till perhaps sometime this week before I go home. Then a community nurse drops by and gives me an antibiotic IV once a day till Nov. 28, no matter when the operation is. (They don’t have to wait until the bug is completely gone before operating; just gone from my heart.) (7)

Thank you all for relieving me of a heavy load of email. Suzi does read some out to me and keep me apprized of the loving consolation you’ve been sending. She’s putting all your emails into one document soon and sending that along to me.

I’m not suffering. I’m experiencing more learning from this experience than anything I’ve been through in years so no need to feel sorry for me.

Thank you for your expressions of love. I love you all,



(1) Because I also have Schatsky’s ring, which is an occasional and unpredictable constriction of the throat while eating beef.

(2) Where I was born, by the way.

(3) Even more recently they found a leaky valve as well. That now necessitates more tests today …no, now it’s tomorrow … while they put probes down my throat and take another, clearer picture of my heart.

(4) New Maps of Heaven at http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=New_Maps_of_Heaven

(5) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 17, 2019.

(6) Loc. cit.

(7) I definitely won’t be able to read or answer email or phone calls for probably a week after the operation.

And, finally, for your viewing entertainment, a moment a little girl will probably always remember:


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angels x 2 and harps by sulamith-wulfing

Artist ~ Sulamith Wulfing

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Pointing in That Direction – Steve Beckow

Lighthouse by Wilma Kleinhans


Pointed in That Direction

I’m struggling in the storm of my own polarity or dualism.

I do love some and hate others. I do want some to win and others to lose.

I don’t put a lot of energy into loving everyone – no, not politician X or businessman Y.

But at the same time I also know that love is universal by its very nature.

If an inner tsunami of love comes, it wipes out every negative thought and feeling in its path. Nothing negative survives in the face of its flow.

While love is very selective in the sense that it doesn’t disturb those who are closed to it, with those who are open to it and able to experience it, it flows universally.

I cannot make it flow to Mary and not to Bill. In that sense, it’s non-selective.

If we’re polar or dual, separative or arrogant, we cut off our awareness of the flow. That’s the price we pay.

The actual experience of this love, while not entirely a distant memory for me, is nothing  compared to what it was in 2015.  But for a person with a not-well-functioning short-term memory, that memory is indelibly etched on my mind.

I ask myself: Is it worth me losing all access to this love to harbor party positions, hate criminals, gossip, and scheme? Do I want to cut myself off from this love, compared with which there’s nothing else worth having? No, I don’t, plain and simple.

Living in that state permanently and fully – which we call Ascension – is what draws me on.

Whether or not I’m very accomplished at imitating love’s example by loving universally, my ship is pointed in that direction.



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Three Opposing Energies – Steve Beckow

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens - angels several male

Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens


Three Opposing Energies

I have to tell you what a problem I’m having with three seemingly-opposing energies. Three apparently-antagonistic sides of myself.

Warrior Side

One side says “Stop!” to the Deep State and to international human-rights abusers who are apparently not part of the Deep State.  This voice comes from my gut, my will.

Hey, what’s hard about stopping? Stopping is the easiest thing in the world to do. I’m not asking people to jump through hoops. Just stop.

In saying “Stop!” I realize that those who are simply wanting to elevate, to use Suzi’s word, may find this note to be jarring. That becomes a factor that weighs on me.

Nevertheless there is a warrior side of me that needs to be acknowledged, who wants all human-rights abuses on the planet to stop. I’m even willing to put a date to it: by Jan. 1, 2020.

So there’s that side of me.

Service Side

The second is the side of my mission, what Hindus might call “dharma” (duty) or seva (service).

That duty is to be a neutral voice, an honest broker, a bridge between the galactics and terrestrials.  Allegiance to it comes from my adult consciousness state.

This side of me has been told, repeatedly, that even being a pipeline is a side event. The main event is Disclosure. (1)

It’s been told not to enter the lists, the fray, the battle. There are those for whom that’s in their soul contract; it isn’t in mine.

Consequently, this side draws back from what the first side wants – to join battle.

Heart Side

The third side is that of my heart, which just wants to love everybody.  This urge comes from my soul, deeply seated in the spiritual heart.

And then there’s a third side of me, assuming increasing importance, and that’s the side that experiences love and bliss.

Love and bliss are both universal and both flow; they cannot be channeled or contained.

So when I feel the love or bliss arise from my heart, all I want to do is open my arms and share it with everyone. This is love’s impact.

Especially all the people who were seriously abused as children and now are human-rights abusers themselves.

This side of me arises when I call up the love from my heart with my inbreath. As if I was smelling a wonderful flower. Or drawing in a really-deep breath.

I bring up a deep wave of love. And because it must flow, I send it out to the world on the outbreath.

Higher-dimensional love satisfies to the depths of one’s being. Harmful thoughts do not arise in it.

We had it right a long time ago: Make love; not war.

If we all drew love up from our hearts (make love) and sent it out to the world, there’d be no wars. (And we will, in the future. It’s called Ascension.)

This side of me is not an active side. Except if you call hugging active.

Back to me, the operator, the participant/observer.

How does one manage the three? Because I’m going to need to.

You have your mission as well and may find yourself in exactly the same position.

I’m simply resting with the paradoxes that arise from having three distinct sides to myself at this moment.

I’m allowing the cognitive dissonance (irritability) that goes with it to be there and inviting the paradigmatic breakthrough that should follow – my “Aha!” moment or realization. (2)

That breakthrough starts with awareness.


(1) Archangel Michael: Do not forget. You are a communicator first and foremost and, yes, there will be a flurry of activity in the establishment and a flurry of activity in the grounding.  But first and foremost, dear heart, you are a communicator on process, on truth.

You are a bridge to your star brothers and sisters. The money is just a side event. The main event has yet to occur. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 2, 2013.)

AAM: Do not become overly enmeshed in the money issues. Yes, it is good to be generous, sharing, philanthropic.

But your primary purpose, as you know, is to be the communicator, and particularly as things emerge to be the go-between, between not only us [celestials] but also the star brothers and sisters as well. Do not lose your primary focus. (Ibid., Aug. 27, 2013.)

(2) On the process of paradigmatic breakthrough, see:

“The Principles of Largescale Employment Projects – Part 2/2,”
February 23, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/02/23/the-principles-of-largescale-employment-projects-part-22/

“Paradigm Shift,” October 26, 2018, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/10/26/paradigm-shift/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 1/4,” February 4, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/04/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-14/

“Paradigmatic Breakthrough – Part 4/4,” February 7, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/07/paradigmatic-breakthrough-part-44/



Warrior Angels painting by Glenda Stevens

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The Exploration of the Divine States – Steve Beckow

Divine Doorway by Francene Hart Watercolour Artist


The Exploration of the Divine States

I’d like to continue the discussion I’ve been having about the divine states.

We may find that we have to rewrite, relearn, and reprogram the way we “be with” them.

In my experience, they need to be recognized to be fully experienced.

It’d be as if bliss, love, peace, mastery, abundance, etc., were people passing by  and, until we call out their name, they don’t turn and interact with us. They keep on going without us feeling a thing.

That’s exactly the way I encountered peace – as if it was a face I saw from a passing train. When I recognized it, it transmitted its experience of peace to me.

Bliss the same. I saw it as if it were a person standing perhaps ten feet away from me at a gathering like a party. It was passing me by but when I recognized it – it was almost as if I had said telepathically, “Oh, you’re Bliss” – it came into me and filled the inner space with itself.

Now where in a textbook could I read about this? Someone help me out please?

There’s no ongoing, serious discussion today of how to “be with” something like bliss or love or peace.

Perhaps until now we’ve had no ideas about how to access them.

Perhaps we think we need to meditate for years before we “realize” this state.

Perhaps we think this state is only for high yogis and ascended masters.

I predict that the time will come when we’ll have everyday discussions of subjects like bliss as more and more people experience them.

If we recognize a divine state and merge with it (not as hard as we’ve thought), we’ve just secured our future better than any insurance plan could.

We will have found – it turns out – precisely what we’ve always been looking for. We just didn’t know what it was. But now we do.

It turns out that the divine states are what we’ve always been looking for, the real treasure in life.  Any one of them affords a lifetime of delight.

Once found, once recognized, we’ll have found the switch and turned it on. After that, the divine state will be found to flow by itself, in and from the heart.

Now someone prove me right or prove me wrong – I don’t care which. But let’s get the exploration of these subjects underway.



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3 – Steve Beckow


Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 3/3

(Concluded from Part 2, yesterday.)

I’m going to call this kind of love “higher-dimensional love” or “transformative love.” (1)

There’s no grounds to worry.  We’re all of us experiencing – or going to experience – this very same love and heart opening. (2)

No one will miss out. Ramakrishna used to say, some will eat in the morning, some at noon, and some in the evening, but all will be fed.  Never was that more true than for this generation.

In the morning are the explorers, the pathfinders, the first wave. At noon, are the gatekeepers, the shepherds, the second wave. And in the evening are the pillars, the old hands, the third wave.

You’ve all heard about the time of separation, the time of division.  Well, in my opinion, the heart opening will begin it.

There will be those who, in the face of the rising energies, simply reject love. The rest who accept and welcome love will be allowed to proceed unmolested.  Their paths will now diverge, as SaLuSa, Michael, and Adamu have been saying. (3)

This will all happen in consciousness but it’ll be reflected in setting. (4)

In my opinion, the depth of our love is what determines what Matthew calls our “evolvement.” It determines the depth of our experiencing generally, depth of wisdom, etc.

And under the Mother’s care, we’re all (who accept love) being brought along gradually to a state that allows us to experience that inner tsunami of love that rages just inside the door of the heart. (5)

Oh, how to get those doors open? That is the question.  But this generation has the security of knowing that the Mother has a Plan and that Plan is mass/physical Ascension.

It’ll be fun for me when the heart opening happens. I won’t be Robinson Crusoe any longer.  You think waiting for the Reval is hard. How about waiting for your buddies to show up on the other side of a planetary heart opening?

I can’t think of anything else that’s better than love, deeper, or more inspiring. It deepens and elevates, deepens and elevates, like a wave, always flowing, in and out.

When the door is opened and we all find ourselves swimming in real love, we’ll all of us say: “Oh, THIS is what they’re all talking about.” Yes, THIS is what they’re all talking about.

“Strain and see.” (7)


(1) Only the Third Dimension does not feel this kind of love. All higher dimensions do. Therefore I call it “higher-dimensional love.”

“Transformative” in the sense that it transforms all negativity whereas, with ordinary love, negativity usually drowns it out.  Nothing can drown out this higher-dimensional love.

(2) Most of us gradually; some of us sudden.

What’s the difference between a heart opening and a heart attack?

A heart opening is over in a few seconds, and is either a sharp explosion or a sharp implosion, localized in the spiritual heart, two digits to the right of the breastbone. At no time are you in danger.

A heart attack is extremely painful without let-up and is generalized in its effect on the individual. If you’re in continuous, generalized pain, please seek medical attention.

(3) SaLuSa: “If you can find balance and harmony in your life now, we would say that you are already living from a higher state of consciousness. Is it then no wonder that you feel different to many people around you, and find their ways no longer acceptable? It is a sign of the separation that is occurring at the present time, and it is a perfectly normal development.” (SaLuSa, May 31, 2010 at http://www.treeofthegoldenlight.com/First_Contact/Channeled_Messages_by_Mike_Quinsey.htm.) [My emphasis.]

SaLuSa: “Life on your present Earth is coming to an end and of necessity, because the cycle of duality has all but completed its course. Nothing stands still and all is in motion and change to take up a new position according to its vibration. Separation of the souls on Earth is therefore quite a natural occurrence, as the Law of Attraction is always in action.” (SaLuSa, Nov. 5, 2012.)

Michael: “We have talked about the time of division. Not abandonment, not rejection, but of saying to the collective, ‘There is a better way.’” (“Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: You Have Chosen to Be the New Paradigm of Love, May 31, 2018,” June 7, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/06/07/transcript-archangel-michael-you-have-chosen-to-be-the-new-paradigm-of-love-may-31-2018/.)

Adamu: “Two timelines flow according to our choice to be self-responsible (SR) or other responsible (OR). …

“Besides these two timelines…the SR and the OR ones…consciousness arose that at least one additional timeline must be created, because there’s something very special happening on Earth right now.

“From the Matrix up, beings are awakening, but a very small number of them are awakening in a way that is “completely delightfully amazingly surprising. …

“Those that are awakening in this way would be wasted on the SR or OR path. For those on the accelerated path, this would be a plodding, slow journey.

“So, a transcendent new level of reality needed to be opened up for those.” (Suzi Maresca, “Notes on Adamu Speaks ~ Timelines… and the Dissolution of the illuminati!” August 13, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/13/notes-on-adamu-speaks-timelines-and-the-dissolution-of-the-illuminati/.)

(4) How consciousness affects setting is beyond my knowledge. Everyday reports from afterlife communicators simply regard the fact that consciousness determines setting as obvious. But I’m not sure if they could explain how it all happens either.  Matthew Ward might since he used to design afterlife world settings.

(5) By the doors of the heart, I mean the hridayam or heart aperture. Normally it’s closed. In a heart opening, it opens and we, as points of consciousness, find ourselves inside it and in a river of love. It sweeps all cares from our minds, fills up the room we’re in, and leaves us in an Ocean of Love, endless in all directions. Drowned in that state, we want nothing else but more love.

Even though I feel this love at times, at other times I don’t and am as ordinary and grumpy as many people. Don’t waste your time thinking I’m walking on water. As a friend used to say, you’re a developed writer, not necessarily a developed man.

(6) “You have come to the orchard to eat mangoes. Enjoy them. What is the use of your calculating how many mango-trees there are, how many millions of branches, how many billions of leaves?”  (Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 819.)

(7)  “Do you see yourself in this state? Then you have become vision itself.

“Be of good heart. Remaining here, you have ascended aloft. You need a guide no longer. Strain and see.” (Plotinus in Elmer O’Brien, ed., The Essential Plotinus. Representative Treatises from the Enneads. Toronto: New American Library, 1964, 43.)



Blue Mystic ~ Peter O’Neill Gallery

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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

Dreamwork ~ Artist Wen Hsu


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 2/3

(Continued from Part 1, yesterday.)

You’d have to be blind not to see the difference between me then and me now.

The dividing line in my life was the heart opening of March 13, 2o15. After that, I knew what love is. (1)

That was the line in the sand. Life was never again the same.

What was it the Buddha said? Better to give up kingdoms in three dimensions than to give up the Buddha Nature – which is Love.

How many channeled messages point their fingers at love and say, “There it is. There it is.” But we, from our more ordinary experience of love, do not get, do not experience, and do not realize what it is they’re pointing at.

If I were to find a metaphor, I’d say that life in the Third/Fourth Dimension is like swimming in water versus life on the dry land of the Fifth.

We have to work to get anywhere and the speeds we can attain – speed of thought, speed of emotional experience, pace of realizations if we ever reach them – are slowed by the density of the medium.

What follows is not a metaphor. This is a report from an out-of-body experience I had in 1977.  I mention it to provide a second view of the density which the physical body in the Third-Dimensional density impedes any refined experience.

I fully experienced re-entering my body after a lucid dream and went through the process of the spirit moving from “inside” to “outside,” so to speak.

Upon first arriving, I was not looking out through my eyes. But when consciousness shifted from being inside to being outside, I found  myself looking out through the body’s eyes.

In the process I got to experience the spirit before it “re-entered” the physical body and after.  I can testify that the spirit body metaphorically is softer than the down at the base of a feather.  The physical body, in contrast, is as dense as India rubber.

Very few of the feelings from my spirit body penetrated the dense medium that the physical body is.

So we have to realize that we’re swimming in a dense medium. It’s density makes it very difficult to experience a highly-refined state such as real love.

(Concluded in  Part 3, tomorrow.)


(1) See “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

Archangel Michael: The heart opening is the blessing in which you became more clearly aware of your infinite, eternal Self.

Steve Beckow: It didn’t happen in a blinding light or anything.

AAM: No, it did not. It happened in the quiet of the day and the night. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Apr. 24, 2015.)



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Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3 – Steve Beckow

Lavender Visions ~ Artist Christina Dehoff


Before I Knew What Love Was – Part 1/3

Before I knew what love was, I didn’t know that I didn’t know what love was.

But you know, I think back on the West Coast Express with Kathleen, which was a real highpoint in my life, and I wasn’t able to let the wonder of it all in.

Here we were being supported to go from town to town and meet the family, so to speak, and I, who knew nothing of love then, really got only half the picture – if that.

And I was in complete mystery about what was missing.

What was missing was love, I see years later. At that time in my life I didn’t know what love was.

Longtime readers know that I’m speaking of Fifth-Seventh Dimensional love, real love, my meditation guru used to call it. (1)

He spent a lifetime of service and meditation to know that real love. And here we are and it’s handed to us on a silver platter.

Before I knew what real love was, I always asked myself: Is this all there is? I wanted more like a hungry animal.

As a young academic, I stepped on so many paradigms that I was lucky to leave under my own sail.

There had to be more than dinners at the Faculty Club, more than “publish or perish,”  more than the elephant line. (2)

By then, I was finding it impossible to hide the fact that I wanted more in my life. My teeth were chattering: There has to be more than this. Otherwise what am I doing here?

(Continued in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) S.N. Goenka.

(2) A young elephant grasps their mother’s tail and follows along in her footsteps, so to speak.

Requiring a Ph.D. student to have 90% of his dissertation be along the same lines as his supervisor’s – which was the conventional wisdom of the times –  is like asking them to take hold of his tail and follow him around. I found that too confining.



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An Introduction to Detachment – Steve Beckow

buddha_painting_by Melissa Bordeaux at DeviantArt - gold - and blue lotus

Buddha Painting by Melissa Bordeaux @ DeviantArt


An Introduction to Detachment

I was working one minute and in the midst of a spiritual experience the next.

I’ve had a few like this in past years. (1) This time I’m being shown what “detachment” feels like.

As in the other experiences, this mood just “came upon me” as I worked. But I recognized it before it departed and so it stayed and enveloped me.

Some of this article was written as it was happening; some in the afterglow; and some is being edited now:

I’ve been bothering myself that this Fall weather is beautiful and I should be out there.

But the furthest I get is looking out from my window.

I don’t mean I never get out because I do but … I could never figure this reticence to go out, without purpose, into the good weather.

Then today I heard myself say, what’s the difference between standing here and standing there? You’re going to be upright on two legs, looking out over a different vista. And … so?

At last I put a name to to the way I was feeling: “Detached.”  Up till now I’ve been ashamed of this nebulous, unnamed feeling, uncomfortable with it, embarrassed by it.

But when I saw it as detachment and experienced it, I changed my vote.

OK, I got it. I now see what the talk is all about.

It isn’t that I’m opposed to anything or hurt or sulking.  It’s that, all things being equal, nothing exerts a pull on me (beyond the needs of the physical) right now.

I was being given an experience of detachment in a deeper form than ever before.  Based on it, I’d say a synonym for what we mean by “detachment” would be “a focus on the eternal.”

For me, as you know, the basic spiritual movement is to turn from the world to God. (2)

Keeping this in mind, let me now reword what I just said. What I was able to name as happening to myself (and then experiencing) was detachment from the things of the world because of growing attachment to the eternal.

And this – that I am and feel and seem right now – is what detachment looks and feels like to this being:  It doesn’t make sense to this one standing at the window to go from here to there.

I’m sitting here amazed. I’ve been resisting this space since forever. I’m still resisting giving into it completely because I worry I’ll float off into fantasy land. Not caring about anything: That’s not staying with the program.

Another word for “detachment” is “peace.”  If they aren’t one and the same, they come bundled together.


(1) In the past I’ve been shown mastery, abundance, love, bliss, and peace … each as a state of consciousness or divine quality – however you choose to see it.

(2) See “The Basic Spiritual Movement,” June 12, 2009, in Back to the Basics: Introductory Essays to a Cross-Cultural Spirituality, p. 24, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Back-to-the-Basics-R2.pages.pdf   



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Allowing Myself to Feel – Steve Beckow

Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue


Allowing Myself to Feel

I continue to allow myself to feel what arises, the residue of a vasana or core issue reactivated.

As long-time readers know, I regard the re-activation of a vasana as a good thing. It’s only then that we can re-experience the incompleted feelings at the heart of it. (1)

Mostly we don’t share them. We might suppress them or paper them over with a smile.

But my job is to experience them and write about them. That’s why I’m writing about it now.

Not to cleverly manipulate you. I have no interest in that.  Why would I write what I write and manipulate? If you see that in print, you can be sure that a troll or worse has written it.

I write awareness writing because every minute is a potentially-rich learning experience – if we remain aware of things – and I want that learning. These times of lowness are especially generous in lessons. And it won’t kill me to explore them.

So please don’t try to rescue me. Just let me explore the feeling and share about it. I’ll use the upset clearing process on feelings I need to dissipate. (2)


There was a feeling that was asking to be seen and felt.

I saw that I was allowing myself at that moment to feel depressed. That’s the presenting condition. Not like I knew I was depressed before consciously naming it.

It took a while for me to see how I was feeling. I told Suzi I was going for a long walk in Stanley Park to clear my head. And I haven’t been able to get out the door.

That was the first clue. Why can’t I get out the door? Well, I’m depressed, I replied.

OK. Now I’ve named the condition. I can get depressed about being depressed. Or I can use the upset clearing process and move through it.

I choose the latter. Having named the feeling, I now ask my mind to give me a picture or thought about the original incident behind it. It’s seldom the present that we’re reacting to. It’s usually a much-earlier traumatic incident.

I’ll tell you mine, again for educational purposes, so you can see what the incident at the heart of a vasana  looks like. I do this to demonstrate how to move through an upset without “dumping” on others.


I see my Mother lying on her collapsed bed. She’s lost it – God knows why or how – and broken her bed  with her fists in a rage.

The doctor is arranging emergency transportation to the psych ward.

My Aunt Lou has come over and says to me: “Steve, you’d better let me sign her in. Whoever signs her in, she will never speak to that person again.”  My Mother never spoke to Lou again.

Leaving aside my Mother’s situation and speaking only for myself, my world collapsed. I’m maybe sixteen at the time and the idea that my Mother might not be here, in my life, for any reason, had never crossed my mind.

This sequestering of my Mom was a psychic break in my experience of wellbeing and it brought me thoughts, for the first time, of my Mother’s mortality.

For my Mother, her decline after that until she died in a housefire two years later was rapid. (3)

So that’s the significance of the event and the origin of the present-day upset. I concluded that I was now on my own. I decided I needed to “leave the nest” and look after myself – and my Mom.

And finally I did not want to feel the depression and insecurity again that I felt at that time and so I created behavior patterns that would ward off re-experiencing them.

But there it is: The full picture, the earlier traumatic incidents which lie below my present-day feeling of depression.

Now what I need to do is to experience the feeling itself until it lifts.

So not tough it out. Not deny the feelings. Not tamp them down. But experience them until they lift of their own volition.

Jesus described this process when he said: “The truth shall make you free.” If I’m onto the truth, I’ll feel increasing relief. If I’m going down the wrong path, I’ll feel more upset and tension. Once I’m through the process, I’m through it because the truth has set me free.

I now “be with” the feeling of depression.


In my opinion, we just keep creating vasanas until our behavior is so much in line with the divine qualities that we no longer do – or we ascend. The first, I think, would lead to the second. (Only one pathway among many, I’m sure.)

Well, obviously as you can see, I’m through my depression.  It didn’t stay any longer when I ceased to give it energy and just observed it. Awareness dissolves our upsets.

Recovery from our depressed feelings doesn’t have to stretch on for long periods of time. It doesn’t (usually) require a psychoanalyst to handle. I follow Contextual Therapist Bob Shaw’s lead in believing recovery can happen right now and right now.

OK. Time to get back to work. Right now.


(1) See for instance “OK, I Feel Upset. … Oh, Great!” in Vasanas: Preparing for Ascension by Clearing Old Issues. Vancouver: Golden Age of Gaia at http://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R8.pages.pdf

(2) “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/

(3) I’ve spoken to her since then through Linda and she told me she didn’t suffer in her passing.  She was gone long before the fire broke out, she said.

Most people are not required to go through traumatic death experiences; they leave before the end.



Phoenix ~ Fire by Robjoeball @ Epilogue

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Who Am I Without This Identity?- Steve Beckow

The Messenger ~ Artist Elizabeth Banker


Who Am I Without This Identity?

Mike Quinsey is having computer problems and will not have a message to post this week.

Tonight, I’m going through one space after another, dealing with the issue of finances.

Greta Thunberg is in town and I could not rouse myself from my mood to go hear her.

Grief at the thought that this phase of things may be ending is coming up. Once I recognize a layer of emotion, feel it, and let it go, up comes another.

When I ask for the original incident, I see break-ups with various girlfriends.  I see the death of my Mother. I allow myself to experience the grief.

Under that is tremendous fatigue.  Ten years of appeals is for me a tour of duty.

I’ve been as clear as I can with everyone. This is the time to register your vote.  If we cannot achieve a sustainable level of ongoing financial commitment by Oct. 1, I’ll regard that as your verdict and will not  re-open the matter again.

I’ll be activating Plan B, which is to ask Michael to find another way. I have a reading scheduled with him in the very near future.

If nothing can be arranged there, it’s back to the job market. Some people will hear that as a complaint. Not at all. It just means that there won’t be very much writing.

By the way, in answer to your kind email, no, the site will not charge for access to any materials here – neither an admission fee for the site itself nor a price for the books, articles, and databases. The material here must remain freely accessible.

Sadness comes up. Self-doubt. Recrimination. I’m a cauldron of negativity and toxicity, all of it arising to be recycled by the Law of Elimination. (Processing the vasana or core issue this way is the alternative to projecting it onto others.)

I’m not fooled or frightened by these conflicting emotions. It feels like I’ve been processing them – simple and layered – since forever.

It’s just not what you’d want to be doing of a Friday evening.

I feel an identity eroding. Good. Let it erode.

Anything that erodes is not eternal. I’m interested in the eternal. Therefore, who am I without this identity?



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Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important? – Steve Beckow

Print of a Ganeshom painting by Snowy Egret Press @ Etsy


Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important?

I was working in my apartment when bliss suddenly arose.  No warning. No reason I was aware of.

It was a circumstance where, if I did not recognize it and allow it, it’d enter my experience for a second and then vanish.  As if it just poked its head in.

But I did recognize it and I allowed it and it expanded to fill my being.

I have one or two colleagues who are also experiencing bliss.

What I noticed was that two things were exerting countervailing pulls on me.

One was bliss, which was pulling me in one direction. And the other was … what to call it? Personality? Ego? A desire for profile, respect, validation, admiration? Pulling me in another direction.

I saw that I could have one or the other but not both … and I chose bliss.

I didn’t need to sit down and get out my calculator. I didn’t need to ask my friends what they thought. Bingo. The decision was made.

If I allow the ego to arise, it arises in the same space otherwise available to bliss. It’s like a volcano that fills the blue skies with smoke.

I allow the ego to arise through making choices. If I choose not to hook up with it but be the observer instead as Michael so often asks of us, then my hope is the ego will not blossom forth in me. It’ll arise and pass away.

Again, if I stop being lazy and focus on drawing up love and bliss from my heart, I’ll start to use this machine I’m in (for a time) to its best effect.

What’s more important, at this time, than my connection with love?

I used to ask myself: Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

Now I’m asking myself: Why do I refuse to do what’s most important?



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The Mechanics of Love – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Amanda Sage


The Mechanics of Love

I feel a little funny saying it, but I’d like to comment on the mechanics of love, if I may.

I can’t remember how I used to look upon love, say, a decade ago.

The truth is I knew nothing about love until age 68.

I probably accepted that I knew nothing about it except that, if it was there, that was a good thing and, if it was not, that was a bad thing – that needed to be masked or hidden.

Fast forward to today and I now have access to my heart, which before was closed, and I see love more clearly now.

Michael has said that love is everywhere for the getting, but I also believe that we’re meant to seek it specially in our very own artesian well – our hearts.

Here it gushes like an inner tsunami of love, filling every nook and cranny and leaving one drowned in an Ocean of Love.

And, later, when one is no longer swimming in bliss, (1) the door remains open a little. One is still lifted up by a wisp or a wave of this divine, higher-dimensional love.

But there are certain characteristics of it that I’d like to make sure we’re aware of.

And I submit these as philosophers might call postulates, as statements of what I think of as truths, which I make available for the testing.

One is that love is never still. It must flow. We cannot contain it or restrict it in any way or it will simply disappear.

Two is that love must flow universally. We talk about “universal love.” If it isn’t universal, it isn’t love. Love is by its very nature always, already universal. It flows in all directions.

Three is that we taste love as it passes through us onto its next destination. That’s why so many people roll their eyes when feeling that love. It’s like having a feather drawn through your heart only ten times more gentle.

It’s rapturous. And we retain the memory of it to spur us on.

Four is that its next destination is someone who’s aware of it. It may flow through someone unaware of it, but they’ll be … unaware of it.

One has to be aware of love, bliss, peace, etc., for them to blossom. I’ve found this to be the case repeatedly.

I think it may prove the same with the dimensional setting we find ourselves in: It’ll depend on what we’re aware of.

To summarize: Love flows universally, but we’re unaware of its flow. Or we’re aware of it but try to hold onto it and it disappears.

It’s open to us instead to call it up from our hearts on our inbreath and send it out to the world on the outbreath (see the “Love Pump” graphic at top). And revel in the love as it passes through us.


(1) All spiritual experiences below Sahaja Samadhi (or Ascension) are either partial or temporary. Only the fire of Sahaja burns the vasanas (the seeds of future action) to a crisp.



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Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Vladimir Volegov


Giving and Generosity – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

Getting back to generosity as a divine state, I know from experience that divine states eventuate – they end up – in love. (1)

I think the Mother is saying: Here’s an easy way to begin exercising your muscle of generosity and clearing the path to transformative love.

In my experience, generosity blends into love.  There isn’t a hard and fast border between them. I’d like to say that generosity invites love. Certainly love comes up with generosity: two for the price of One.

It’s this love that we’ll all need to make wise decisions as financial stewards of the Mother later.

So it isn’t just a case of generosity arising in us because it’s something nice or a pleasant feeling. It’s all that but much more.

It’s the basic curriculum of a financial steward: Generosity 101 as preparation for Humanitarian Philanthropy 202. That I think is what the Mother intends.

So do look inside and fan the flame of generosity you find. Please donate to the upkeep of the blog, using the button below.

See it, if you will, as part of building a generous world, one whose stewards are outfitted with the right qualities to administer a global donor economy.

Love offerings from others, who like us are also in a receiving position, are sincerely welcomed as well.


(1) Let me clarify. I know from experience that generosity blends into transformative love in the opened heart – the heart after a 4th-chakra heart opening, such as we as a planet are gradually going through at this moment.

I no longer am aware of what generosity results in before such an event.

Moreover, I’ve lost interest in what my prior condition was (as SaLuSa predicted long ago). No, I’m not ascended. I’m just a little bit more opened up than I was.


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Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow

Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes


Giving and Generosity – Part 1/2

Giving and generosity are not always the same. They’re often different.

Everyone can give. But some people do because they feel they have to. Or should.

In my view, no disrespect meant, if we felt forced or obliged to give, that wouldn’t fall under “generosity.”

It isn’t what the Divine Mother, in my opinion, wants us to do. I think she wants us to light the fires of generosity.

The Mother has asked the GAoG team to allow ourselves (among other lightworkers and groups) to be used  to light that fire. Here she discusses it:

Divine Mother: You have agreed that you are on, can we say, the receiving end.

Steve: So our allowing ourselves to be in a position to need to ask for help is used as a means to get people to open up?

Divine Mother: To express gratitude, generosity, unity and to express what is valuable to them.

Steve: So that is what the spiritual meaning of this is. That we serve the purpose of igniting people’s generosity or inspiring it.

Divine Mother: That is correct. You are the catalysts. (1)

Tough assignment.  But OK. The fire must be lit.

Why is that?

Generosity is a divine state of consciousness. There’s immense value in entering into it – as a state – in and of itself.

But, leaving that aside for the moment (I’ll return to it in Part 2), we’re also the Mother’s financial stewards and we’ll be administering a significant stream of funds in her post-Reval New Earth.

I don’t think we’ll get very far if we’re giving with suspicion, resentment, or worry about ourselves.

At some point, whether we know it or not, we’ll have to light the fires of our own generosity to do the job we’ll face.

It’s there inside us but dormant.  The Mother wants GAoG to serve as the occasion for awakening it again.

If we have an inner block against giving generously, then lighting our fires may require some inner work, now or later. The cost is lower now.

I’m seeing things from the other side now, playing this role in her plan. And I do see the sense of it.

So please, use this as an occasion to light the fires of generosity. Press the “Donate” button below and give to the upkeep of the blog – on a one-time basis or, better still, on a monthly basis. Start in on generous giving but don’t stop with us. The Mother is using many other lightworkers in the same way as us.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, June 7, 2015.


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Radiance ~ Artist Meganne Forbes

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Quite a Ways Down the Road – Steve Beckow

Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery


Quite a Ways Down the Road

Sages for millennia have called the Creator, Preserver and Transformer of the world of matter (mater, Mother) the Divine Mother.

Here’s Lao Tzu for instance:

“Nameless indeed is the source of creation [the Father],
But things have a mother and she has a name.”  (1)

And Sri Yukestwar Giri, guru of Paramahansa Yogananda:

“‘It is the Spirit of God [the Holy Spirit or Divine Mother] that actively sustains every form and force in the universe; yet he [the Father] is transcendental and aloof in the blissful uncreated void beyond the worlds of vibratory phenomena,’ Master explained.”(2)

When the Mother speaks through Linda Dillon, she identifies herself as the Mother as well. (3)

This though there is no gender at the levels of reality we’re talking about. That leads me to believe that it’s a teaching tool.

They’re represented as the exact opposite of human psychological stereotypes.  In psychology, the male is seen as active and the woman as passive. In spirituality, the Heavenly Male is seen as passive and the Divine Female as active.

In Hinduism, especially, a literature has grown up that incorporates divine consorts and sacred partnerships, all deriving from the original coupleship of the Father and the Mother, the Source and the Creator.

It puts the journey of life into terms we can understand and identify with.

My vision in 1987 showed me that we’re embarked on a common journey from God the Father to God the Father. God the Mother’s material world is our school where we learn our true identity until, having seen it, we experience the moment of enlightenment that constitutes our graduation.

At that moment God meets God.  God the Child, having been birthed and raised to awareness by God the Mother, reunites with God the Father, who is the All.

That, I’m told, is quite a ways down the road….


(1) Lao Tzu, The Way of Life. The Tao Te Ching. trans. R.B. Blakney. New York, etc.: Avon, 1975, 53.

“It began with a matrix: The world had a mother.” (Ibid., 105.)

“The formless Absolute is my Father, and God with form is my Mother.” (Kabir quoted by Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 150.)

(2) Paramahansa Yogananda, quoting Sri Yukteswar Giri in Autobiography of a Yogi. Bombay: Jaico, 1975, 143.)

(3) See for instance “The Divine Mother: Your Essence is Purity,” 



Sita Daughter of the earth oil painting @ Tom’s Gallery

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A Matter That Simple – Steve Beckow

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva


A Matter That Simple

I once joked with Michael that I’d groan and moan and complain the whole way and then want all the glory afterwards.

He said, yes, you do want your pound of flesh.

Pound of flesh….

What kind of behavior are we discussing? Because I think it’s one of the ways of the world.  Especially now, in these chaotic times.

I’d call it “childish” if I were to boil it down to a word. Only a child wants a pound of flesh.

Another way of saying what I personally think the world is lacking right now would be to say “adult behavior.”

Adult behavior is not attached to drama. It doesn’t go to extremes.

It doesn’t exact its pound of flesh. It’s attached to a successful outcome, as win/win as possible.

Adult behavior prepares us for interacting with our star family as they arrive on-planet. (1) I predict that they won’t meet with folks enamored of drama.

Adult behavior does a cost/benefit analysis when it’s about to blow a gasket. Do the potential costs I could incur outweigh the benefits I think I’ll get? This is coming from a career gasket-blower, by the way.

Adult behavior processes the vasana rather than projecting the strong feelings onto others. “You made me mad!” Nope. No pass on that one. Especially not in these confused and confusing times.

You made you mad by responding the way you did to a triggered vasana (core issue). You responded angrily. That’s a choice. It’s a long road back from anger but it doesn’t change the fact that getting angry is a choice.

Process the vasana, instead of projecting it. Ask yourself where does the strong feeling originate? What incident in my past history has triggered this?

Take the first picture that comes along. “Be” with it. Experience the feelings through to completion and the vasana will lift – temporarily. Rinse and repeat as necessary. It’s just a matter of retraining ourselves.

This is adult behavior, in my opinion. Projecting one’s anger onto another is not.

The scenario I can’t get out of my mind is being yelled at: “I don’t have any vasanas.”

Say what?

Finally, adult behavior is loving, compassionate, and cooperative. It knows that a higher-dimensional world, a world that works for everyone, is coming.

No matter how we might feel and be as individuals, feeling and being this way as a world is the object of this journey. Returning the world to peace and harmony is the task at hand. And this calls for us all to act as adults.

I’m asking us to leave “childish” behavior behind, no matter where we live. We need “adult,” loving, compassionate behavior in a chaotic world.

It all boils down to a matter that simple.


(1) See “On the Delegations,” September 9, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/09/09/on-the-delegations/  



female male family child - art by Mariana Kalacheva

Artist ~ Mariana Kalacheva

Gratitude to all artists. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah

Good Work – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


Good Work

I’m observing myself as I do my writing and I notice that I have this concept of “good work.”‘

“Good work” is work I feel love, bliss, or joy in doing. Or peace or tranquillity. Good work elevates.

“Undesirable work” is work I feel irritation, anger, or resistance in doing. This kind of work depresses. I should probably let this kind of work slip off the table.

The exact point at which I saw that I had this notion of “good work” was when I was doing my monthly budget.

I love doing my monthly budget. I love being organized. Here I was, updating my budget, merrily working away.

Hit the pause button.

If you knew me, you’d know I have this story that I hate math. (1)

But my story doesn’t fit the reality.

In reality I very much enjoy adding up the columns of figures and checking it with my bank records. I feel elevated doing it, happily working my way through things and reconciling it all. I just won’t admit it to myself.

So doing my budget falls unexpectedly into this category that I’ve called “good work.”  Acknowledging it as such now removes the blinders that I’ve had on: The truth has set me free.

Anything I think of that can benefit others I think of as “good work” as well. Large or small.  I feel love in the doing of it.

Being on the awareness path is for me a great blessing because the act of awareness causes a condition to lift. So I both get to study a field that supremely interests me and heal myself of all the trauma we accumulate in the process. What’s not to like?

The ultimate act of self-awareness – and its goal – is to be aware of the Self/All Self.

This lifetime I don’t get to be monkish or philosophical. This is a hands-on, karma-yoga lifetime of service. To the monk in me, “service” translates as “work.”

I mean the phrase, “good work,” in the same way the Buddha meant “right action.”  There are universal laws and behavior that aligns with them is right action; in the same vein, work that aligns with universal law and the divine qualities is good work.

Added to the evidence of awareness is the knowledge of the masters. Jesus’s observation that the truth shall set you free is a cornerstone of awareness practice. (2)

The truth does set us free. The follower of the awareness path endeavors to remain in the present moment, which it turns out is also the place of experienced truth. They aim for personal transparency, consistent with duty or dharma, and revel in receiving mirroring and feedback.

Self-awareness is the most fascinating of fields of study for me and the most rewarding. (2) Any time I spend in it I regard as “good work.”


(1) Michael says that I was a mathematical philosopher in another lifetime and, after it, I begged him never to ask me to be a mathematician again.

(2) Tell the truth and it’ll set us free from the condition.

We can use that knowledge in the following way.

We can measure our progress in freeing ourselves from an upset.  Are we feeling freer, lighter, happier? Then we know the truth is being expressed.

Are we feeling denser, darker, and more irritable? Then we know we’re moving farther and farther away from the truth.  Time to turn around and go another way.

(1) I spent three months in a growth-movement program that featured encounter groups and different therapeutic workshops, at Cold Mountain Institute in … 1975-6? After that, est, rebirthing, Zen, enlightenment intensives, etc. The thing that united all of them was awareness.




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Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow

Shelter Of The Sacred by Shiloh Sophia McCloud


Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 2/2

Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

I also see barriers to the resistance falling away. Here’s one. I think I have to say to someone who challenges me on authority: “I speak on my own divine authority.”

No, I don’t. “I speak on my own authority.”

To say “on my divine authority” is to invite controversy. Why go that route?

I know. What does it matter whether the other person does or not? Or believes that I do or not? It doesn’t affect my knowledge.

I see barriers coming up right and left. Voices saying: “But I want others to know.” No, you don’t. You just want to feel like a hero. They each have their own path. Let your concern go.

Oh, yes, my precious knowledge.  I have to be well discerned. I have to read only the best.

I once read only enlightened authors for ten years – after my 1987 vision – to find words to put to it. Perhaps I should go back to that.

I will when I retire.

Right now the agenda is the Ascension of Gaia and all her inhabitants. Therefore, back to uncovering my divine authority.

All the divine states simply are. They don’t come with a manual.

We’re given intuition and guidance to find the key to unlock the door.

The door has to be unlocked by our own efforts (1/1,000) combined with the Mother’s Grace (999/1,000). (1)  As I discuss in the footnote, the Mother’s Grace far outweighs my small efforts.

But nothing is straightforward where souls are concerned. There are many things that have to be factored in to this equation. I am in service to the Mother as a communicator: That means that my experiences will be molded and even truncated if “going too far” jeopardizes my mission.

It also means, I believe, that I’m given more experiences than the average person because they know I’ll write about them.

So here I am digging away at the debris to discover what my divine authority is, knowing that, when I discover it, it’ll be mostly because of the Mother’s Grace.


Here’s a clue. Contemplating my divine authority, I’ve ended up in a state of higher-dimensional love. This aligns with my experience of all the other divine states; I end up in the experience of love.

Is this what is meant by saying that love takes in all the divine qualities?


(1) In other words, her input is vastly more than ours.

Note that you can see in my own case that the Mother plans and monitors enlightenment events and takes an active role in them.

I experienced a full-blown, 4th-chakra heart opening, but did not experience the fulness of the 4th-chakra sight of the Self. The Mother later acknowledged truncating the latter as Archangel Michael did as well.

Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?

Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.

Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated.  …

DM: It was not as brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.

Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?

DM: It is to keep you in sync with your readers. (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)

Michael on truncating in general:

Archangel Michael: If you were completely involved in your full awakening, you in very great likelihood would not be forming a platform with me.  You would be off somewhere in an ashram meditating.

So that is what we have meant.  Ground yourself.  Be human and love the experience of being in form.  (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, May 6, 2013.)

If I had the full experience of any of these states, I’d most probably be off in the Himalayas finishing the job.

The upshot of these experiences is that the active involvement of the Mother and the Archangels in my own spiritual unfoldment rests with me as a proven fact.

This then becomes part of my knowledge base, which contributes a sense of certainty to me about the nature of the life that I encounter every day, inside and out.

Moreover, getting clear about it as I am here removes another barrier to the realization of what my divine authority is.



Shelter Of The Sacred by Shiloh Sophia McCloud

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Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow

Heather Shirin artist.


Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 1/2

I’m beginning to see the tie-in between divine qualities, states of consciousness, and contexts.

They’re different words pointing at the same thing.

I’ve experienced mastery, abundance, and peace, which are divine qualities, as states of consciousness.

They were expansive, transformative – certainly higher states than ordinary consciousness.

Werner Erhard calls the same phenomenon a “context,” something that includes and involves everything. Health and peace are examples of contexts. I experienced the states of consciousness as contexts as well.

Love is an example of a divine quality (1) which is a state of consciousness and a context.  I know that for a certainty.

It may turn out that claiming my divine authority is also a state of consciousness and a context. I’m in the process of finding out.

How do I know something is all three – a divine quality, state of consciousness, and context?

By the transformative impact living in that state of consciousness has on me. Take love for instance.

When I’m in the experience of higher-dimensional love, I’m a completely-different person. It’d be as if I were in constant orgasm. Bliss, bliss, bliss, if only it would be everlasting (and it will be someday).

I notice that, with the experience of every other state of consciousness (mastery, abundance, etc.), I ended up in transformative love. I expect to end up in transformative love when I experience my divine authority as well.

I get glimpses. These present to me as a rock-solid confidence.  In other words, just as I experienced purity and innocence while gazing on the Self, so also here I experience rock-solid certainty and confidence while “feeling” or glimpsing my divine authority.

Because you and I are divine, right? So it isn’t as if we’re feeling into illusion. We’re feeling into the truth of our divinity, which needs to be settled with us before we experience our authority.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) Apparently it’s actually more than a divine quality; it is the Divine. I haven’t experienced the truth of that statement yet.

For convenience only I include it among the qualities.



Heather Shirin artist.

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Does My World Work? – Steve Beckow

Yogini With Flowers @ Lasha Mutual Fine Art (Dakini As Art)


Does My World Work?

Am I creating in my own life a world that works for everyone?

No, I’m not.

I can still be grumpy and territorial and impatient. I snarl at bad bus-line behavior.  I tell people trying to sneak on for free where the front door of the bus is. Cosmic policeman.

Nevertheless, I do know how the world is when it does work for everyone. I have that one skill, that one string to my bow.

I spent months in that space. (1) It’s a space of Love. I hope capitalizing it will make my point. It’s a higher form of love than many people have experienced, apparently.

Many of us might have experienced it for a few moments in a peak experience. And then it’s gone and just a memory. I had a long-enough visit that I could take note of it and write up my experience of it.

I can still summon the Love up from my heart but … and here come my excuses.

What is higher-dimensional Love like? I’ve often compared ordinary love to Tang and higher-dimensional Love to freshly-squeezed Florida orange juice.  But that comparison really doesn’t do it justice (I nearly said, “juice-tice”).  It’s way beyond that.

Being in that Love is being in an ascended state. Fifth to seventh-dimensional I was told by Michael and the Arcturians.

In that state, a person wants nothing else than more Love. They wouldn’t lift a finger against another person. All they want to do is to share the Love and have other people enter into the the flow of it.

I feel like I have an above-top-secret secret. “Pssst! I know where Shangra-la is.” (In the heart.)

But it’s true. If everyone drowned in the Ocean of Love or fell into the Lake of Bliss, such an Ascension of consciousness would produce a world that works for everyone. And we will do these things. That’s my firm prediction. (3)

Meanwhile, creating a world that works for everyone as nearly as I can in my own life seems like a very productive experiment to run.

I loved Adamu’s distinction between self-responsible and other-responsible. (2) If I’m to be self-responsible, rather than waiting for others to do it for me (create a world that works), then I need to make the world around me work.


(1) “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/submerged-in-love/

“Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 1/2” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-12/

“Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 2/2,” athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-22/

(2) “Notes on Adamu Speaks ~ Timelines… and the Dissolution of the illuminati!,” 

(3) Nothing I’ve ever predicted has come to pass. Along with everyone else.



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Ready for the Historic – Steve Beckow

circle-light-art faces male female dolphins


Ready for the Historic

As you know, I need to use this time to sandpaper some of my rougher qualities if I’m to be of use later on.

Part of an Ascension ethnography is the cleansing or purification phase, known to all terrestrial students of enlightenment.

However, things have changed now with the rising energies, it seems. Vasanas that would have remained deeply buried appear to be rising to the surface all over the place, like calving glaciers.

I know they’re coming up fast and thick for me.

And all of it is arising to be swept away, as Michael explained in May 2019:

“Everything that has need to be eliminated, everything that has need to be relinquished, everything that needs to be healed in this cesspool that we call ‘chaos’ has need to come to the surface.

“Otherwise – and this has happened many, many times in human history – there is a belief, there is a healing, an accommodation, a remedy, and then the human collective tends to think, ‘Okay, now it is cleaned up. Now it is healed. Now it is done.’

“But the core issues [i.e., the vasanas] – of the collective, and of course of the individuals, have not been addressed, and therefore it simply settles in and it festers.

“In this part of the infinite, eternal unfoldment of our Mother’s Plan, it all has need to be surfaced so that this subtle and actual festering until it again boils over cannot happen. It is simply, in your time and in the Mother’s time, the juncture at which this has to be healed. So it continues to rise to the surface.” (1)

I can live with that.

I can give you an example of a core issue that arose for me in the course of working away at something this morning. I was imagining talking to an employee at Michaelangelo & Partners and I said, at the end, “We’re good.”

And I suddenly found myself doubled up in pain and tears.

Never when I was growing up was I told I was good.  I succumbed to the criticism and blame from the male side of our family and took upon myself the identity that I was bad. Hey, this is common, garden-variety family stuff.

To hear the word, “We’re good” come out of my mouth was like someone announcing I’d won the lottery. Words I’d never heard before.

This is a core issue. I’m still weeping as I write.

In the course of reparenting myself, I’m coaxing my wounded Child to come back across the line that divides people, in their own minds, into “good” and “bad.” And there is resistance born of fear.

I can tell you for a positive fact, on my own authority, that we are at essence pure and innocent. Xenia showed me that. (2)

So we are good. Unwittingly I’d just expressed a deep and transcendent truth: We are good. At essence we are pure and innocent, the essence of goodness.

Goodness has been in disrepute since the Sixties but it may be time to bring it back again.

It’s territory that I haven’t ventured into for so long my mouth is mentally agape. In my own mind, I’m a bad man dressed up to look good. And why am I bad? Ask Dad.

It’s these core issues we need to clear. It’s these that Michael describes as being raised to the surface to be taken from us once and for all. (3)

So I’m sandpapering myself, grateful that we have a bit more time before anything big happens.  I want to be ready for the historic.


(1) “Archangel Michael: Victory is at Hand!” May 10, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/05/10/archangel-michael-victory-is-at-hand/.

(2) That I knew for a certainty out of my experience at Xenia. See “Original Innocence,” Sept. 21, 2018, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/21/original-innocence-2/

(3) For me to consider myself to be a “good” person is for me to have transcended a huge core issue.  It looks so simple, so innocuous. But it’s like trying to push an iceberg.

Most of any vasana (core issue) remains unexpressed, hidden like the better part of an iceberg.  Only rarely do we fully express ourselves in the course of experiencing one through to completion.

I had the privilege of being able to do that on a four-month resident fellowship at Cold Mountain Institute in 1975-76 (I believe).  It was a carousel of week-long workshops in growth and spirituality with an ongoing encounter group in the evenings.

But most people don’t have that opportunity and so, as Michael pointed out, most of our issues remain uncleared, lurking below the surface, awaiting being triggered once again.

For some assistance with clearing them, see “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/



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Archangel Michael on the Time of Separation – Steve Beckow

Hydrangeas (Photo: VK Chernyak/Shutterstock)


Archangel Michael on the Time of Separation

While researching leadership, I came across this passage from Archangel Michael, in which he discusses the “time of separation.”

Recently we heard Adamu say that timelines are diverging. SaLuSa discussed divine deadlines and a time of separation perhaps a decade ago.

And now Michael explains (generally) when and how this separation will happen.

Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, July 22, 2016.

Steve: What do you mean by time of separation, Lord?  SaLuSa discussed it years ago.

AAM: When you made the collective decision to ascend as one, it was spiritually a very mature and evolved decision. …

That does not mean that, yes, in the infinite and eternal existence of the Mother, she will wait forever because this is the unfoldment of her Plan. This is what the penetration with all of our voices into each and every one of you is about.

There will be those who choose to leave, to abandon their physical forms rather than ascend in physical form.

Steve: That is what you mean by separation – leave?

AAM: That is what I mean and I do not mean being spun off into an alternate world or Earth or Gaia or planet. I mean simply, abandoning the body, dying, leaving, and coming home. There is no penalty or shame or guilt. It is simply a decision.

But it is not the desire of the Mother that this [Ascension process] simply continue [forever] because what she also sees (what we all see) and what you’ve repeatedly said to us, even though we operate often in terms of eons rather than years, many of you are tired.

So we do not wish for those who have been stalwart and continue and practice fortitude and persistence along with love to reach the point where they abandon their bodies. And you are seeing that in many.

Steve: I can think of one person in particular that seems to be thinking of abandoning their body, so yes.

AAM: When it comes to a decision point of whether the recalcitrant remain or whether those who are determined to fulfil the Mother’s dream remain, make no mistake about it. Those who have been in the truth of their heart and service will be victorious. I cannot be clearer than that.



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Who am I? – Steve Beckow

Heart of Infinity by Anna Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America


Who am I?

Who am I? It’s my turn? You want me to tell you….


You’re not asking a non-dualistic question, are you? You want a down-to-earth answer?

Well, to start with, I’m a person who’s looking to meet people who know what real love is.

Many people say they do and turn out not to.

I live for the day when large numbers of people actually do know what true love is, as we all will once the gradual planetary heart opening we’re presently going through is complete.

I’m a person who wants to meet people who accept my speaking to archangels. This blog is a co-creative partnership with an archangel and I’d like to meet people for whom that’s the coolest thing, not a jaw-dropper.

I’m a person who’s driven by his mission, who’ll sacrifice close to anything to carry through on it.  I see now that all my life I’ve refused to stop and insisted on carrying on with what I came to know as my soul contract aka what I love doing – writing.

I’m a person who walked away from formal studies, alwaysknowing (1) that there was very much more to be had than what I was seeing and hearing in “higher” institutions.

On my own in the library during my graduate years, I studied history, anthropology, sociology, and psychology. (2) Mostly for my own interest.

Some programs I left because I abandoned the paradigm of empirical materialism, that only what we see, hear, feel, and touch is real. That paradigm was too small to allow a fruitful pursuit of the truth.

Some I left because people seemed simply to be going through the motions to get ahead.  I wanted truth from a university, not tenure. I discovered that truth was not in my university’s charter. (3)

When I left an endeavor, it seldom felt like I’d lost – well, it did for a time. More often it felt like I was going for something indefinably more. I knew there was more. There had to be more.

It was helpful that I had little interest in material things, like owning a house or having a great car. (4) I never felt that I was somehow tied to anything, “established” or “rooted.” I could move on when the next assignment beckoned.

I also remember emphasizing, with myself, that my databases and everything else I worked with had to be “portable.” A laptop with everything in it is like heaven for me. It allows me to move around.

The feeling that I needed to keep going was so strong that I never questioned it. I assumed that everyone felt this way. But at long last I began to see that it wasn’t necessarily shared.

I’m a person who’s been given plenty of previews of where we’re headed. I expect that’s because I can be relied on to write about them. Fortunately I studied enlightenment years before the experiences started happening so I had a context into which to fit them. (5)

I’m a person who’s going to be so busy in the years ahead that my work life will have to be my social life.  I won’t have time for anything else.

And finally I’m a person who’s after something compelling and unknown that I know I’ll find and I know I’ll know it when I find it.

I have no idea what it is or where, when, or how I’ll find it. I justknow I will.


(1) It was the same kind of feeling that the Mother called “divine knowing”:

Steve: Am I correct in continuing to say to myself, “This source is not what they say they are but it doesn’t matter. I’m still serving Archangel Michael.”

Divine Mother: You have reached this place of clarity. Now, dearest heart, this is exactly what I am talking about in terms of your divine knowing. And nothing is swaying you from that balanced center of knowing. (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018. My emphasis.)

The place of divine knowing did feel solid, stable. It’s a place of rock-solid certainty.

In this, it resembles peace which is like granite. See “Peace is Like … Granite,” August 22, 2019, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/08/22/peace-is-like-granite/. On the experience of peace itself, see “The Peace that Passeth Understanding,” July 18, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/07/18/the-peace-that-passeth-understanding/.

Here is Michael on the solidity of peace:

“Peace is solid.

“There are so many divine qualities that do feel amorphous, light, airy, like a spring day. And yet peace (you have this expression), you can take it to the bank. It feels like ballast. It feels like granite because it is solid. And dare I say immutable. That is why I continue to keep emphasizing that peace within, that rock-solid granite within.” ( “Archangel Michael on AHWAA: Achieving Inner Peace,” )

Again, like the other divine states, it isn’t at all as what we might expect. And the experience of it is transformative.  If I were in my divine knowing at this moment, I expect that I’d be higher in vibration, whether dimensional or not I don’t know.

(2) My thesis adviser once said to me that he thought I read only the introductions to books. He was right. I went from one field to the next in the library and only read the theoretical parts – the introductions.

I just wanted to know what the field was about – linguistics, proxemics, kinesics, folkloristics, etc. I had no interest in the details.

(3) I wanted to study enlightenment for my Ph.D. Thesis but, when I approached the Department of Religious Studies with the proposal, they informed me that they were prevented from studying enlightenment by the university’s charter.

(4) Except for my collections of things – marbles, soldiers, dinosaurs, model airplanes,  later books, etc.

(5) I remember being at an Adyashanti workshop in which Adya was helping a woman understand that the experience she went through, which totally bamboozled her, was enlightenment. She had no idea what had happened.

I had the advantage of having studied the subject even if I could not somehow get the whole picture. On Feb. 13, 1987, in a vision, I got the whole picture.  See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/



Heart of Infinity by Anna Ewa Miarczynska @ Fine Art America

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The Symbol of the Sun – Steve Beckow

7 Horses Of The Sun God by Herendra Swarup @ Best College Art


The Symbol of the Sun

This is the second of two articles occasioned by reflection on a vision experience I had in 1987. (1)

Sunset is a very emotional time for me.

To understand why, I’d have to mention (again) the actors in the 1987 vision I had.

I knew who the actors in the vision were because I was bathed in bliss at the time.  Bliss brings all things to remembrance, so to speak. (2)

The first actor I saw was a large golden Sun and I knew that to be what Jesus meant by “God the Father.”

Out from the Sun came a little golden star and I knew that to be what some sages call the “Self”; Jesus, the Son, the Christ, the Pearl of great price; Hindus, the Atman and Brahman-within-the-individual; what I call the Child of God, etc.

Gosh, I get caught up in this so easily. Here I am, in the process of being swept away.

I need go no further with the vision than to jump to the penultimate scene.  The Child of God has experienced the first enlightenment and stands gazing at the Sun.

In the final scene, I watched the Child of God, the Christ, or Atman race to and merge itself again with the golden Sun from which it came. End of story for one Child of God.


I digress, I know. But please allow me. Writing about this is my joy.

So I got it. From God we came; to God we return. From God to God. All in aid of enlightenment, at which point God meets God. Everything I’ve just seen (in the spiritual tableau), the whole world of worlds the individual soul traversed was created in order to have these moments of divine meeting occur.

Some people tell us that we’re allowing illusion to reign. God created illusion in order to have the pleasure of meeting Itself. It isn’t as if there’s something bad and wrong about the illusion. It’s one of God’s highly-intentional, even basic creations.

God put it there to give us something to recognize and wake up to, so that God could see and experience Itself. How else could something that is everything know itself, than to create an illusory world in which fragments of itself, who agree to forget, follow lives that lead to the recognition of their true identity? And in that flash, God realizes Itself. Perfect.


The words roll off our tongue, but the implications are immense. If God is everything, then you are God. And so am I.

Therefore all of this unfolding is according to my Plan. And yours. And ours.

Everything on Earth that’s happening is happening inside of me.

Nothing the illusory part of me does has any lasting significance unless it contributes to its and the collective’s ultimate awakening.

God meeting God carries immense mutual benefits.

The implications just keep rolling out.


By the way, when would I have the time, courage, or ability to allow this unfoldment to occur in public if I had to do a nine-to-five job?  I don’ think I’d even attempt it. At a moment like this, I realize that I owe my ability to write this Ascension ethnography to you. And to go as deeply as I’m able.

I feel a tremendous amount of gratitude and bondedness. Not just from those who sent money.

I know what love feels like. Sending love, which really does reach the other party, is happily accepted.


To return to my original point, the sun sets directly in front of my apartment. And so it comes fully into view at a place in the sky where it’s safe for me to gaze at it.

What I see is the large Sun in my vision and I often talk to it as the Father.

I see myself, as in my vision, standing on the shore of the realm of matter (mater, Mother), and gazing at the Father in the Transcendental, represented by the Sun.

I’ve had the first enlightenment (fourth-chakra heart opening and sight of the Self), just as the little golden star in my vision had. That golden star then left the domain of the Mother, raced back to the Father, and merged with It.

I know our Sun is a portal. Last night I tried to get the Sun to extend that portal all the way to me and take me to the Father. Just like in my vision?

Ahhhh, not yet.

Smilingly, I’m still here.


(1) The actual vision is described here: “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

The first article in this series is “It All Works Out in the Final Reel (Repost),” 

(2) OK, OK, it doesn’t allow you to know what happened on June 13, 1867. But it greatly expands one’s knowing. I just “knew” the identities of the large golden Sun (the Father) the small golden star (the Child) and the cloud that contained lifetimes in matter (the Mother, mater, matter).



7 Horses Of The Sun God by Herendra Swarup @ Best College Art

Gratitude to all artists. Any queries, please contact me, Shekinah